Colleen Brown's Blog, page 217

And when wekissed for thefirst time,I knew itwould be thelast timethat I wouldever have...

And when we

kissed for the

first time,

I knew it

would be the

last time

that I would

ever have to

second-guess

my feelings

for her again.

I lost myself when I lost her,and since shehas been goneI no longerknow who I am.

I lost myself

when I lost her,

and since she

has been gone

I no longer

know who I am.

"When you left, it felt like a piece of me went with you. I want you more when you don’t want..."

“

When you left, it felt like a piece of me went with you.

I want you more when you don’t want me.

You are the only person who could ever make me love myself.

I only loved you when I was lonely.

When I told you I was doing homework, I was really getting high.

My addiction means more to me than you do.

You gave me the strength to keep holding on hope.

All I could give to you was a way to waste time.

When you said goodbye, I didn’t want to let go.

When you were finally gone, I could breathe again.

You made me believe that I could do anything.

Loving you restricted me from everything.

”

- "A truth and a lie," - Colleen Brown

I saw you in town today,and it was the first timein a long time that youlooked me in the eyes.You...

I saw you in town today,
and it was the first time
in a long time that you
looked me in the eyes.
You still look beautiful.
Even with hatred glowing
from the corners
of your forced smile.

Only in my dreamsare we together and happy.I wake up reaching for you,but your bedside is...

Only in my dreams
are we together and happy.
I wake up reaching for you,
but your bedside is empty.
It’s been waiting for you
for months, but I think it’s
time to confess that you
are never coming back
to fill the space that you
have called home for so long.
I search through the pages
of the journals you left behind,
trying to find an answer
to what it was exactly
that I did that was bad enough
to keep you away for all this time.
But no matter how hard
I look for the reason, I always
come out knowing less,
and questioning myself even more.
You probably left these journals
behind on purpose, so that
no matter where you go, you will
always feel safe in the thought
that I am somewhere out there,
trying to find you for the truth.

I’m missing something. I’m all messed up. I’m...

I’m missing something. I’m all messed up. I’m crazy.

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When my fingers are against her bodythe feeling takes my mind back to a timewhen I once felt...

When my fingers are
against her body
the feeling takes
my mind back
to a time
when I once
felt safe
being inside
of my own skin.