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McKensie and Lara
The staff checked her into a room and got an IV put in with pain medication and anxiety meds to help with the shock. Mae just stayed by her side holding her hand tightly in hers. She never saw this kind of fear and pain before, Lexi wasn't phased when she was tortured...but now. She sighed running a hand through her hair, her curls coming undone so much for a nice dinner.Damon flinched at the touch and moved away from it, he didn't want sympathy or help. "She'll never be alright..." He muttered bitterly and swallowed letting self hatred engulf him. "Just go..."
Lexi slept for an hour before she finally started to stir. At first she didn't know where she was, her ankle really hurt, and the light was blinding. Then her vision cleared and everything came back. She drew in a sharp breath and bit her lip, her face scrunching up. Torch shook his head and sighed. "Don't think like that." he said firmly. "You wont know that until you talk to her. You have to see how she's doing Damon. Maybe not right now. But you can't just leave everyone right away, if that is what you are thinking." He said seriously, crossing his arms.
Mae frowned worriedly and stood up going to her side "hey sweety...do you need anything? Some pain medication?" She just wanted to help, and she didn't know how. If Torch had done that...well she'd be pissed and fight back, but that wasn't Lexi.Damon growled "you don't know anything Torch! So go back to your perfect little world and leave me the hell alone!" He shouted and went upstairs slamming the bedroom door. Amazingly his room was still intact, Lexi's on the other hand...well it wasn't as if she was going to use it ever again...
Lexi looked up at Mae and shook her head slowly. "No. I'm ok. Thanks." She said. She looked out the window, just trying to regulate her breathing. "Is he alright?" She asked, finally. Torch nodded and watched Damon leave. Of course. He, the faithful friend, was pushed away again. He shook his head. He knew Damon was down, and honestly, he just felt bad for him. He went into the kitchen and made a huge pot of meatballs. He left them on the table, with a note that said 'don't give up' and quickly left the house. As his car was gone, he unfurled his wings and soared towards the hospital.
Mae frowned and sighed "I don't know...Torch turned into a demon to stop him, but I don't know what happened..." She sighed watching her friend "I'm sure he didn't mean it..." She said quietly after a long pause of silence. Damon just sat in his pitch black room. He destroyed the mirror above the dresser not wanting to have to see himself, her words before the incident just resonated in his head 'I want to know the real you...I can't fall in love with something fake' and then the brief image he got of her tumbling down the stairs and looking at him with complete fear and pain. He trashed his room and just sat on the floor sobbing.
Lexi nodded, looking out the window again. She wasn't sure what to do anymore. She felt horrible for causing him to shift, she felt afraid, and she felt love. She would never stop loving him, even though it hurt. And she felt confusion. She could actually feel pain now. Which meant, that her heart was no longer too broken to function. It had patched itself up for him. She loved him, and she always would. Torch landed outside the hospital and inquired as to where Lexi was. He found her room and walked in, smiling at her. "How are you doing?"
Lexi turned and nodded. "Ok."
He nodded and sighed. "Damon is alright. If you were wondering." He said kindly to her. "Mae. Can I talk with you?" he asked.
Mae nodded and pecked her friend's cheek before following him out into the hallway "are you alright?" She asked worriedly putting a hand gently on his cheek her eyes full of worry for him.
Torch nodded. "Yeah. I am." He agreed. "But Damon's not. He was trying to tear himself to pieces." he said sadly, shaking his head. "I don't want him to go suicidal on me." He said softly, worry in his eyes. "How is Lexi doing?"Lexi closed her eyes and tried to forget about everything. There was a hole in her heart. An empty hole that used to be filled with Damon's hugs and kind words. She missed him. And she was afraid of him. She was afraid of what he had become, and what he did. But her fear did not kill her love. And she didn't blame him for her injuries. She blamed herself.
Mae swallowed and hugged him close, she knew how close they were. If Damon killed himself Torch would be devestated. She kissed him gently and sighed "Numb...I can't get anything out of her, she just keeps staring out the window...I don't know what to do..." She admitted sadly.Damon shakily picked up a piece of the broken mirror and glanced at his shrewd reflection before slicing down his arm and finally his wrist. He deserved this, he pushed away anyone that cared about him...he couldn't take the pain anymore it was tearing him apart on the inside leaving him hollow.
