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Some kind and beautiful things that people have said to me that i will always remember -"You are...

Some kind and beautiful things that people have said to me that i will always remember -

"You are only as strong as you think you are."

"No one will love you more than I love you. That’s just how it works. I created you. I lived for you. I would die for you."

"Your words strip you naked and leave nothing behind but your most intimate thoughts. And through your writing I can embody your everything thought. There is nothing more beautiful than sharing your naked mind. There is nothing more beautiful than you."

"Just because you can’t see the beauty you hold, that doesn’t mean that I can’t."

"I could live in your words."

"You deserve a lot more love than you think."

2/9/14Just because I didn’t love you in the way that you wanted to be loved doesn’t...

2/9/14

Just because I didn’t love you in the way that you wanted to be loved doesn’t mean that I deceived you. Or that everything I have ever said before was a lie. It just means that my love wasn’t enough for you. That my love was not able to fill the void in your heart. But that doesn’t mean that my love isn’t good enough. Or that I will end up not only alone, but lonely as well. It just means that you have to look harder. That you have to place your trust in someone new. And I know that terrifies you. I know that thinking about starting all over again makes you tired, and it makes heart more vulnerable, but this is something that you have to do. This is something that is required if you want to end up with a love that is never-ending. It might take time, but that’s something that you should have realized long ago. Just because I cannot love you in the way that you want doesn’t mean that no one else can. So stop saying that I’ve ruined love for you. Or that I have soiled the entire idea of being able to open up. No one can ruin love for you. You are the one who makes the final decision on whether or not this is all worth the struggle.

I thought that I didn’t love youanymore, but really I was just pushingthe memory of you out of...

I thought that I didn’t love you
anymore, but really I was just pushing
the memory of you out of my head
for so long, that I fooled myself
into believing that I didn’t need you
anymore, and that I never did.

I’ve wasted so many yearsof my life trying to get youto love me in the way that Iloved you,...

I’ve wasted so many years
of my life trying to get you
to love me in the way that I
loved you, and no amount
of words could ever do
the proper justice. And now
that I have finally realized
that there is no use
in loving someone who will
never love in the way
that you love them,
you suddenly awoke 
from your dream of ultimate
independence, and now
you understand what I have
been trying to fight for,
for all of these years.

I will neverlove youin the waythat youwant me to.

I will never
love you
in the way
that you
want me to.

You try so hardto prove to not onlyyourself, but to everyonearound you that youare stronger than...

You try so hard
to prove to not only
yourself, but to everyone
around you that you
are stronger than this.
And that the way he
broke your heart wasn’t
something that you
keeps you up at night.
You can tell me
over again that you
are fine, but I can hear
the truth in your voice,
and I can see
the emptiness in your eyes.
You are not fine.
Not even close.

that was a summerthat I will nevernot remember

that was a summer
that I will never
not remember

She finally told me that she loved mewhen she realized that I was heading for the door.I turned to...

She finally told me
that she loved me
when she realized
that I was heading
for the door.

I turned to smile,
and told her 
that was nice,
but I still do not
want this anymore.

"Too many glasses of wineand suddenly you are someonenew. Someone who is ableto determine the..."

“Too many glasses of wine

and suddenly you are someone

new. Someone who is able

to determine the difference

between dedication and just

another way to waste time.

You’ve been here before,

haven’t you? Caught between

the choice to stay and the

decision to leave it all

behind, and to start fresh.

You think about it everyday,

and I know that because

I see the daydreams in

your eyes, of running from

your problems and into

the arms of someone who

asks before touching you.

I’m sorry that it’s come

to this. That you can’t even

leave your home without

wondering about what

would happen if you

didn’t come back. They

should have told you

that happiness doesn’t

come in people, but in

your own mind. Maybe if

they would have prepared

you for the reality of life,

you wouldn’t be struggling

as much. And maybe if they

would have told you the secrets

that they have kept from you

for so long, you would be

able to be happy,

all on your own.”

- "They always seem to leave out the most important details," - Colleen Brown

Your heart is as bitteras the winter weather,and I’m not surewhich stings more.

Your heart is as bitter
as the winter weather,
and I’m not sure
which stings more.