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How “The Perks of Being a Wallflower” Showed me that Beautiful Souls Come in ‘Strange’ Little Packages…

If there’s nothing else that you take away from yet another one of my review posts, just take this – “The Perks of Being a Wallflower” really did highlight the perks of being a wallflower.

The perks are that you get to experience life in ways that no one else does. As said in the book, you get to be quiet and listen and understand instead of being involved in things. This coming of age, philosophical drama was very touching. I felt for Charlie when he was sad, and I loved laughing along with him when he was happy. I just wanted him to have a happy ending, and despite the actual ending he got, I think he was happy.

And this is important. This was the point of the book. Though life shits on us all too often, there is still a happy ending. Still something good, anything at all, that should be focused on. Family, friends, and fun. Charlie’s struggle with overpowering emotions and tough thoughts resonated with me a lot, being an anxiety sufferer and a highly sensitive person. I understood that it is so difficult to switch off sometimes, especially when you need to most. Charlie would do all that he could to keep busy and not cry but it was often just too hard. And I understood that which made me connect with his character a lot more.

And I’ve been the wallflower. Less so now than when I was Charlie’s age, but I have been just like him. The person who’s left out. The person who doesn’t understand why people are doing or saying what they are. The person who loves family more than anything. The person who just feels like a burden on others. And the person who just wants to make sure that everyone else is happy, even  at your own expense.

But what I didn’t understand was Charlie’s specific childhood. I didn’t understand how horrific that must have been. And I am not Charlie, with his unique mind and view of the world. But I loved being introduced to him. Because Charlie is a special soul. His view of the world is beautiful. He is right to question things and love complex people and say what’s on his mind. Though I feel he has a case of Asperger’s, which people would call a disorder or whatever, I would say this makes him beautiful. Though he and many real people in our world will face a lot of difficulties in life, I say to those people that the world could do with more like you. You are special. And not in the insensitive use of the word but in the real sense of the word – you are unique; you are important. I’d love a friend like Charlie. I really would.

And I hope books like this encourage people to realise that it doesn’t matter if someone else’s mind works differently to yours. Instead that person can teach us something we would never see ourselves. Disorder or no disorder; whatever creed or colour you associate with; each person on this planet has a unique view of the world, and only the brave and the beautiful and the open minded will be able to embrace the ideas of all of these different people with an air of curiosity, instead of malice.

So extend a hand to someone who you find ‘different’ instead of raising a fist or throwing around a bad word. This person will brighten your life and open your mind in ways you never thought possible.

And read this book if you don’t believe me.

Seek Friendship. Seek Openness. Seek Peace.

Why the Film “Arrival” is so Important.

Me and my family watched “Arrival” on Sunday, and it really touched me. I didn’t expect it to resonate with me so much. I expected another alien film but it wasn’t that at all. It was about something very un-alien = US.

Here’s a list of what the film thought me and made me consider…

That we as humans are no united. We find new ways to see differences with others all the time.
We have a huge negativity bias that urges us to see red before any other colour.
We use our intelligence for bad.
Language separates us when it should be the strongest thing to unite us.
Even when we know something bad is going to happen, if it makes us feel good for any amount of time, it’s OK.
Only when we unite are we formidable.
Just because we don’t understand something, doesn’t mean that is a threat or should be treated with anything but respect.
Brilliant people are people with open minds and brave hearts.
Fear is a strong motivator, perhaps the strongest of motivators, and it pushes us to do rash, illogical things.
Time is relative. It is a concept that we made up. And when you truly consider that, the possibilities are endless.

Go see the film, and get thinking.

 

Seek Peace.

What I Learned from Reading “Looking for Alaska”…

Just recently, I have finished reading “Looking for Alaska” by John Green. It was a fantastic read, the first that I’ve completed in a few days in a long, long time.

But why am I telling you that? Why should you care? Well firstly, you should follow my lead. Get reading. Read whenever you can. Read whatever you can. And take it all in. I can not even begin to explain the importance of books. They are inexhaustible magic.

Why “Looking for Alaska”? I loved it because from the get-go, it gave a hint of existentialism. It questioned the meaning of things, life particularly, and this made me question things too. What was the importance of this book?

Showed me that dysfunctional friends, and quirky people, make the strongest bonds.
You don’t have to have it all together to be a strong person.
It’s OK to not know what you want.
It’s OK to be in pain.
All you need is good friends to help you through anything.
Everyone has a past, and a lot of us have hard pasts. Being broken is OK, it’s about how you put yourself back together again.
Love, of all kinds, can heal wounds.
Sometimes we can’t have all the answers, but we must accept it and move on with life in order to live better.
Suffering is inevitable, it’s how we cope with it that matters most.
We should seek the “Great Perhaps”, a great mysterious future.
People can be beautiful on the inside even with their faults and dysfunctions.
What matters in life often hurts.
Growing up isn’t easy for anyone, that’s why we need one another.
Education is imperative, and it bonds us.
We are only trapped if we focus on the maze.
Change is good, and should be made in order to grow.

