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[Hallie]

I just realized I can't smoke here, so now that puts me in a....

[Hallie]

I still haven't told my parents that I failed Math, so that leaves me about a five days to kill myself.

[Hallie]

Do I have to tell them? Can't they just figure it out after finding my body.

[Hallie]

I don't think I have a choice.

[Hallie]

Can I die now please?

[Mystic Orange]

Hallie wrote: "Can I die now please?"

No that is an order.

[Hallie]

Well, I did not expect a reply so soon (mainly because it was supposed to be rhetorical), and screw the orders. I'm dying.

[Hallie]

5 more books and I can die in peace.

[Hallie]

Although I'd miss the new seasons of 13 Reasons Why, The Good Place and Riverdale as well as Ariana Grande's next albums (which are going to be great!)

[Hallie]

But I don't deserve good things, so I guess I can stop being self-centred.

[Hallie]

And I also know I'm never going to become a writer, so I might as well quit writing all this crap.

[Mystic Orange]

I am not giving up on you. I know that you don't what this. Realistically I don't think you do either. You don't have to stop being self-centred. Because you have to look after yourself. Maybe in away you are using reverse psychology and maybe you are using coping mechanism to make sure you stay alive for the next 100 years. I would rather suffer and stay alive than not suffer and die. You have tried attempts and you know how painful death is. Do you think you are brave enough to face death itself?
by yourself?

[Mystic Orange]

I don't think we deserve good things but I think we deserve what we are given anyway.

[Mystic Orange]

Hallie wrote: "And I also know I'm never going to become a writer, so I might as well quit writing all this crap."

I've seen your writing and it is really better than mine.

[Hallie]

The thing is, Rumell, I do want to be dead. I'm not sure how to make that happen. Also, I'm not you; I'm me - a coward and a really, really awful person in general. Besides, I wouldn't feel the pain after I'm dead, so why be afraid?

[Mystic Orange]

Do you think you're brave enough to attempt your own death?

[Hallie]

Rumell wrote: "Hallie wrote: "And I also know I'm never going to become a writer, so I might as well quit writing all this crap."

I've seen your writing and it is really better than mine."

Firstly, that is not true, and secondly, I used to dream of making it a full-time profession, and it's not going to work.

[Hallie]

Rumell wrote: "Do you think you're brave enough to attempt your own death?"

I don't think bravery has anything to do with this.

[Mystic Orange]

Do you think you have got what it takes when it comes to death?

[Mystic Orange]

Hallie wrote: "Rumell wrote: "Do you think you're brave enough to attempt your own death?"

I don't think bravery has anything to do with this."

Oh yes it does. Because I can sense that you are scared of feeling the pain but you aren't admitting to it. The alive is to naive. And death can happen once.

[Hallie]

Well, I firmly don't think bravery has anything to do with it.

[Mystic Orange]

A lot of soldiers were brave because they have took death to protect a country. They weren't brave because they protected us they were brave because death has got to them.

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Rumell, that sounds wrong to say that

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Hallie I missed you so much

[Hallie]

Rumell wrote: "A lot of soldiers were brave because they have took death to protect a country. They weren't brave because they protected us they were brave because death has got to them."

Isn't that completely different?

[Mystic Orange]

Fact is a fact. It may be wrong for me to say that but it is the truth.

[Hallie]

Raven(Hopefully can change my name to Eris)~They/them, Chikorita, music lover, anime lover, Moon Demon Company soldier, I refuse to use female pronoun wrote: "Hallie I missed you so much"

I missed you too.

[Mystic Orange]

It is completely the same thing.

[Mystic Orange]

Death is death no matter what it is. You can't reverse it. You can't die without feeling the pain. I know you want death. But do you want a direct attack on yourself or just let the death to come to you on its own? You can't make things happen instinctively. At least I don't think it does.

[Hallie]

I don't think so. For starters, these soldiers sacrificed their lives to protect us. Point number one. That's not what I'm doing. I'm just quitting. Secondly, no one joins the army with the intention to die; they join because they are passionate and are willing to die. Wanting to die and willing to die are completely different. I know because one of my cousins is in the air force, and he slaved, had surgery and endured all that hard training because ever since he was a little kid, he had always wanted to be in the air force (don't ask why. I don't know because he is like twice my age, and we don't really talk or see each other much). Not the same.

