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A Solivagant on the Inselberg
Ummmm I told my friends a million times to forward announcements in the class group to me because I'm not in it yet. They haven't done it even once. The only way they'll do it for me is if I stand next to them, share my internet, and bug them till they send it, and this message was sent over the weekend, so I couldn't do that. That's how I landed with all those assignments bundled up together last week; they didn't bother to tell me even after I asked them what the assignments were about. My *friends* are the last human beings on the planet who will help me. Someone else in my class? Uh introvert problems - I'm not that close with anyone, and to explain the deal with my parents before I finally got WhatsApp and stuff is just exhausting. But a couple of people who knew about it and still forgot couldn't even gather how much I had, so the class rep immediately said that she would beg the designer to give us all one more day to pay :) So I'm not worried.
Bug them then. Bug them and make them add you. And maybe try making new friends? It's not that hard once you start talking. Just normal talk. Saying Hi and stuff. Or don't make friends just have some contact with them.And that's great :)
Don't forget tomorrow!
They're not worth the pain. I tried for an entire year, but these are some hopeless specimens who genuinely do not and will never give a damn about me. And I don't want to hurt them, so I'll just suck it up until we graduate. It's kind of complicated to make new friends in my class now, but I can see what you mean, and yes, I'll try. I actually have a person in mind who I think have some things in common and her friends left the school this year, so I'm thinking of being there for her and I do feel she will help me out with these kind of things. So working on that :D I've been saying hi and just talking to her when I see her all alone (oh wait, it's the other way around xD), but I really do think your advice is the best for now.Sorry for rambling on! I've been disappointed for too long.
Yep! Haha I'll make sure I remember xP I'll just tell my mum as soon as I get roasted so that she remembers even if I forget.
*hugs Raven* If it's Foods 1 again, I'm coming as soon as I wipe the blood of my previous victims off my weapons.
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No, someone asked me what genitals I had when I told them I was neither boy or girl and I said that I wasnt telling them so they said that I'm a girl
What the hell?! -_- I'm coming with my weapons anyway! It's time these jerks learnt more about not assuming being agender.
I'm agender, I have no gender.
At least that is how I feel
What makes it worse is it was on a support site
Agh wait something's wrong with my previous post. I meant to say learnt more about being agender. I initially typed something else, and now it doesn't seem right.... Sorry!Say I'm curious. Have you met other agender/LGBT+ people at your school?
No, I havent met anyone else that is agender, I have met Transgender people, gay people, bi people
Same. I've met trans, gay and bisexual people, but never agender, asexual, panromantic and others (of course, I've met some amazing people under the umbrella online :) ). While I doubt they are a rarity, I think either some who are agender either don't realize or are still confused, or are afraid to openly say it, which makes me sad. I mean everyone should be accepted for who they are.
T-5 minutes before I get killed. Remember, people, roses. Roses! I don't care whether they are black or white or red or pink. Roses! Oh, and maybe some Ariana Grande?
Hallie wrote: "They're not worth the pain. I tried for an entire year, but these are some hopeless specimens who genuinely do not and will never give a damn about me. And I don't want to hurt them, so I'll just s..."Alright. Talk to her then. I hope it works out well :)
Haha that's a good idea.
Bucket of Flowers
Anyone wondering how yesterday went? No one, Hallie, no one. Either way, I yelled before Mum could tell at me and even though she told Dad, he either didn't hear it at all, or heard it but ignored it. Albeit the school shifted the parents-teacher meeting for so the science folk to next Friday because majority of us flunked Math and Physics, irrespective of our years. I'm considering asking the teachers/principal whether the marks they were supposed to give us are their fathers' assets or something.
I'll probably get suspended or expelled, but future journalist who loves ruining lives can easily expose this 'prestigious, one of the best schools in the country'. Easily. Where do I even start?!
