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A Solivagant on the Inselberg
jellybean wrote: "Hallie wrote: "jellybean wrote: "Hallie wrote: "jellybean wrote: "Hallie wrote: "jellybean wrote: "You were sniffing glue. . ? I mean, what would I say, I might absolutely love the smell of permane..."*compliments follow Jelly around for the rest of eternity*
For a change, I'm speaking the truth! Noooooo, they do not suck.
Why are you blowing up your Miss Goody-two-shoes reputation, Hallie? Why? Why? Just tell me why?
Geez this household needs me for everything. What are you all going to do when I'm dead?
Don't ask questions you don't want to know the answers to, Hal.
Hey, I should write a poem out of this.
If anyone is receiving notifications from this thread, I'm sorry. I apologize for blowing your notifications with this *looks around at messy, nonsensical posts* whatever you call this. It's infuriating, but when you subscribe to this thread, you also subscribe to my pointless ramblings, craziness, depressive thoughts, and suicidal talk. I won't be surprised if you walk out of the door, and I'll never be mad at you. It's my fault.
All I could ever thinkWas just to be with you
Hear that you love me too
Still want you, but can't have you.
All I could ever do
Was simply not enough
To be the one you choose
Still want to, but no will do.
When I look into your eyes
All I see is contempt instead of love
When I look at your hands behind your back
I realize that I'm falling away from you.
When I look at your heart
I see it bears the name of someone else
When I look at your memories of me fading
I realize that I'm falling away from you.
So bad I think I might just stop breathing soon.
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Hallie I felt like my heart was going to jump out of my chest -_-
I just realized that I do have a talent in something other than screwing up: hula hoop.
^ All signs that I should be going to a mental asylum.
Raven(Hopefully can change my name to Eris)~They/them, Chikorita, music lover, anime lover, Moon Demon Company soldier, I refuse to use female pronoun wrote: "Hallie I felt like my heart was going to jump out of my chest -_-"Oops sorry I didn't see this when I posted! Ohhh that's bad :/
Could you encourage me pwease? I feel like you do when it comes to singing and I decided to tryout for a solo but IDK if I can even do it
Raven(Hopefully can change my name to Eris)~They/them, Chikorita, music lover, anime lover, Moon Demon Company soldier, I refuse to use female pronoun wrote: "Could you encourage me pwease? I feel like you do when it comes to singing and I decided to tryout for a solo but IDK if I can even do it"YOU'VE GOT THIS RAVEN
*brings out pom-poms* You can do this! You can do this! Raven! Seriously though, you've got this! I'm sure you'll do just great, and if you're nervous, just keep breathing and breathing and breathing and breathing. It might help ease the nerves :)
Alright guys, I'm going to curl in the corner and die, but if I'm alive tomorrow, I'll come annoy you all at 3 in the morning. I really feel like I'm going to throw up any minute, and I prefer my phone clean.
Dang Hallie, hopefully you're still here tomorrow! Just know we all care about you! And I don't mind the notifications, I hardly get any these days. :)
I'll be waiting for a notification at 3.Better not be late.
Hallie wrote: "Hey, I should write a poem out of this.We all know I'll do it and later regret it and start rambling about my pathetic writing skills."
ME-
Hi Hallie :) I am so, so sorry for yet another prolonged absence from this site. I need to quit doing that, but to be fair my year got disrupted again in a super weird way, and before/after the disruption my teachers were piling on the work. I also am experiencing my own emotional struggles, they've gotten worse... so long story short, please feel free to message me.
Others- I'll disagree with some of you and say that Hallie is allowed to talk about suicide- disallowing her will make her feel more like no one is listening to her. I've made the discovery that friends who only tolerate the positive from you are not friends. They're more like members of an audience who paid for tickets or teachers that expect disciplined behavior in their classroom. Friendships are not supposed to resemble either of those relationships.
I'm not saying that I support Hallie taking her own life. I definitely don't. I understand that everyone here is acting out of love for her, but at this time, the last thing we need to do is alienate her.
