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A Solivagant on the Inselberg
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Aqsa
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Oct 19, 2018 07:16AM
It's alright Hallie. I usually hate last minute plans too. I need to be told way before the actual time. And if I'm told late, I won't go just out of my stubbornness. But sometimes I don't mind.
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Hallie wrote: "Aww that's so sweet, Jellybean! I guess I'll have to make an exception to the 'I-won't-eat-soup' rule to taste your chicken soup :D"YOU WON'T EAT SOUP?! Mate, that rule has a tiny chance of flying off into space after you taste my chicken soup. Sadly though, I don't believe I have the proper ingredients with my right now. ;-;
Either way, I'll send you it in a tiny container man. ;)
Aqsa wrote: "It's alright Hallie. I usually hate last minute plans too. I need to be told way before the actual time. And if I'm told late, I won't go just out of my stubbornness. But sometimes I don't mind."Same, but lately all the planned stuff don't work out, so only the last minute schedules actually get carried out. I can't even complain.
Hallie wrote: "Aqsa wrote: "It's alright Hallie. I usually hate last minute plans too. I need to be told way before the actual time. And if I'm told late, I won't go just out of my stubbornness. But sometimes I d..."Well then you shouldn't. It's good distraction from daily life.
jellybean wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Aww that's so sweet, Jellybean! I guess I'll have to make an exception to the 'I-won't-eat-soup' rule to taste your chicken soup :D"YOU WON'T EAT SOUP?! Mate, that rule has a tiny ..."
I won't eat almost 80% of the cuisines existing on the planet. Although it would be interesting to see your chicken soup challenge it ;)
I'll wait in the post-office for it!
Can you order food though? I mean I usually don't if I'm home alone, but if it calls for it, ring a restaurant up and fill your stomach
Hallie wrote: "jellybean wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Aww that's so sweet, Jellybean! I guess I'll have to make an exception to the 'I-won't-eat-soup' rule to taste your chicken soup :D"YOU WON'T EAT SOUP?! Mate, tha..."
I CAN RELATE?! I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT. I literally hate everything on this planet and the things I actually can handle I love with my whole heart.
Ha, it'll probably be cold by the time it gets there lol.
Tales from Crappy School Life
Oh right, before I forget again! K and Iz have fought over yet another jejune reason. Iz was asking the assistant prefect something, and K, M and H2 were listening to their conversation. After they finished, K leered in to M and H2 behind us and whispered something, and they all began to giggle. Iz noticed this and quietly told me that I was bad-mouthing her. I just shrugged it off hoping it wouldn't get anywhere between them because things have finally been a little fine and I don't want to witness another pair of people I see often fighting.
Unfortunately, one more whispered comment behind us and Iz lost her temper. She began to reprimand K saying that she shouldn't be talking I'll about her, but M and K argued back saying that they have the right to speak whatever they want about whoever they want. Then they just started fighting over it while H2 and I pretended that we've never met these three people - or at least that's what I did and H2 didn't really contribute or look in that direction.
Then our Chemistry teacher walked in and told us all to study by ourselves and that there should be only one person per table, so I got up and left. After last year, it's now a habit when anyone tells us that the number of people should be one less than the current number, I just spontaneously leave. I was hoping to occupy the was seat right in front of the window, but K, who also surprisingly left her own table, beat me to it.
While we were settling down - she is the last and me in the seat right in front of hers, she told me that she had been talking to M and H2 about the assistant class prefect and Iz had misunderstood and jumped to conclusions that they were laughing at her. As usual. I think I'm on K's side on this because Iz didn't really hear what she said, and she only assumed that it was about her. Albeit, I don't agree with K and M that they have the right to talk whatever they want to about anyone because that's kind of sick. If anyone were to say something about me - especially if it was false or hurtful, I wouldn't be pleased, and neither would they.
So if I don't die over the weekend, not only am I supposed to cry over to pathetic grades, but I also need to see the I-don't-know-how-manyth war between K and Iz. And trust me, it's even greater than my number of suicide attempts.Now that's funny because one of those attempts was in front of them to get them to stop fighting.