Anyway, someone please fire my English teacher! She pronounced "bouquet of flowers" as "bucket of flowers". And she neither knows to teach, nor knows grammar. I hate having to pick out her flaws like this, but she really, really sucks. Oh, and you've got to hear this one! She was explaining something and she legit said, "Do you have any doubts? If you have any doubts, ask me. Nothing should be in your head." It's not an example for her inept teaching (I have examples for that which will make you go 'Wow!'), but it was so funny those who heard it couldn't stop laughing the entire hour.
Moving on, my Physics teacher was giving us time to copy down a derivation and during that time, she simply asked how many of us were not going to come to the fest. Of course, Hallie here raised her hand, and surprisingly, there were two more. Apparently their parents weren't letting them come. So my teacher was like, "Seriously? Seriously? People from other schools bunk classes to come here, and you guys get a free pass to come and enjoy." I heard K, H2, Iz and B go all 'Hallie?! What the hell?' After the class, H2 looked at me and said, "Hallie, you're coming on both days," and to that I replied, "I'm coming on none of the days." And that led to K's very untrue comment, "She has to stay at home and study." Like that's ever going to happen. I could have an exam the next day and I'll still be watching Netflix or playing my guitar.
The thing is the entire school is so hyped about it, but the same just makes me feel so crappy. Iz is ranting because she doesn't have the right clothes to wear while H2, K and M are all about which stalls to go and what music they might play, and B worried about how to pass her secret boyfriend as 'one of her friends'. I'll just be at home looking at their statuses and I don't know, cutting?
Right after this, the class rep (my bus mate!), came and sat behind me because she wanted H2 to do her hair. Our Physics teacher had sent some pictures of certain questions and since Iz and I aren't in the group, we asked B to send it. Iz requested her to send it right then, but B was so reluctant and kept insisting that she would go home and send it even though all she was doing was running around the class. One of her excuses was that she had very little data left, for which I said I would share hotspot, but she still refused. Finally she did it after all that begging from two of us! Now I've still got to write it :/ I don't know why, but the class rep suddenly asked, "Hallie, do you use WhatsApp?" When I said yes, she asked, "But you're not in the group?" Nope. "So sad chu! (Not sure where she got the 'chu' from.) No wonder why you never get the announcements." And then she gave me her number and told me to send her a message so that she could add me! Problem solved! She did it as soon as the final bell rang, so note to self - thank her tomorrow.
Now this story is..... So they had to attend this meeting and after they came back, they announced that some teachers were going to an old age home next week, and each class was assigned a product to buy, for which everyone had to contribute. Guess what my class got! *drumrolls* Toilet cleaner! Seriously? Our class is going to give them ten toilet cleaners??? Can't we do clothes and other stuff because ten toilet cleaners to an old age home? Uhhhhh..... While I was explaining this to deaf H2 and K, they kept retorting to everything I said until I snapped back saying, "Don't ask me! I'm not the one who decided this!" Well, they got the message because H2 immediately laughed and said, "We're annoying Hallie as if she made these plans." Agh, today was really uhhh.... It wasn't all bad, but it was annoying.
I screwed up in a class test, but eh who cares. The teacher does, but I don't. And Iz got her period and half the class got to know because she kept asking for a sanitary napkin. Oh, and that idiot is desperate to talk to me again -_-
Hey Hallie, sorry your days have been so annoying and frustrating.
It's great that you are finally in the Whatsaap group. Thank her for sure I guess someone had to provide the toilet cleaners too. If not your class then someone else's.
Why aren't you going to the fest?
It's fine. I believe I'm the one to be blamed for these annoying days.Yep, I did! Now my job is to forward messages from there to another friend who isn't in it, but I don't really mind having to do that.
True, but why can't we also give something else like clothes or medicines? Maybe the other classes will cover it, but they won't be able to cover everything. It's kind of strange to hear that such a reputed, rich school is giving the cheapest toilet cleaners available. It feels like we aren't really doing much at all. It's not that we don't want to contribute to it, it's that we think we could provide even better stuff for the people there :)
Well, I'd be really, really, really, really lonely and I don't like social gatherings in general, so the thought of going to a place with so many people without anyone to spend it with is just depressing and causes way too much unnecessary anxiety. Besides, it's boring, and the only thing I can enjoy is the music.
