it's personal discussion
300+ views
>
A Solivagant on the Inselberg
message 12501:
by
Hallie
(new)
Oct 25, 2018 08:32AM
What I don't understand is how people are so excited about it.
reply
|
flag
This girl is the only idiot who won't go.
Krishna wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Me: *gets anxious over school and grades and scratches arms way to much*Me: *gets a panic attack, can't think about anything else, stays frozen and stress ears after reading rumors ..."
Hello there! I'm sorry you stepped into this mundane pile of ramblings and other trash, but feel free to comment :) I'm also sorry that you're stressed out by such matters as well. It sucks :/
In my school, I'm the only one. Literally everyone is saying 'We'll have so much fun! Blah blah blah!' but I know that's not happening for me.Sorry about that!
Conversation between Mum and me:Me: So the stupid Chemistry teacher didn't give me the marks I deserve. She's so annoying! I mean she taught that herself, it's the same in the textbook, and she gave H2 the right marks for it, but even though I drew the exact same crystal lattice, she didn't give me marks! *continues to rant*
Mum: If Chemistry, the one you said was good, is this bad, what about Math and Physics?
Me: Ehehehe!
Mum: They didn't give those back, did they?
Me: NOOOOO!
Mum: Tell me as soon as they give it, okay?
Me: Yeah..... Sure.....
Better start burning the charcoal, Hallie.
Unfortunately, my ears pick up things I don't need to hear. I don't think being grounded or beating myself up is fun, so.....
I just realized that I can hang out in the library for the first two hours tomorrow :)
Hallie wrote: "I just realized that I can hang out in the library for the first two hours tomorrow :)"And now I realized that I can't enjoy because 1. I'm supposed to be dying. 2. I should do my Math assignment :/
Hallie wrote: "Aqsa wrote: "82 is good. Don't stress too much :)"Not for my parents it isn't."
Believe me. 82 is not near good enough for my parents either. Don't worry.
Hallie wrote: "So all my friends failed along with 80% of the class, so it can't all be my fault, can it? I know I'm making excuses, but almost everyone failed and even those who passed only barely passed."Happens. It's fine. Maybe the paper was too tough.
Aqsa wrote: "Hallie wrote: "So all my friends failed along with 80% of the class, so it can't all be my fault, can it? I know I'm making excuses, but almost everyone failed and even those who passed only barely..."It was, but parents and teachers won't take that as an answer.
I still haven't completed my Math assignments, and I have her class today, so I'm screwed.
The sound of the train really makes me want to leave.
Me *after seeing that 3/4th of the entire school failed in both Math and Physics*: Maybe I don't have to kill myself over this. Maybe they'll understand that the paper was hard.Teachers come and screw the shit out of us.
Me: Yeah, I'm going to have to hang myself.
I was supposed to do something, but I didn't, and now I have to do it all in one day, but it's too much for me to finish.
I guess I'll have to stay up all night to finish most of it.
![Jaxon(Jax)[They-He] | 4642 comments](https://images.gr-assets.com/users/1749715398p1/46156450.jpg)
Hallie, I can pretty much say I almost had a mental breakdown in the hallway
Hallie wrote: "I was supposed to do something, but I didn't, and now I have to do it all in one day, but it's too much for me to finish."The story of my life
Actually, screw it. I'll just get into trouble for it tomorrow and I don't know.
At least do something otherwise all you'll get will be that you didn't even try.
I know I'll break down any minute now, and I did finish nearly half of it. Besides, there is a chance that I'll get more time to do it, and with all that's going on, this is the least of my concerns, and boy I need to get help before I start abusing those pills again.
Aqsa wrote: "At least do something otherwise all you'll get will be that you didn't even try."Yep, I finished half of it, so at least I can say I did try :) I just won't be able to finish the entire thing by tomorrow.
Raven(Soon to be named Eris)~They/them, Transgenders deserve the same rights as everyone else, how can I live in a world that most likely hates me wrote: "Hallie, I can pretty much say I almost had a mental breakdown in the hallway"I'm so sorry! I missed this post. *hugs Raven, and apparently jellybean*
Name a part of my body that does not hurt.Answer: None.
Here's depression coming to get me again...
Iz didn't come to school the past three days because her grandpa passed away :( She missed her exam.
And our rival school is having their interschool fest today and tomorrow, so I asked B why she wasn't there already. She said her friends were calling her, but she didn't want to go. So M asked if I was going, and I said, "I'm not coming to my own school's fest next week. Why would you even think that I'd go to that school's fest?" First they all laughed and then it occurred to them. What did she say? Not coming to the fest next week? What the hell, Hallie?! H2 seemed pretty surprised and said, "You're not coming? What's wrong with you?"Tell me, what's 'right' with me? And why on earth would I come to a boring fest just to torture myself with loneliness? At least I can watch a movie or read a book peacefully without all the noise at home. I admit I'll miss the DJ, but I can be my own DJ.
Alex!!!!! :D
I'm up at 2:30 am, but don't worry, I'll go off soon. My sleep kept getting disrupted, so it will take a little time before I fall asleep again.
On the bright side, my mum thinks it's a good idea to attend a Irish universities fair next month.On the dark side, I've lied too much yesterday.
Hallie wrote: "And our rival school is having their interschool fest today and tomorrow, so I asked B why she wasn't there already. She said her friends were calling her, but she didn't want to go. So M asked if ..."I hate myself, yes, but it's not healthy to go and hate myself even more.
I want to stay in my room for the rest of my life.
"Hallie never takes medicines. She's pretty healthy."When I'm sick, I complain I'm sick here. I take pills when I'm suicidal. Bet you didn't know that, people in real life.
I just look at people laughing and having fun with their friends: sharing inside jokes and secrets, and I wish I had that.
it's personal
Books mentioned in this topic
Kim Jiyoung, Born 1982 (other topics)Lore (other topics)
The Glass Menagerie (other topics)
The Great Gatsby (other topics)
Orlando (other topics)
More...