[Mystic Orange]

Rumell wrote: "Do you think you have got what it takes when it comes to death?"

You haven't answered this question.

[Hallie]

I don't really understand what you mean by that question to answer it.

[Mystic Orange]

Hallie wrote: "I don't really understand what you mean by that question to answer it."

Do you think you are that confident to take a risk of having death?

[Mystic Orange]

If you are adamant and really confident that you want death then no one is stopping you.

(From my experience, death has occurred a lot around me in funerals and we had it a lot this year at mosque.)

[Hallie]

Like I said before, once I'm dead, I don't feel pain or regret. I won't feel anything. So it doesn't matter.

[Mystic Orange]

So you are some daredevil risk taker? (Sorry if that sounds rude.)

[Mystic Orange]

Its a yes and no question: are you confident to take a risk of having death?

[Hallie]

If you ask me a question, never expect me to say yes or no, because just like the world isn't black and white, there are other answers lying out there.

So my answer, I repeat, is that it doesn't matter.

[Hallie]

Besides, I still don't believe it's a 'risk' as you call it.

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Rumell wrote: "Fact is a fact. It may be wrong for me to say that but it is the truth."

It's the fact you called dying bravery. Soldiers die for their country, they die for protecting, dying isn't bravery it's scary and it hurts people to lose someone. If Hallie died it will hurt people who care about her. You cant call death bravery when it hurts everyone

[butterbean]

I can firmly agree with Raven. Death might please you Hallie, but think about all the people who would be affected by your death. Many of us would be devastated if we learned in one way or another that you died. Please don't die. There must be something I can do to make you happy. To make you at least smile.

[Hallie]

Then what about me? Should I just continue to do something I hate and be someone I despise to keep these "people who care" happy? That's what I've been doing all my life, and it's exhausting. I want to stop. Alright if I continue, I'll most likely twist it and make it all about myself. Uh well, you should make me happy by poisoning my food or shooting me or stabbing me, or whatever that kills me or lands me in coma forever. Albeit the former is a better option.

[Hallie]

I'm diabolical.

[butterbean]

Hallie wrote: "Then what about me? Should I just continue to do something I hate and be someone I despise to keep these "people who care" happy? That's what I've been doing all my life, and it's exhausting. I wan..."

I'd. . . rather I not hurt you. I don't ever want to hurt anyone as far as I can think. *sighs* One of the reason why I wish the Assassin Brotherhood was real. I would be first to join! Heh. But either way, if you do land in a coma forever, just know that I care about you man. If you're happy, well I guess I should be happy then.

[Hallie]

Yay opportunity to trash myself here! So you said you don't want to hurt anyone, but me - I wanna bury half the people I've met in real life. See? I'm a bad person who does bad things.

[butterbean]

Hallie wrote: "Yay opportunity to trash myself here! So you said you don't want to hurt anyone, but me - I wanna bury half the people I've met in real life. See? I'm a bad person who does bad things."

I mean I'm a terrible person on my own. I do a lot of terrible shit that affects me on a daily basis. Hell, I debate on just staying in my room forever half the time. (view spoiler)[ not to mention all the times i dream about killing people i hate around me just because im an edgy mf ;) (hide spoiler)]

[Hallie]

*raises eyebrow* Yep, I believe you! Note sarcasm.

[Hallie]

Oh, if anyone asking for me rambling about a broken door and Hallie always locking it and Hallie's recent issues blah blah blah you-don't-need-to-know-about-that, tell them I died whilst I was running off to Edinburgh.

[Hallie]

I went crazy for one week and when I try to get myself together, all I see is *says in squeaky high-pitched voice* Ariana Grande and Pete Davidson called off their engagement (I knew this would happen!), Meghan Marlow is pregnant (we get it. Another royal baby whose gender and name people will bet on), and Selena Gomez is hospitalised after a mental breakdown and Justin Bieber isn't over her (even though sources say he's married to Hailey Baldwin, but are they really married?)

[Hallie]

Anyone know how to fix doors with absolutely no tools?