Akosua Dardaine Edwards's Blog, page 168
July 28, 2016
I will figure it out
I will figure it out – that may mean waiting patiently for the answer to come, turning tirelessly over every stone.
It may mean praying until you sweat.
I will figure it out – if you declare you will figure it out the possibilities are endless.
You will figure it out – you are the only one who can Danielle La Porte
I am in figure it out mode - There are so many pieces and nuggets of advice coming from all sides, I know for sure many of them are coming from a place of love. I also learnt that since my life is my responsibility I have to make the decision, do the work and stand the consequences and that ultimately means that it really is up to me to decide. People seem to have difficulty in accepting that when one makes a decision that is different to what they have suggested and want it does not always mean disrespect, or being dismissive and God forbid, not valueing their opinionYour life is YOUR life and the consequences for your choices are yours, also, people's personalities are also different shaped by their beliefs and past experiencesI frustrate a lot of people, the ones who want it NOW, the ones who speak loudly, the ones who are "assertive" the ones who are flash dressers, the ones who are climbing the corporate ladder, hell even sometimes the meat eatersI am now comfortable with the fact that I cannot please everyone and to stop trying toJust figure it outNo harm in asking for opinionsOr listening to thembut in the end the choice is mine, and so are the consequencesI also learnt that if you haven't done it, and I haven't asked you for your opinion, I don't really want to knowPeace
I am in figure it out mode - There are so many pieces and nuggets of advice coming from all sides, I know for sure many of them are coming from a place of love. I also learnt that since my life is my responsibility I have to make the decision, do the work and stand the consequences and that ultimately means that it really is up to me to decide. People seem to have difficulty in accepting that when one makes a decision that is different to what they have suggested and want it does not always mean disrespect, or being dismissive and God forbid, not valueing their opinionYour life is YOUR life and the consequences for your choices are yours, also, people's personalities are also different shaped by their beliefs and past experiencesI frustrate a lot of people, the ones who want it NOW, the ones who speak loudly, the ones who are "assertive" the ones who are flash dressers, the ones who are climbing the corporate ladder, hell even sometimes the meat eatersI am now comfortable with the fact that I cannot please everyone and to stop trying toJust figure it outNo harm in asking for opinionsOr listening to thembut in the end the choice is mine, and so are the consequencesI also learnt that if you haven't done it, and I haven't asked you for your opinion, I don't really want to knowPeace
July 27, 2016
TedX Port of Spain - October 6th 2016
Honor where you're at
. Are you pushing for the right reasons? Or retreating for your best interest? Know wherever you are is exactly where you're supposed to be.
Listen, today was a dream come trueCheck this outGive thanksPeace
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Listen, today was a dream come trueCheck this outGive thanksPeace
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July 26, 2016
We don't adequately think an issue through
We don't adequately think an issue through; we let fear rule a decision. digging ourselves an even deeper hole than the one we're already in; we fail to connect deeply with people and situations around us, leading to all manner of negative results Marianne Willamson
When I make a decision based on fear, it backfires, shit hits fan - no exception! work, love, play, any category.
And what exactly is fear in my case? When love is absent, when the ego is raging, when I am out to prove something or someone wrong or prove myself right, when I forget who I am and start acting needy, and I think my worth is established by what other people think and not by God
So, I made a promise to myself not to concsiously get involved with someone, either through face to face contact or technology- why? I just felt that given the experiences that I had with this person I felt that, I was not a priority - a friend, in a way that I defined friendship. Really nice person though and the thing is, their interpretation of our friendship may be totally different to mine. And that is okay
We don't usually get to tell people how to love us, what we get is the opportunity to choose if we want that type of loving, we get to choose if we want to be around it. Don't bother trying to change people - that usually doesn't end very well.
I know now that my feelings are my responsibility, I cannot or I will not, hold anyone responsible for how I am feeling, the feelings are mine.
And so I did the whole delete all contact, distracted myself when the urge arose to chat, you know how we do it?