Torch hugged her back, so glad he had her. Then he nodded. "Do you know what she thinks of him?" he asked. "Is she afraid? Or is she handling that part of it alright?" He asked. As long as she wasn't afraid of Damon, maybe her and him could work something out. Lexi closed her eyes and a lone tear broke away, sliding down her cheek. This was all her fault. Hadn't he warned her not to ask? Hadn't he begged her not to talk about it? And yet she had. She and her stupid selfish self had. And she hated herself for it. She didn't know if she could ever show her face to him again out of shame.
Mae sighed "she's scared of him...she's been in shock since I've gotten her out of the house, but maybe she can still love him?" She asked hopefully and bit at her lip "What about the Elders?..." She asked quietly nervously.He stared at the blood going down his hand onto the floor, he didn't even feel it. He shivered his body starting to react to the blood loss, he tried to think of the happy times with her. When she wanted to go on vacation...how excited she was when she broke her record...the first time they truly kissed. He swallowed silent tears falling down his cheeks.
Torch nodded. "That's what we need to count on. Or both of them are in trouble." he said, sighing softly. "The Elders aren't going to be happy at all, with either of them." He huffed. "Damon has to finish training her, or they're both dead meat." He said softly. Lexi could feel a tear in her heart, as if it was ripping in half. This heart break is much worse than any other I've had. she thought miserably. Her body was starting to go numb again. The feeling she had regained after her heart had patched up was slowly slipping. She was losing hope, losing purpose. Lexi un clipped the IV from her arm, not caring what happened anymore.
Mae swallowed "We have to get him here Alex...so they at least can try to repair the bond...both of them are borderline depressed..." She grabbed her keys and pulled him to the car and illegally sped quickly back to Damon's place.Damon's muscles started to cramp tightly and go numb, he gasped a little his body trembling, he shut his eyes tightly wanting it to be over. He quickly grabbed a pad of paper needing to get everything taken care of. He shakily wrote a letter to Lexi, expressing his sincere and devestating apology and how much he loved her and how he couldn't live without her. He tried to sign his name but passed out the pen slipping from his hand.
Torch nodded and followed her to the car, letting her drive. He jumped out and ran into Damon's place, immediately sprinting up the steps and into his room. His eyes widened and his heart fell. "Crap! Crap you selfish son of a-" He bit his lip and ran over to him, carefully picking him up in his arms. "He's stiff. And cold." he told Mae, panic in his voice. He wasn't going to say what he feared, that his friend was already dead. Lexi resorted to staring at the ceiling, not feeling anything. She was numb. But her heart hurt like nothing had before. She didn't know if it would ever heal. And she wasn't sure if she could take it. No, she was sure she couldn't.
Mae swallowed and moved him out of Torch's arms and flat on the ground. She hoped to everything that this would work! She created an electrical current through her hands like when she made lightening and swallowed "clear?" As she pressed her hands to his chest and shocked him. Damon jerked a breath coming through his lips. She looked at Torch "he needs blood!" She shocked him again to keep his heart going. Her hair was starting to stick out though.
Torch didn't hesitate. He moved to Damon's injured arm and wrapped his hand around it. His eyes started glowing as the cut healed. One it was healed, Torch stayed where he was, replenishing Damon's blood. He was shaking soon, but that didn't stop him. He helped his friends, that was who he was.
Mae pulled him away, she wasn't going to risk him it was selfish yes but she loved him! She took his hand the glow starting again like when she was hurt, it was a good energy release like walking out into the sun it didn't hurt either of them. She gave him the ok nod to start to help Damon again. While he was healing she found the note he wrote and couldn't help the tears that came "poor Damon..."
Torch raised an eyebrow when she pulled him away from Damon, and then took his hand. It was like she was feeding him her energy. Torch nodded back and started to heal Damon again, and found it easier this time. Torch looked up in surprise when he heard what she said. He looked over her shoulder at the note and sighed heavily. He hated to know his friend was in this much pain. "We have to get him back to Lexi, soon." He said.
Mae nodded and folded the note, she would give that to Lexi before Damon could see her face to face. It'd be easier for both of them.Damon started coming to again, his head throbbing he groaned and sighed deeply. It didn't work...he didn't want to look at Torch, even though he did save his life. He didn't want to be saved...but the look on Torch's face hurt him, he had scared his best friend.
Torch took his hand away from Damon's wrist then and sighed in relief. "You're alive." He breathed. "Don't ever ever ever do that again." he said seriously, frowning. Lexi's hope had shattered. She was letting herself slip deep inside herself, putting up walls and defenses to block everything and everyone out.