Stop blaming yourself all the time for all the things Hallie. Yes, I wouldn't have mind either. At least you don't have to ask anyone.
I get it. Maybe they should've asked each class for a product and toilet cleaners could've been extras by each class. Who assigned these products?
But won't it be a change you might need? You are going through the sam tedious rouitne every day. Why not change it for a day? Won't hurt much..
Being honest here.Yep!
Exactly. I'm not sure, but probably the union or the welfare team. Or our class reps might have drawn lots.
Uh well, I think the fest would be the tedious routine. It's basically going to school without books, food or water, regretting it and being a lonely wolf. I went last year, stayed for two hours and ran away. Literally ran from there. Unless my best friends are coming (they won't), it's going to be an awful experience I don't want right now.
Why aren't they coming? Yes, if your friends aren't then it's not fun. I thought only u weren't.
K just called and reprimanded that guy who kept calling me in Irish because he lives there and sucks at English (which is why I couldn't screw the hell out of him), and apparently he was being very rough. We're formulating plans to shut him up for real as soon as I get back from the canteen with food for Iz.
Aqsa wrote: "Why aren't they coming? Yes, if your friends aren't then it's not fun. I thought only u weren't."My best friends go to different school. They would have to skip class there to come here just to keep me company, and there is no way their parents or I would let them do that.
Don't you have any good friends in this school?Iz? B? Or someone else?
Oh today's Halloween! I totally forgot until I saw jay's journal.
Last year, we were allowed to dress up and we had fest promotions as well on Halloween. Nothing of that sort this year :/
Our Botany teacher/class mentor/welfare officer was announcing the instructions for the fest, and she was all serious and stern. And my whole class was like 'Hey it's our beloved teacher!' We were trying not to giggle, but at the end, she said: "Finally," and I thought she would say some stringent consequence or something. "Do not bring your books." We're very sorry, teacher, but we just had to laugh out loud xD
All I see is a square, so I'll just assume it's a random emoji xD
Uh this is weird. My whole class just had to do a survey related to fats for someone's project. They asked for our height, weight, family and so on. I mean they asked about the income, and I went blank seeing the sheet. Um, the income varies every month, and I couldn't understand that numbers (yes, people, 17 and I still can't count numbers after 9999). No wonder I suck at Math! And then there were questions like do you look at how much fat every product has, do you count the calories you eat, has anyone told you to eat less fats? Ummmm they wouldn't have asked any of this if it was a verbal survey because obviously, I don't care whether my food has more calories or fats, and if anything, people have told me to eat more fats. There were legit five pages to fill in, and I just found it super strange, but I bet it's helpful to the person who needs it.And as soon as we finished, I took out my phone and viola - the guy had the audacity to call again! We couldn't believe he dared to call, so K immediately pulled me outside and asked me to roast him in Welsh. Her plan is to switch languages so that the guy gets confused/annoyed/fed up. I know lesser Welsh than Irish, but as soon as I'm saying random Welsh words I heard in the movies, even if it doesn't make sense, the guy won't understand anything. However, the guy didn't pick up and all of us gathering around my phone were very disappointed.
Dang there's going to be a DJ mix contest at the fest! Someone please send me videos of that!
Why don't you go there yourself, Hallie?
Ain't I suicidal enough already? If I go, I swear you'll find me on the tracks of the train station nearby.
My brother will become the great person he claims he will be.
At one of his interviews, he'll say that he wants me to be around to see his achievements.
He'll wish to hear me criticize everything about him just one more time.
Because I'm the only one in this world who can be his little sister.
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And you could get from friends. They are also a safety net. Or perhaps you can ask the teacher for another day. Sometimes they give you one.