Yesterday I relented and seriously, nothing feels worse to me than going back on my own word when I did not renegotiate it in advance.
I contacted the person
I did it out of fear
And it was a bad idea
Do things in love, discipline yourself to do things that are self loving and self honoring, take the time to forgive yourself when you go off course
It will get better
All things are lessons that God will have us learn
and all things are for good
Peace
When I make a decision based on fear, it backfires, shit hits fan - no exception! work, love, play, any category.
And what exactly is fear in my case? When love is absent, when the ego is raging, when I am out to prove something or someone wrong or prove myself right, when I forget who I am and start acting needy, and I think my worth is established by what other people think and not by God
So, I made a promise to myself not to concsiously get involved with someone, either through face to face contact or technology- why? I just felt that given the experiences that I had with this person I felt that, I was not a priority - a friend, in a way that I defined friendship. Really nice person though and the thing is, their interpretation of our friendship may be totally different to mine. And that is okay
We don't usually get to tell people how to love us, what we get is the opportunity to choose if we want that type of loving, we get to choose if we want to be around it. Don't bother trying to change people - that usually doesn't end very well.
I know now that my feelings are my responsibility, I cannot or I will not, hold anyone responsible for how I am feeling, the feelings are mine.
And so I did the whole delete all contact, distracted myself when the urge arose to chat, you know how we do it?
Yesterday I relented and seriously, nothing feels worse to me than going back on my own word when I did not renegotiate it in advance.
I contacted the person
I did it out of fear
And it was a bad idea
Do things in love, discipline yourself to do things that are self loving and self honoring, take the time to forgive yourself when you go off course
It will get better
All things are lessons that God will have us learn
and all things are for good
Peace
July 25, 2016
Day 10 - Why Are You Here in NYC - The Book Tour
Everyone has dreams. There’s not a single human on this earth who doesn’t wish for something. There’s not a single child who doesn't have a wild wish for the future. And there’s not a woman reading this who doesn’t hold some kind of dream close to her heart. Every single one of us has a wonderful contribution to make in this lifetime. We all have a calling
. Maxie Mc Coy
The tour has come to an end, I'm preparing to head back to base. It's been an awesome ten days, I will always remember them. My top five lessons were1. My comfort zone is where I rest, not where I live - be prepared to jump out of the zone ever so often, see what is there and know it will be okay in the end2. I can't do this alone - and I will not ever want to - the support was tremendous especially when I let it flow3. Flexibility is essential - my way is not the only way or the best way - and leave room for surprises - in other words, don't be a control freak4. Believe in myself - just believe - or who's gonna?5. Do your best in the moment
To the Book Tour.....Peace
The tour has come to an end, I'm preparing to head back to base. It's been an awesome ten days, I will always remember them. My top five lessons were1. My comfort zone is where I rest, not where I live - be prepared to jump out of the zone ever so often, see what is there and know it will be okay in the end2. I can't do this alone - and I will not ever want to - the support was tremendous especially when I let it flow3. Flexibility is essential - my way is not the only way or the best way - and leave room for surprises - in other words, don't be a control freak4. Believe in myself - just believe - or who's gonna?5. Do your best in the moment
To the Book Tour.....Peace
July 23, 2016
Day 9 - Why Are You Here in NYC - The Book Tour
There's no guarantee that everything will turn out exactly
the way you want it to, but there IS a guarantee that it
cannot possibly do so if you are afraid to even take the
chance
.NDW
I took Friday evening off to chillax. It's been a full on week. I went to the MOCADA Museum, spent some time with my aunt at the first full solar powered restaurant in NYC. I also met a friend in Manhattan we had dinner then walked around like kids gaping at the lights on the sky scrapers and people watchingBalance - how important is balance and how do you define balance?I think it is a case of including into the mix activities that inspire you, activities that bring you joy, activities that connect you with like minded people, activities that get you still.That is my definition of balanceAnd the old saying all work and no play....that's realPeace
