Colleen Brown's Blog, page 222

I don’t need you anymore,and I’m not sure whyI ever thought that I did.Your presence was a...

I don’t need you anymore,

and I’m not sure why

I ever thought that I did.

Your presence was a burden

on my heart, and the only

thing that you ever wanted

from me was my attention,

and my affections, but never

my love. I cannot believe

that I ever thought that I

wouldn’t be able to live

without you. It’s only been

a few months since we’ve

last touched, or even spoken,

and to tell you the truth

I couldn’t be happier.

I brought my files back.

I brought my files back.

My bed still smellslike the last timethat we fucked,and I’m too afraidto clean the...

My bed still smells
like the last time
that we fucked,
and I’m too afraid
to clean the sheets,
because that would
mean that you are
really gone for good.

I woke up at 2 a.m.and I guess my body and Iaren’t on the same pageanymore. I dreamt of...

I woke up at 2 a.m.
and I guess my body and I
aren’t on the same page
anymore. I dreamt of your
skin against mine, and I think
that my heart had enough
and it told my mind
that it’s time to wake up
and face reality. And the
reality of the situation is
that you aren’t coming back,
and I am always going to 
wake up at 2 a.m. alone.

Just in case you saythat I never told you so.

Just in case you say
that I never told you so.

He makes love to mewith his eyes, and nowI know where hishis hands want to be.

He makes love to me

with his eyes, and now

I know where his

his hands want to be.

What would you say is your favorite quote? Or a quote that u can really relate to, like it explains your life or view of the world?

There are a lot of quotes that do that. So here are a few at the top of my head.

Loneliness is the human condition. Cultivate it. The way it tunnels into you allows your soul room to grow. Never expect to outgrow loneliness. Never hope to find people who will understand you, someone to fill that space. An intelligent, sensitive person is the exception, the very great exception. If you expect to find people who will understand you, you will grow murderous with disappointment. The best you’ll ever do is to understand yourself, know what it is that you want, and not let the cattle stand in your way. - Janet Fitch, White Oleander

Sometimes skulls are thick. Sometimes hearts are vacant. Sometimes words don’t work. - James Frey, A Million Little Pieces

Poetry is what happens when nothing else can. - Charles Bukowski

My alone feels so good, I’ll only have you if you’re sweeter than my solitude. - Warsan Shire

We knew, finally, that the girls were really women in disguise, that they understood love and even death, and that our job was merely to create the noise that seemed to fascinate them. - Jeffrey Eugenides, The Virgin Suicides

But I know what it’s like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can’t. You hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside. - Susanna Kaysen, Girl, Interrupted

How right that the body changed over time, becoming a gallery of scars, a canvas of experience, a testament to life and one’s capacity to endure it. - Janet Fitch

You’re in a car with a beautiful boy, and he won’t tell you that he loves you, but he loves you. And you feel like you’ve done something terrible, like robbed a liquor store, or swallowed pills, or shoveled yourself a grave in the dirt, and you’re tired. You’re in a car with a beautiful boy, and you’re trying not to tell him that you love him, and you’re trying to choke down the feeling, and you’re trembling, but he reaches over and he touches you, like a prayer for which no words exist, and you feel your heart taking root in your body, like you’ve discovered something you didn’t even have a name for. - Richard Siken

Heaven is writing and Hell is writers block. - Robert Miltner 

I left walking backwards so I wouldn’t miss a moment of her. - Janet Fitch, White Oleander

I am in lovewith a girlwho doesn’tknow thefirst thing about love.

I am in love

with a girl

who doesn’t

know the

first thing

about love.

There are over 1 million words in the English language but I can never quite put them in the right order to express how I feel when I read your work. So I'll just settle for something far less meaningful. It touches my soul and makes it ache, I love it, th

I’m trying to think of wayson how I can thank the peoplewho never let me down,or who have...

I’m trying to think of ways
on how I can thank the people
who never let me down,
or who have never made me
feel like I was too much
to handle. But no words
are forming in my head,
and the only thing that I
can feel is my heart
filling up with warmth,
from the consideration
that they have pushed upon me.
I want to thank
all of the people who ever
stayed true to me,
even when I couldn’t
stay true to myself.