May͛a [hiatus] wrote: "Can you order food though? I mean I usually don't if I'm home alone, but if it calls for it, ring a restaurant up and fill your stomach"But then I'd have to do the dishes! Actually, I'm not allowed to do that :( Don't even ask why! You'll bang my parents on their heads if you hear it.
jellybean wrote: "Hallie wrote: "jellybean wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Aww that's so sweet, Jellybean! I guess I'll have to make an exception to the 'I-won't-eat-soup' rule to taste your chicken soup :D"YOU WON'T EAT S..."
WHAT THE....?!?! THAT'S THE SECOND TIME ANYONE HAS TOLD ME THAT! Usually everyone is patronising my eccentric food habits, because el the food must not touch each other, the colour most look perfect, oh wait they've fallen asleep and I still have 962773795215808311 rules for how my food should be xD
I'll suck it up xP
Hallie wrote: "May͛a [hiatus] wrote: "Can you order food though? I mean I usually don't if I'm home alone, but if it calls for it, ring a restaurant up and fill your stomach"But then I'd have to do the dishes! ..."
Counterargument: but you'll be hungry! Well I have no right to say anything about them cuz I'm an outsider but please take care of yourself. Snacks, fruits, whatever you can find next time
Hallie wrote: "jellybean wrote: "Hallie wrote: "jellybean wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Aww that's so sweet, Jellybean! I guess I'll have to make an exception to the 'I-won't-eat-soup' rule to taste your chicken soup :D..."SAME! People are always judging me and calling me "not American" because I don't like the foods that are apparently "all American". Like I hate taverns and burritos and lots of vegetables and crap. Either way, I can deal with their calls. I'd rather I just move somewhere else! :P
Oop.
May͛a [hiatus] wrote: "Hallie wrote: "May͛a [hiatus] wrote: "Can you order food though? I mean I usually don't if I'm home alone, but if it calls for it, ring a restaurant up and fill your stomach"But then I'd have to ..."
Well, their expectation is that while they are out, I should go to the nearest restaurant or go to one of the three canteens at school, but I don't feel like doing it because I'll be really lonely and I feel everyone is judging me while I'm eating. I mean they give me money that could let me eat my favourite meal six times, but I just feel awful going outside.
jellybean wrote: "Hallie wrote: "jellybean wrote: "Hallie wrote: "jellybean wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Aww that's so sweet, Jellybean! I guess I'll have to make an exception to the 'I-won't-eat-soup' rule to taste your ..."*high fives* Me in Wales! But I'll agree with everyone that say I'm not Welsh xP Same!!!!! They just look at me and keep saying stuff as though I'm forcing them to eat whatever I'm eating however I'm eating it or not letting them eat what they want, and I sit there like 'I don't care. I'm planning to never come here ever again.'
Hallie wrote: "jellybean wrote: "Hallie wrote: "jellybean wrote: "Hallie wrote: "jellybean wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Aww that's so sweet, Jellybean! I guess I'll have to make an exception to the 'I-won't-eat-soup' r..."Yup and that's one reason why I want to leave my country. I mean, there's many other reasons on whether I should leave or stay, but I'd rather I not start to get political. :P
Either way, don't matter to me.
jellybean wrote: "Hallie wrote: "jellybean wrote: "Hallie wrote: "jellybean wrote: "Hallie wrote: "jellybean wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Aww that's so sweet, Jellybean! I guess I'll have to make an exception to the 'I-wo..."I can understand xD Hey, but if you're planning to leave, do you think I could come along?
Hallie wrote: "jellybean wrote: "Hallie wrote: "jellybean wrote: "Hallie wrote: "jellybean wrote: "Hallie wrote: "jellybean wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Aww that's so sweet, Jellybean! I guess I'll have to make an exce..."Maybe! I don't know where I'd go, but I'm already thinking Italy or France. I'm already starting to teach myself the language. But maybe, maybe. . .