I took Friday evening off to chillax. It's been a full on week. I went to the MOCADA Museum, spent some time with my aunt at the first full solar powered restaurant in NYC. I also met a friend in Manhattan we had dinner then walked around like kids gaping at the lights on the sky scrapers and people watchingBalance - how important is balance and how do you define balance?I think it is a case of including into the mix activities that inspire you, activities that bring you joy, activities that connect you with like minded people, activities that get you still.That is my definition of balanceAnd the old saying all work and no play....that's realPeace
Day 8 - Why Are You Here - The Book Tour
There's no guarantee that everything will turn out exactly
the way you want it to, but there IS a guarantee that it
cannot possibly do so if you are afraid to even take the
chance
.NDW
I took Friday evening off to chillax. It's been a full on week. I went to the MOCADA Museum, spent some time with my aunt at the first full solar powered restaurant in NYC. I also met a friend in Manhattan we had dinner then walked around like kids gaping at the lights on the sky scrapers and people watchingBalance - how important is balance and how do you define balance?I think it is a case of including into the mix activities that inspire you, activities that bring you joy, activities that connect you with like minded people, activities that get you still.That is my definition of balanceAnd the old saying all work and no play....that's realPeace
I took Friday evening off to chillax. It's been a full on week. I went to the MOCADA Museum, spent some time with my aunt at the first full solar powered restaurant in NYC. I also met a friend in Manhattan we had dinner then walked around like kids gaping at the lights on the sky scrapers and people watchingBalance - how important is balance and how do you define balance?I think it is a case of including into the mix activities that inspire you, activities that bring you joy, activities that connect you with like minded people, activities that get you still.That is my definition of balanceAnd the old saying all work and no play....that's realPeace
July 22, 2016
Day 8 - Why Are You Here in NYC - The Book Tour
You will know you are being controlled by a memory if you insist on doing a certain thing in a certain way, because you are convinced your reason for doing it is right. You can be pretty sure you are being controlled by a memory when you interpret the things you see or hear in ways that cause you anger, fear or resentment. When a memory of something you have forgotten is controlling your life, you will say things that are not true, you will do things that are not productive, you will hear things that are not said, you will see things that are not there. You will respond in ways that are inappropriate and out of character. In these cases, your soul is calling out for healing.
What was going on THEN will continue to happen NOW as long as you forget to remember it. A repressed memory will push itself into your consciousness to be healed. It will stand up until it receives the attention and recognition it deserves. Everything you have experienced deserves to be honored and embraced. Yes, some things also need to be healed. Until you are willing to remember the things you have learned to forget, you cannot participate in or benefit from the joys of healing your life
. Iyanla Vanzant
The Brooklyn Library was a great gig, I was pleasantly surprised they brought a class to share lessons on the journey - the room was packed, standing room only. It was streaming live things looked rosyJust before that I was frustrated as hell, I fell down the stairs in the library, cut and briused my hand, couldn't get the projector to work, the person to take pics couldn't because their battery was spent, I breathed out and said okay, things can only get better!As I picked myself off the stairs, on the verge of tears, I walked in the room, full house!! one lady asked me if we were ok for seats she had a few more people she wanted to join! Thank you UniverseTo top it off my cousins surprised me and showed up and was standing at the back, haven't seen them in years!Confessions on the journey time - I'm tired! I really want to lay down for a day and sleep- Sunday for that!! The show must go on until then. So grateful for these experiences, so grateful for the people who show up and support, so grateful that I get an opportunity to share my stories and have fun while doing it. the gratitude will help me through until Sunday night!Until thenTo the Book TourPeace