Mae blinked and swallowed, she had a feeling in the pit of her stomach that she had to get there now! She pecked Torch's cheek and then flew to the hospital and into Lexi's room. She quickly screwed back the IV and helped her sit up "Lex...this is a note from Damon, please!"Damon sighed not answering him. He slowly sat up and rubbed his head "why do I have to suffer through this pain..." He finally mumbled "I was free for one moment of it...and now it's worse...I'm sorry, but I don't want to be here anymore...the Elders are going to kill me anyways..."
Lexi's eyes moved just the tiniest bit when she heard her name, and then his. She was almost gone, but Mae sounded worried. And that caused Lexi to worry. She took the note slowly, her eyes scanning over it. A tear slid down her cheek as she read it. He sounded so depressed. But what troubled her was that this was a note, and he wasn't saying this to her himself. And the fact that his name wasn't finished. What if he... couldn't finish his name because... Lexi suddenly realized what he had done and she shattered. She scrambled out of the bed, ripping out The IV and looking around frantically for something she could use to kill herself. She found a butter knife and started trying to stab herself with it. "Love is pain, mate. That's just the way it is. The pain proves that you love her. You can save your life and hers by finishing this and training her again." he said seriously.
Mae fought her trying to get her calmed down, she got a slash across her right eye from the knife. She pinned her friend down "Lexi! He's alive! He's just scared to see you...please!" She begged tears streaming down her cheeks. "Please you have to work this out, it's torturing all of us having you apart! He loves you!" She was practically yelling.Damon sighed "she wants nothing to do with me...she's terrified of me, why would she trust me to train her? If I die then she can get another bond and it will save her..."
Lexi found herself pinned and she cried out, struggling furiously. She wanted nothing to do with life. But then Mae started crying and yelling at her, and Lexi's expression changed to one of shock. So she had caused this, and hurt Damon, and now she had hurt her friend. "I hurt him." she sobbed brokenly. "I caused him to feel that pain. He can't love me anymore. Let me die." She begged. "He doesn't want to see me. You said that yourself." She said, looking away from her friend as tears streamed down her cheeks. "Leave me alone. Please." She whispered. Torch shook his head. "How do you know that?" He asked. "I saw her in the hospital and she is on the brink of depression because you aren't there." He said seriously. "It is most likely that she would die if you did Damon, you know that. Come on. You have to come with me. If she wants nothing to do with you, then I... I give you permission to kill yourself." He said softly. "But only if she wants nothing to do with you."
Mae held her close, she sobbed not wanting to let go "I can't lose my best friend...he loves you more than you can imagine! He hurts because he hurt you, he thinks you can't love him again! Lexi...please..." She begged and buried her face in her hair "he's coming..."Damon sighed and nodded "alright...it's a deal!" He took flight with his best friend and waited outside of her door "is that her room?..." He whispered not realizing he had hurt her that badly to put her in the hospital "I...I...can't go in there...I can't see her hurt!"
Lexi shook her head, the tears streaming from her eyes uncontrollably. She was just hurting one person after another, and she couldn't take it. "I'm sorry Mae. I made him shift. I caused it. It's my fault. I don't want to hurt you or him, and I don't want to lose either of you either. But I can't live with myself. Not without him, not with what I did. Please just kill me." She begged her friend. Torch lead the way to the hospital, and then inside and to Lexi's room. He was just opening the door when Damon tried to back up. "Come on. You can't back out now. Are you just going to leave her in pain by herself? She needs you man, why can't you see that?" He pushed Damon towards the door and left him standing right in front of it. "Go on. Go inside."
Damon walked in and swallowed hearing her say that she needed him "Lex?..." He whispered and glanced at her "can...we talk?..." He stuttered and looked down at the floor. He couldn't stand looking at the bulky cast and how pale she was.Mae smiled and pecked her head going to Torch and holding him crying in the hall, she just felt so overwhelmed and almost lost her two good friends "never leave me"
Lexi sat up abruptly, looking at him. He was alive! And he was... he was here! He looked horrible, and there was an ugly looking scar on his arm, but he was alive. She nodded slowly, not quite sure what to say. Torch hugged her tightly as she cried. "I wont." He said, kissing her head and resting against her shoulder. "I promise." He would avoid the trauma his friends had gone through at all costs.
Damon sighed not knowing what to say, but he didn't want to cry anymore "I...am so sorry...it wasn't me, I'd never hurt you if I had any sense...I love you more than my life..." He shook his head swallowing away the tears "I am so sorry..." He begged again then sat in the chair slumping down.Mae swallowed "Alex I love you...I don't say that to anyone but I have to say it to you. In case something happened...I don't want you to think that I don't care..."
