Colleen Brown's Blog, page 219
February 12, 2014
"It’s been better lately. I no longer
think of you first thing in the morning,
and I can finally fall..."
think of you first thing in the morning,
and I can finally fall asleep without
wondering if you are out there
right now, your body tied around
someone else’s body,
whose body does not belong to me.
I haven’t been punishing myself
as much lately. And even if I
know now that I was always
in the wrong, I can finally accept
that there is nothing that I
can do about that now.
I haven’t been thinking of you
as much lately. The image
of your face no longer makes
my mind ache with thoughts
of the things that I could have done,
and how if maybe I would have
held on for a little bit longer,
you may still be here with me.
Strangely enough though,
ever since you left,
things have been feeling a lot
easier lately. And I think
that might be because since
you’ve been gone, I’ve had time
to realize that life is
much more simple when you
are not always over-thinking
every move that you make.”
- "Lately," - Colleen Brown
There are no
amount of words,
not a long enough
stretched out apology,
and no way that I can say...
There are no
amount of words,
not a long enough
stretched out apology,
and no way that I can say
that I want you back,
without seeming as if
I was always the one
in the wrong.
February 11, 2014
"It’s been better lately. I no longer
think of you first thing in the morning,
and I can..."
think of you first thing in the morning,
and I can finally fall asleep without
wondering if you are out there
right now, your body tied around
someone else’s body,
whose body does not belong to me.
I haven’t been punishing myself
as much lately. And even if I
know now that I was always
in the wrong, I can finally accept
that there is nothing that I
can do about that now.
I haven’t been thinking of you
as much lately. The image
of your face no longer makes
my mind ache with thoughts
of the things that I could have done,
and how if maybe I would have
held on for a little bit longer,
you may still be here with me.
Strangely enough though,
ever since you left,
things have been feeling a lot
easier lately. And I think
that might be because since
you’ve been gone, I’ve had time
to realize that life is
much more simple when you
are not always over-thinking
every move that you make.”
- "Lately," - Colleen Brown
2/12/14
I’m always realizingnew parts of myselfeveryday, and todayI realized that I amgoing to...
2/12/14
I’m always realizing
new parts of myself
everyday, and today
I realized that I am
going to be better off
without you. And
tomorrow I will realize
that it was much easier
to forget about you
than they said it would be.
As long as you love me,
I will always be untouchable,
invincible, and completely
intact on the map...
As long as you love me,
I will always be untouchable,
invincible, and completely
intact on the map
that we claim as our
own territory. Your love
is not only a feeling,
but a way to survive.
A way to be able to
get by on pure ecstasy
and enchanted bliss.
To me words give us a glimpse of someone's soul. And you have the most beautiful soul.
I want to kiss the tip of your nose for being a ball of sunshine in the morning.
February 10, 2014
"You held on to past situations for too long. And after awhile, that starts to suffocate even the..."
You held on to past situations for too long. And after awhile, that starts to suffocate even the strongest of people.
Instead of opening yourself up, you shut the world out, and you knew that she would never enter a place where she knew that she was not needed.
When you told her that you loved her, you didn’t look at her in the eyes, and you know that drives her mind insane with doubt.
You weren’t living a lie, but to her, it felt pretty close.
She didn’t want you because she was lonely, and you knew that, but you told her that anyway.
You weren’t there for her when she needed you the most too.
All of your attention should have been focused on her when she was around, but you were too busy thinking of yourself to be able to see that.
Sometimes she considered leaving as just another way of asking you to chase after her.
She believed that she could have made you her everything, and she knew that you didn’t.
You only seemed to care when you knew that your time together was almost up.
She deserved the gentle feeling of pure bliss.
The only thing that you ever gave her was your word, and someone should have told you that sometimes that just isn’t enough.
”- "This is why you lost her," - Colleen Brown
I’ve been trying to change more lately,more rapidly, and the only thingthat has changed is my...
I’ve been trying to change more lately,
more rapidly, and the only thing
that has changed is my love for you.
I no longer see your face in the sky,
and I can finally look at the stars
without thinking that they will someday
lead you back to me. I am finally able
to find comfort in all of the things
that we used to do together. I am not
afraid of sleeping alone with the
lights off anymore, and I no longer
feel remorse in looking back on
everything that took us so long
to put together. I’ve been trying to
change lately, and I guess that I
started to make progress when I
started to forget about you.
February 9, 2014
And although she is gone,she will always be a part of you.
Her memory will always be trappedon the...
And although
she is gone,
she will always
be a part of you.
Her memory will
always be trapped
on the inside
of your mind.
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