For those of you who haven't met me, I'm Alia and I've now been on Goodreads for two years. I take school very seriously and am not very active here as a result. Outside of schoolwork I'm lazy (others try to characterize it as burnt-out from anxiety) and Discord is easier to use on my phone so I check that way more often than GR. Deep down, however, I still think of my GR friends. I hope to be friends with you all if I'm not already :)
I'm not saying she can't, just saying that I'm worried about her when she feels that way, I know suicide is hard to prevent
Raven(Hopefully can change my name to Eris)~They/them, Chikorita, music lover, anime lover, Moon Demon Company soldier, I refuse to use female pronoun wrote: "I'm not saying she can't, just saying that I'm worried about her when she feels that way, I know suicide is hard to prevent"I really am worried too. But I totally understand. I wasn't looking to sound accusatory. As a whole, you all are doing a great, supportive job. :) Thank you for being around; I'm sorry I wasn't.
SHINE wrote: "I’m worried about her. I worry about my friends all the time."Me too. And sadly not all people do that. You are a great person that way.
Hi people! I fell asleep, so sorry! Ummmm ignore whatever comes next because I just saw that Dua Lipa and Blackpink released their song, and I have to rave about it!Alia!!!! Long time no see! I'm sorry you're struggling :( *hugs* I deleted the Discord app from my phone last evening when I was really sad, but I'll download it again for you :)
P. S. Your writing does not suck!
Somehow I'm able to watch an episode that releases on October 25th today. Weird....
What kind of sorcery *squints suspiciously*Haha just kidding, I hope you're okay today :)
That's exactly what I thought!!!!! Magic exists, Mays! I wish :/
Should've known, even though I didn't get my hogwarts letter... (I mean, technically I should be in my 6th year already and I feel like I'm running out of time before getting thrown back into the 'muggle world' again)Anything I/everyone can do to help?
I didn't get mine either! Dang what is taking those owls so long?!Well, that would require someone coming over and knocking in some pieces of information into my hypocritical family, and no one has succeeded in the task :/
The owls probably got lost
And me, dont forget me :P I'm pretty lost too
And all this time I thought I was the only one!
Out of school? Cause that's a daily mood of mine. "School sucks, I need to get out of here."
Welp, either way it works. I need to get out of here, that's for sure.But yes! Get out of the house Hallie! Go see something cool! Maybe Big Ben? I've always wanted to see it. Either way, I'm just saying that cause you live in London, correct? Ah, me? Just a small town in the middle of nowhere where we have about 900 people. :)
I get out early from school on Fridays xPI could do that if my mum just let me. *shrugs* And it's not like I love going outdoors, but I kind of want to leave forever.
Well, we are talking about the person who starved herself when her mum wasn't at home to cook because she didn't want to go outside.
Eeee don't starve yourself :/ whip up something simple. Spaghetti maybe? If you like pasta.Does she not let you go out by yourself? I kind of understand where you're coming from though. If I stay home all day my family will complain about me cooped up indoors, and if I go out then'll ask me why I'm not home doing chores -.- maybe it's universal
Hallie wrote: "Well, we are talking about the person who starved herself when her mum wasn't at home to cook because she didn't want to go outside."Yo man, I'll head over seas now and I'll bring my good old fashioned chicken noodle soup that I can make. Oh! I should also bring my scotcheroos, ey? ;)
Nothing to work with, and even if there was, Hallie would rather starve than cook. Long, stupid story behind that which I should probably let go of, but I don't think I'm doing that just yet. Honestly Mays, I don't know. She has no problems if I'm outside and nearly getting myself killed, once I'm inside with her, she'd rather go for me. Or I should go with her, which is a terrible is. There will be questions and I won't be able to lie through this because I never showed interest in going out anywhere without informing a week before. Ugh maybe it is a universal thing, because somehow, even though it's on her now, I get subjected to those complaints too.
Aww that's so sweet, Jellybean! I guess I'll have to make an exception to the 'I-won't-eat-soup' rule to taste your chicken soup :D
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Her daughter, on the other hand, knows that everything is wrong with her and a doctor room definitely tell her to get help, but she just mocks mum about the whole incident.