Tears filled Lexi's eyes as she listened to him. "No. No please don't be sorry. It wasn't your fault Damon. You've been nothing but nice to me. I know what happened was not your fault and I don't blame you, even if I am frightened." She told him sincerily. "If I hadn't have talked to you about it, none of it would have happened in the first place, no one would have gotten hurt and... and you wouldn't have killed yourself." she whispered. She was too ashamed to even look at him any more. She sank into the bed and pulled the blankets over her head, curling up beneath them as she cried. Torch looked down into her eyes, cupping her cheek gently. "I love you too Mae. I can't say I haven't said that to anyone else, but I can say that it never meant anything until now." He said, smiling. leaned in and kissed her gently.
Damon swallowed and moved slowly to her laying on the bed and cautiously rubbing her back. He didn't know if she ever would allow him to touch her again. "I love you...I never blame you for any of this...I have to still train you...or we'll die...but I'll...I'll try to be cautious and...have someone with us if you don't trust me..." He stopped touching her and held back a sob knowing they'd never be the same.Mae kissed him lovingly and nuzzled his chest "let's be matchmakers again and get these two back together...they need eachother, but they are too worried about the other person to let it happen."
Lexi felt his hand on her back, and she both relaxed and tensed at the same time. She so wanted to be in his arms again, and yet she could not allow herself to be, for fear of hurting him. She nodded, poking her head out from the covers. "No. I trust you Damon. It's me I don't trust." She said, shaking her head sadly. She hated how broken they both were. She knew it was her fault, and she felt horrible. "We can train again."Torch laughed softly. "Sounds like a plan." he said, smiling. "Though, are we really the best role models?" He raised an eyebrow, grinning.
He hated how she tensed under his hand and just watched her "I miss you already..." He admitted and sighed "I'll never stop loving you...ever, you are the only girl for me..." He got up from the bed and sat back in the chair putting his head in his hands. "Mae says there's an extra room at their place...you will be comfortable..." Mae smiled and nipped at his lip "I think we are...though we still haven't had our first date, and I got all pretty just to be stabbed in the eye by a butter knife." She teased and kissed him a little deeper.
((Im losing internet connection, so this will probably be my last post until the storm above us passes.))An extra room. With Mae and Torch and not Damon. It made her heart fall. She felt like she should leave him to keep him safe, and at the same time, she felt like she would die if she left him. She looked down and shook her head. "I cant." She whispered. "I cant do this. I have to leave you to keep you safe, and yet I cant stand being apart from you. I cant live with you and I cant live without you." She mumbled. "So maybe its best not to live at all." She said softly, looking down and away.
Torch was instantly worried. " are you alright?" He asked. "We still will go on a date, I promise, as soon as possible." He said, his hands sliding to her waist as kissed her again.
((Oh dear! Good luck!))Damon took her hand instinctively and kissed it "never say that again! I'm safe with you...I'm going to kill myself if you leave, please Lexi...please!" He pleaded "I'll do anything but I need you...I love you, I don't want us to be seperated...I'm safe and I'll make sure you are..."
Mae smiled "Mmm I like that." She whispered in his eat and nodded "scars are sexy right?...maybe I should get stitches?"she nuzzled him "Mmm I like your demon form thankfully."
((Thanks. Ill stay on as long as I can. But responses may be slow))He was safe? Was he? Really? She had caused him to kill himself. What if that happened again? But he was that big scary... thing. So he could take care of himself, right? Yes he could. She decided to trust that he would be alright. "Ok. I wont say it again." She hugged him hesitantly, "Im not going anywhere."
Torch laughed. "Of course scars are sexy. But dont hurt yourself just to look good please." He said seriously. "Oh you like it, do you? How so?" He asked.
Damon melted into her hug and allowed himself to cry finally and kissed her hair "I'll never hurt you again...I promise..." He whispered and sighed "we need to get a lot of repair work done on the house...so you'll still have to stay at Mae's...but then we can try and be like just as it was."Mae smirked "I won't..." And she left it at that lacing her hand with his "you going to hold my hand while I get stitches?"
Lexi nodded, and then shook her head. "Can I sleep on the couch at your place? Or on the floor? Or in the bathtub?" She asked, looking pleadingly up at him. She really was afraid of being away from him again. She didn't want him to go. The last time he was gone from her, he killed himself, and though she knew that would not happen, there was still that fear of separation. "I don't want to leave you. I don't."Torch nodded and smiled. "Of course I will hold your hand he agreed. "I'll always be there for you." he promised.