 

Read More. Feel Deep. Seek Peace.

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Goodbye Everyone!

Hey everyone. I thank you loyal followers for reading my work but it’s time for me to say goodbye. I have started a new blog/website where I speak about bettering our lives and our mental well-being, for with stronger minds we can conquer anything.

I may keep this site active in case I feel the need to post about films or something outside of mental health and well-being. But again, thank you.

If my new site interests you, then please follow it here. For yoga, meditation, nutrition and diet, honesty, understanding, exercise, family, relationships, holism, thoughts, travel and more…join Our Mental Well-being Journey.

Farewell!

Introducing William “Sphinx” Thomas – Legendary, Badboy Vampire!

 

 

 

William Thomas aka “Sphinx”

Over 500 years old

Vampire

Legendary Thomas Family

Lives in the Empire, and often Sorokin

Best friends with the infamous Blair Jaxon

Friend or Foe?

I wanna see the world burn, and watch as a new one is born from the ashes…

"Broken Glass" - A Poem

They treat me like I’m broken glass.Shattered,Fragile,Pieces of what once wasBeautiful.But I’m not beautiful anymore.Not strong, nor talented.A piece of artwork that once drew a great audienceIs now destroyed.Worthless.People daren’t touch me for fear that I’d cut them.“Broken glass is dangerous,”They were told. And so I’m alone.Cutting myself on my own pieces,I must put myself back together again.Restoring the art that I once was.To be a sculpture,A spectacle,A monument.But when they return, will they forget that I was ever broken?Or will they see the fine cracks that line my body? And howDo I prove that my cracks are now part of my art?That without them, I am not me?Someone that has never broken,Isn’t stronger than someone that’s broken several times but remembersHow to be whole.But little do they know,That when they look at me,They aren’t seeing shattered glass,Shattered pieces of my body.Oh no.They are seeing a shattered mirror.The broken pieces of their own reflection.

You're Not Allowed to be "Not Fine"

Does anyone else remember a time when you’ve been feeling crappy for ages, but then suddenly you start to show it and you confess that you’ve not been feeling great for a while and then your friend or whoever says, “why didn’t you tell me?” Well, the obvious answer is because we’re not allowed to be not fine in this society.Because not fine is an inconvenience.Not fine means you can’t function properly.Not fine means people need to look after you.Not fine means you’re unstable.Not fine means you’re vulnerable.Not fine means you’re weak.Not fine means you’re no longer any fun.Not fine means you’re not you.And who in their right mind would want that, right? So we go on pretending we’re fine when we’re not.Well, I’m about to break the mould. I AM NOT FINE. #SorryNotSorryI’m not fine, and I might not be for a while. I’m not fine and I’m saying it now with trembling lips and watery eyes. I’m not fine and I’ll tell you what that means for me…It means I find it difficult to do some things, but I’ll try to do them anyway.It means life is getting to me right now, but I do know it will get better.It means I’m human because sh*t happens to all of us.It means I have emotions.It means I am trying to be better and achieve better and that is a hard and tiring road.It means I want you to hold me sometimes.It means I want you to say “I don’t understand fully, but I hear you and I’m here for you whilst you go through this”.It means I feel lonely even when I’m surrounded by people, because dark feelings can do that to a person.It means I want you to keep asking me to do things even if I always say no, and I do apologise for saying that.It means I’m trying.It means I’ve felt good before and will feel good again but I recognise that right now I don’t feel good in myself, and it hurts and it frightens and it drains.It means I want and need more from myself or from the world.It means my lens, my focus has shifted and all I see is ugliness right now; which also means I need you to help me see the beauty again.It means I’m fighting, and I’m in like the hundredth round in the ring and I’ve lost so many rounds and my face is all bloody but god damn it, I’m still standing, even with buckling knees.So don’t be scared when someone says they’re not fine. They’re allowed to be not fine and so are you. SO ARE YOU. Not fine doesn’t equal doom. Not fine doesn’t mean depression for life. Not fine doesn’t mean medication for life. Not fine doesn’t mean you’re crazy or weak or stupid or a failure.Because it takes so much strength to not be fine and still trot on. It takes so much strength to not be fine and admit it. So, be stronger than the rest and don’t be afraid to speak the words.