Oh wait, those are the places I'd love to go!!! And I do know a little French and I'm trying to learn Italian, so if the maybe turns to a definite yes, I'm at least visiting xP
Hallie wrote: "Oh wait, those are the places I'd love to go!!! And I do know a little French and I'm trying to learn Italian, so if the maybe turns to a definite yes, I'm at least visiting xP"Ah, yes! I see we have a plan to run for the hills with our heads held high, ey? Also, if I choose to go to Italy, I'll definitely go to Venice, and for France, Paris! God I love Paris. . . Might be because of Assassin's Creed Unity. . . ;)
I guess! xP I'll probably stay away from the Eiffel Tower, but otherwise Venice and Paris have always been in my list of places to visit.
Isn't it funny I'm here contemplating taking my life, hiding in my room punching walls, trying to get high, hurting myself every chance I get and crying myself to sleep every night, and people just look at me and say, "Ah what a comfortable life you have!"
Didn't ask for it, Mum. Didn't ask to be born as me.
Oh, add popping in Dad's medication to the list.
Because I'm fucking enjoying being a fucking failure.
I'm pretty sure at my funeral, people will be saying, "Oh, that girl had everything. She was so spoilt, but she decided to do this to her loving parents. How selfish! You know that phone made her bad. Kids must not be given phones!"
Because it was my phone and Goodreads that told me that I should have never been born and was a liability to everyone, didn't it?
And definitely not my 'caring' parents.
But hey, I'll be doing my brother a favour by killing myself.
I mean aside from getting the room to himself and not having to share the junk food, at least it might help him tell my parents they are far, far, far, a thousand light years away from receiving the Best Parents of Eternity Award.
Please do with the Hypocrites Award for now.
Wait, why is it always my parents? I also have some *friends*, don't I?
Because being that only friend who will stick with you no matter what and even run down to the canteen from the third floor to get you something to eat even though she brought her own lunch doesn't really make a friend.
Keep getting into asinine fights due to ludicrous reasons and then maybe you'll remember my birthday.
Oh wait, forget birthdays. My existence.
If I fail to kill myself again, one day I'll make myself so sick that I'll have to stay home from school and see if any one of them will check on me.
Well, Iz did ask if I was better after the next day after I got that fever, so maybe she will?
This is my problem. I keep hoping that people care, but then they don't and I get mad.
It's just a lot to pretend they don't so that it doesn't come crashing down.
It's disappointing, of course, but at least I won't be surprised.
*watches dumbfoundedly* I mean, I've always wanted to go to the top of the Eiffel Tower.
jellybean wrote: "*watches dumbfoundedly* I mean, I've always wanted to go to the top of the Eiffel Tower."You could go without me :) I don't deal well with heights.
Hallie wrote: "jellybean wrote: "*watches dumbfoundedly* I mean, I've always wanted to go to the top of the Eiffel Tower."You could go without me :) I don't deal well with heights."
WOAH WOAH. I'M HAVING THOUGHTS. Might Hallie be. . . the female equivalent to Tobias?! uwu
Hallie? Wanna talk about something else?Just for a change for u ? I think constantly talking about it makes one feel more bad.
And no one will say that at your funeral. They'll say hood things about an Old Hallie who lived life to the fullest in spite of everything.
jellybean wrote: "Hallie wrote: "jellybean wrote: "*watches dumbfoundedly* I mean, I've always wanted to go to the top of the Eiffel Tower."You could go without me :) I don't deal well with heights."
WOAH WOAH. I..."
Uuhhhhhhh
Aqsa wrote: "Hallie? Wanna talk about something else?Just for a change for u ? I think constantly talking about it makes one feel more bad.
And no one will say that at your funeral. They'll say hood things ..."
I'm fine.
Actually, they won't. These people are....
And they don't realize I'm afraid of heights.
It is only 6:30 in the morning and I already have hit my shoulder on the wall and have a cut on above my knee. Way to go, Hallie!
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