Colleen Brown's Blog, page 226

It’s been such a long timesince I have had the privilegeto taste you. And I can tell youthat...

It’s been such a long time
since I have had the privilege
to taste you. And I can tell you
that the way you feel against
my lips is a feeling that I
will always crave; a sensation
that I will always search for.

The light is on our side today.

The light is on our side today.

I didn’t want youbecause I didn’t want tobe alone. I wanted youbecause you werethe only...

I didn’t want you
because I didn’t want to
be alone. I wanted you
because you were
the only person that I
could have ever been
able to see myself
being happy with by just
being near you.

I’m not in your room, Daisy. I’m right fucking here.

I’m not in your room, Daisy. I’m right fucking here.

Beautiful girls with cigarettes between their fingers and a look of seductive mishaps will always be...

Beautiful girls with cigarettes between their fingers and a look of seductive mishaps will always be my greatest weakness.

Don’t tell me that I am beautifulwhen I am broken down,because you know as well as I knowthat...

Don’t tell me that I am beautiful
when I am broken down,
because you know as well as I know
that there is no such thing
as beauty inside of a tragedy
that is only heading in the direction
where danger is best-known.

"This is not a poem. This is not an alibi, and this is not something for you to hang over my head...."

“

This is not a poem. This is not an alibi, and this is not something for you to hang over my head. This is how I feel. These are my words spread out on a surface where you can’t always take back what you didn’t mean to say when tensions were high.

I wish you would understand that love doesn’t just disappear. It slowly fades away as the sound of giving up makes its way through the hallways of attempted forgiveness. You shouldn’t always assume that you are the center of my meaning. You only hear what you want so you are able to think that there is something that proves your point when it comes to having a reason for you to just walk away.

I should probably just tell you how I feel instead of watching you circle around the answer; oblivious to harshness of your actions. You should know me by now, and you should know that I am only as strong as my heart is. And to tell you the truth, it’s a part of me that hasn’t been holding its own weight lately. I hide things from you because I am afraid that one day you are going to use my fears as leverage.

To tell you the truth, you were the only person who has ever been able to make me question my purpose, and sometimes, even if you don’t want to admit it, you use that in your advantage; turning my desires into dreams, and showing me that the future is as far away from me as my past.

But when I held you in my arms for those short moments before you had to leave my bed and return to the one that you made for yourself, I couldn’t help but to feel as if there was more than just comfort that you were seeking. But the feeling of absolute safety; a safety that wouldn’t be found in someone as vulnerable as myself.

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- "You don’t have to be sorry, but you should be more cautious," - Colleen Brown

I will always love you,even if you don’t want me to.And I will always need you,even if you...

I will always love you,
even if you don’t want me to.
And I will always need you,
even if you don’t think I do.

I woke up todayfeeling differentthan I did yesterday.Maybe it’s becauseI woke up without...

I woke up today
feeling different
than I did yesterday.

Maybe it’s because
I woke up without you
laying next to me.

Either way,
for whatever reason,
I feel different.

I no longer count
the minutes until you
tell me that you love me.

I am able to hide
the truth from myself;
the truth about you.

No matter where I go,
or what I do, you are
always in my thoughts.

I woke up today
feeling different;
feeling more free.

Because when I
woke up today,
I no longer needed you.

Films that I enjoy at this moment - HerPride & PrejudiceAmeliéEternal Sunshine of the...

Films that I enjoy at this moment - 

Her
Pride & Prejudice
Amelié
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
Frozen
Spirited Away
Like Crazy
Blue Valentine
The Virgin Suicides
Girl, Interrupted
American Beauty
Lolita (1997)
Lost In Translation
The Royal Tenenbaums
The Kings of Summer
The Breakfast Club
The Truman Show
Our Idiot Brother
Catching Fire
LOTR: Entire trilogy
Kill Bill: Vol. 1 & Vol. 2
Frances Ha
Requiem for a Dream
Donnie Darko
Submarine
But I’m a Cheerleader
Party Monster
Heathers
An Education
Midnight In Paris
Blue Is The Warmest Color
Melancholia