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[Hallie]

I just look at people laughing and having fun with their friends: sharing inside jokes and secrets, and I wish I had that.

[Hallie]

To wake every morning thinking 'I've got to tell my friends about this!'

[Aqsa]

You will Hallie

[Aqsa]

I know that feeling and I miss it too.

[Hallie]

I'm currently walking in the opposite direction from friends and everything, so I don't know how far I will be before I realize it's too late.

[Hallie]

Uh so someone in my class was caught applying nail polish by our Botany teacher who is one of our class mentors, and I was narrating how they made such a big deal out of that and two other girls leaving to go to the rival school's fest to my mum.

Me: I didn't even know she was applying nail polish in class! I got to know later.
Mum: Nail polish would give out that smell (yep, your daughter is very familiar with that smell!).
Me: I didn't smell anything.
Mum: Because you're dumb.
My brain: Too dumb to be paying attention the class and not looking at what random classmates I'm jealous of are doing.

[Hallie]

I don't know how, but every morning I end up with a cut somewhere. Do I self harm in my sleep or something?

[Aqsa]

Hallie wrote: "I'm currently walking in the opposite direction from friends and everything, so I don't know how far I will be before I realize it's too late."

You just have to decide when you don't wanna go any further. You'll have friends. You still do!

[Aqsa]

Hallie wrote: "I don't know how, but every morning I end up with a cut somewhere. Do I self harm in my sleep or something?"

Well, do you?? Or are you careless with yourself?

[Hallie]

Aqsa wrote: "Hallie wrote: "I'm currently walking in the opposite direction from friends and everything, so I don't know how far I will be before I realize it's too late."

You just have to decide when you don'..."

I guess I'll work on that.

[Hallie]

Aqsa wrote: "Hallie wrote: "I don't know how, but every morning I end up with a cut somewhere. Do I self harm in my sleep or something?"

Well, do you?? Or are you careless with yourself?"

I don't know. Yes to the second question, though.

[Aqsa]

Sure :)

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Pssst Hallie: https://lgbtplace.weebly.com

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

I made it but it's still a work in progress

[Hallie]

I was just about to comment on your journal! Yay you made it!!!!!!!!! Can allies of the LGBT+ community join? I don't come under the umbrella, but you guys deserve all the support you can get!

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Yes. It's for Allies and LGBT Community.

[Hallie]

Yay!!!!! Imma go and spread the word around :)

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

:3 it turned into a blog site cuz that is what Weebly is, but I'm figuring it out

[Hallie]

Ah I'm sure you'll be able to pull it off :)

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

One day I'll be a pro at making sites

[Hallie]

:D

[Aqsa]

Good Luck for the site Raven :)

[Hallie]

And there comes my past, present and future coming to smack me right in the face, begging me to kill myself so that the future me won't have to do it.

[Hallie]

Hal, please, 4:15 am is not the time to bore everyone with your redundant suicidal thoughts and trivial problems.

[Hallie]

But looking up for whether I'll qualify for scholarship at uni is more depressing than going to school every morning.

[Hallie]

Yeah, I won't. Thought so. Why do I bother?

[Hallie]

Although a wise friend (the only friend who bothered to talk to me when I was alone) told me to give it a try because it's better to try and fail than fail to try.

[Hallie]

Either way, I'm a bloody failure.

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when applying to college, one of my good friends gave me a tip: "don't make the descision yourself, let them make the descision!" basically, do the thing, even if you think it won't work, and let them make the descision if you'll get in, not you.

[Hallie]

Well, I do have nothing to fill in the applications and I can already guess that decision they will make.

[Hallie]

Basically, Hallie here is too stupid to pay any heed to good advice. Why else do you think she is such a screwed up person?

[Hallie]

My mum wants to go shopping for clothes, and I hate going shopping! Ughghgh!!!!! I want to sit at home and die.

[Aqsa]

Shopping can be a good distraction Hallie.

[Hallie]

I hate shopping, though. It's hours of wasting time saying no to stuff that I clearly will never wear.

[Hallie]

So I ended up not going, and all I have to bear is my dad but that's why I've got earphones.

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

I prefer shopping if it is for snacks

[Hallie]

Unless it's for books, I don't like shopping.

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Hallie. We found a small hair on my chin. It's kinda like my body is trying to grow a beard but all it could grow was a single hair XD

[Hallie]

I had a single hair on my chin, too! And one day it just disappeared xD

[Hallie]

I'm supposed to confess to my parents tomorrow and I'm not dead and can't kill myself, so wish me luck.

Well, when they get to know, it will solve the problem of me not being dead.

[Hallie]

I'm so screwed at home today. I hope a bus hits me on the way home.

[Hallie]

But my cousin's wife sent me a video of my nieces' combined birthday party, and I want to show that to Mum.

[Hallie]

So if I don't come on tomorrow, uh send roses to my funeral and don't bail my parents out of jail.

[Hallie]

I borrowed an Irish textbook from a friend's friend for Iz, and I'm more anxious to return it than the girl who lent it.

[Hallie]

My head all night: Take along the minimum cash for the class pullover.

*forgets*

Class rep: Today's the last day to pay for the pullover.

Me: *counts money* Crap I'm a little short.

[Aqsa]

Good Luck Hallie!!

It would be bad but it'll get better soon. Probably through the results of your next exam though.

[Aqsa]

I love how handfrees can block away the world.

[Aqsa]

Hallie wrote: "My head all night: Take along the minimum cash for the class pullover.

*forgets*

Class rep: Today's the last day to pay for the pullover.

Me: *counts money* Crap I'm a little short."

This used to happen to me every damn time. I always forgot money or forms. And I usually had them ready beforehand but I always forgot to take them.

[Hallie]

Aqsa wrote: "Good Luck Hallie!!

It would be bad but it'll get better soon. Probably through the results of your next exam though."

Thank you!

I don't mind studying, but I can't bear to listen to do 'I do so much for you, and you won't study.' I mean I hurt myself to stay awake in school when I'm sick, so when they say stuff like that, it makes me nearly murder them.

[Hallie]

Aqsa wrote: "Hallie wrote: "My head all night: Take along the minimum cash for the class pullover.

*forgets*

Class rep: Today's the last day to pay for the pullover.

Me: *counts money* Crap I'm a little shor..."

I don't forget that often, but I forgot this one because I actually didn't know we were supposed to pay for it today. I didn't even know the cost, so I was supposed to approximately take money from my pocket money as a safety measure. And well, I forgot the safety measure xD