Damon chuckled and cupped her face and kissed her gently lightly "what about we share the couch...I don't have a bathtub anymore." He kissed her forehead and held her hand "how are you feeling?, can I do anything?"Mae smiled and went to the exam room and sat on the table as they stitched up her eye. She smirked at him and squeezed his hand "you up next?"
Lexi smiled and nodded, brightening considerably. "I'm a lot better, thanks. They're giving me this great stuff. Makes you happy and kills pain." she said, grinning and leaning against him contentedly. "I love you you know. All of you. Yes. You are scary. But I still love you." She said, nuzzling her face against his chest as she snuggled with him. Torch watched as they stitched Mae up, wincing every now and then for her. Then his eyes widened and he shook his head. "Oh no. No thanks. Me and doctors don't mesh. No thanks. I'll heal with time." He said stubbornly.
Damon smiled and traced her cheek gently "I promise that I'll keep him down and never show it to you again..." He kissed her more lovingly and curled his fingers in her hair "can I sign your cast?...or would that be too soon?" Mae smiled and kissed his lips "I know it was a joke...trying to make you look less terrified. I can't feel a thing at all...except warm lips"
Lexi giggled and grabbed a marker from the tray table beside her bed "Yes! Go ahead." She handed him the marker, urging him on. "Be the first to mark up my cast." She said, smiling. Torch visibly relaxed. "Whew." He said, grinning. "Well then. Better make use of that, huh?" He asked, kissing her passionately for a brief moment just to tease her. Then he helped her off the exam table. "Shall we go check on the others and go home?"
Damon smiled and drew angel wings on her cast. Writing to my favorite angel I love you, get better my beautiful girl. He pecked her lips and then her neck "Mmm you smell nice, like jazmine flowers..."Mae jumped into his arms and kissed him passionately lacing her fingers in his hair "or...we could just go home? I'm sure they are just fine"
Lexi smiled, her heart warming at his beautiful message. "Thank you." She said, both for the message and his compliment. "And your kisses are very nice too, mister. How long have you been practicing?" She asked, raising an eyebrow. Torch laughed in surprise in delight when she jumped on him and kissed him. He shrugged. "Yeah sure. Guess they're fine." he said, adjusting her so he was carrying her bridal style out to his car. He kissed her again twice on the way there.
Damon smiled "only you...you've been the only girl I have ever been with Lexi, you are a beautiful kisser...gives me butterflies every time." He nuzzled her and laid back in bed snuggling in "no more taking out your IV." Mae gripped onto him and smiled kissing him again "hmmm maybe I should have told you I love you earlier?"
Lexi grinned, feeling very special. "Well then you're a natural." She complimented, smiling shyly. She blushed when he said she was a good kisser. Then she cuddled up with him when he did, getting comfortable against him. She laughed softly. "If we don't take it out, then you'll get to see me drugged. Lucky you." She said, shaking her head. "They'll be in in a bit. Apparently I'll go to sleep better if I'm high first." Torch chuckled softly as he placed her in the passenger seat, before getting in the driver side and kissing her once more as he started the car. "Yeah. That would have sped things up a bit." He joked.
Damon smiled "I like you high...it means that you are honest and adorable and won't remember any of this..." He kissed her again biting her lip slowly "that was new...I like it..."Mae smiled "your still my best friend though right? No mushy junk?"
"Yeah. That's why it's fun for you and not me." She said, pouting. Then Lexi grinned, a little giddy as the morphine had started leaking into her veins. "Yes. It was very nice, wasn't it?" she asked, kissing him passionately. "Do it again." She begged, pressing herself closer to him as she nibbled his lip hesitantly. She would usually never be this forward, but hey. She would probably not be this forward again. Torch laughed, pulling up in his driveway. "Of course!" He agreed, sweeping her off her feet and carrying her into the house. "If we weren't still friends, then I could no longer wrestle with you."
Damon pressed her closer and cupped her face slowly touching her tongue with his, he never saw her this way and it was nice. He gripped her waist and stroke them gently "tell me to stop...if uncomfortable" he said between kisses.Mae laughed and tackled him to the couch and smiles "we can still wrestle...just in a different way."
Torch sighed, both in relief and with regret and sympathy for his friend. He walked over laying a hand gently on his shoulder. "Hey. She's going to be alright, ok? She's with Mae." He slowly helped his friend stand. "Let's go get you cleaned up."