Colleen Brown's Blog, page 106

Everydaywithoutyouis likea flowerwithout light.There isno wayto grow.

Everyday
without
you

is like
a flower
without light.

There is
no way
to grow.

And I am justwaiting towither away.

And I

am just

waiting to

wither away.

Now, don't say no until you've seen the piazza.

Now, don't say no until you've seen the piazza.

the sky tonight was so beautiful and dreamy that i had to take...

the sky tonight was so beautiful and dreamy that i had to take advantage of the opportunity because i feel as if this is the last time in a long time that it would be this haunting

"Here’s the truth because I’m so tiredof coating reality in synthetic sugar.I’ve been doing this..."

“Here’s the truth because I’m so tired

of coating reality in synthetic sugar.

I’ve been doing this for so many years

that if it were possible I would have

a degree in covering sincerity

with fictional words. The truth is that

even when the world goes up

in flames I will somehow still think of you

when everything around me is starting

to turn to ash. This confession isn’t as

extreme as you probably thought

but I just want you to remember

that I will always love you even when

you think that everyone around you

has forgotten that you still exist

within the walls of their chaotic heart.”

- Colleen Brown

She is everythingthat I have ever wanted,everything that I have ever needed to feelokay in this...

She is everything

that I have ever wanted,

everything that I have

ever needed to feel

okay in this world.

Who would have known

that before meeting her

that I actually thought

that my life was complete

and that I could have been

happy all on my own.

We were meant to survive this together but now we are fighting...

We were meant to survive this together but now we are fighting this battle all on our own,

"They want something different,something new, something that theyhave never read before so they..."

“They want something different,

something new, something that they

have never read before so they can

find themselves between the words

of an almost broken stranger.

You want originality so go and find it

for yourself. You want fresh feelings

so go and seek that change within

your own being. I will be here when you

want hope, when you want a reason

to keep holding on, and I’ve been so busy

trying to save others that I hardly

have any time to fix myself.

I am growing as the days go on

and if my progress feels like a never

ending cycle then your time to flourish

on your own has finally come.”

- "For those who call my feelings repetitive," - Colleen Brown

I stopped when you started,

I stopped when you started,

"They tell me that if it hurts so badthat I should stop thinking about youas much. If I could I..."

“They tell me that if it hurts so bad

that I should stop thinking about you

as much. If I could I promise you

that I would but it’s not that simple.

They tell me that if I still love you

that they don’t feel bad for me

because I’m the one who is still

putting myself through this pain.

If I could stop loving you I would

but I can’t erase all the moments

of when we were together

from my mind. They say that if I can’t

move on then maybe I should

just tell you that I miss you.

But the last time I sent you a text

you told me that you were dating

someone else and she wouldn’t

like you texting your ex.

I deleted your number after that

because I thought it would help

but I still remember every fucking

digit by heart. They tell me if I can’t

let go then maybe I should just

be alone for a little longer.

But I want to somehow show you

that I’m okay even if I’m not

so maybe you can feel how I did

when I saw a picture of you

with her in the place that you said

you would never stop loving me.”

- "If I could I would," - Colleen Brown