The Brooklyn Library was a great gig, I was pleasantly surprised they brought a class to share lessons on the journey - the room was packed, standing room only. It was streaming live things looked rosyJust before that I was frustrated as hell, I fell down the stairs in the library, cut and briused my hand, couldn't get the projector to work, the person to take pics couldn't because their battery was spent, I breathed out and said okay, things can only get better!As I picked myself off the stairs, on the verge of tears, I walked in the room, full house!! one lady asked me if we were ok for seats she had a few more people she wanted to join! Thank you UniverseTo top it off my cousins surprised me and showed up and was standing at the back, haven't seen them in years!Confessions on the journey time - I'm tired! I really want to lay down for a day and sleep- Sunday for that!! The show must go on until then. So grateful for these experiences, so grateful for the people who show up and support, so grateful that I get an opportunity to share my stories and have fun while doing it. the gratitude will help me through until Sunday night!Until thenTo the Book TourPeace
July 21, 2016
Day 7 Why Are You Here in NYC? - The Book Tour
Commit to small, daily actions. They build into big ones. Everyday actions lead to the large leaps. And they help build our foundation for confidence Maxie Mc Coy
Word up Bookstore in Spanish Harlem - a wonderful space, run totally by volunteers and a community centre of sort. A totally welcoming spot. I shared the stage with a young upcoming author called SapoDilla, we read from our books and discussed topics such as authenticity, purpose and telling an empowering story, I had fun doing it
What was the lesson? No matter where I am, I am supposed to be there, it may not look like I want it to look but have faith and trust the process that life is communicating to you at that very moment and my responsibility is to listen and choose.
Today I'm at the Brooklyn Library Grand Army Plaza
To the Book Tour
Peace
Word up Bookstore in Spanish Harlem - a wonderful space, run totally by volunteers and a community centre of sort. A totally welcoming spot. I shared the stage with a young upcoming author called SapoDilla, we read from our books and discussed topics such as authenticity, purpose and telling an empowering story, I had fun doing it
What was the lesson? No matter where I am, I am supposed to be there, it may not look like I want it to look but have faith and trust the process that life is communicating to you at that very moment and my responsibility is to listen and choose.
Today I'm at the Brooklyn Library Grand Army Plaza
To the Book Tour
Peace
July 20, 2016
Day 6 - Why Are You Here in NYC - The Book Tour
Expect discomfort. If you want your call to be easy, you’ll never answer it. Know that you have what it takes to handle the discomfort with grace. Never interpret discomfort as anything other than a step toward your dream. It's required. And it never feels good in the moment.
Maxie
I'm being challenged, I am in the discomfort stage as I embark on this journey and although it feels like crap at the same time it feels goodToday was a day of strategy, the review, what I did well and not so wellWho likes being told that what they are doing is not being "done so well" Woman up- it is part of the journeyI am determined to include some fun in this trip, to celebrate the "doing well" moments if only for days like this where I am told that in order to answer this call there will be uncomfortable daysAnd so on Friday morning the pardee begins!!!Tomorrow I am at Word Up Bookstore - looking forward!Peace
I'm being challenged, I am in the discomfort stage as I embark on this journey and although it feels like crap at the same time it feels goodToday was a day of strategy, the review, what I did well and not so wellWho likes being told that what they are doing is not being "done so well" Woman up- it is part of the journeyI am determined to include some fun in this trip, to celebrate the "doing well" moments if only for days like this where I am told that in order to answer this call there will be uncomfortable daysAnd so on Friday morning the pardee begins!!!Tomorrow I am at Word Up Bookstore - looking forward!Peace
July 19, 2016
Day 5 Why Are You Here in NYC?- The Book Tour
Under each cornerstone of fear on which you have erected your insane system of belief, the truth lies hidden. Truth does not struggle against ignorance, and love does not attack fear. What needs no protection does not defend itself.
ACIM
Bluestockings Book Store in the Lower East Side of New York City invited me to share a space, to share a space to tell my story. So grateful for the opportunity to be in the Village at one of the most progressive bookstores in the country!When I was growing up, as a pre teen and early teen I would come to NYC to visit my granma and aunt, we would go to the Village to a joint to eat called BBQ's I was fascinated by the Village, the clothes, the vibe, the styles, the apparent freedom. Back then I thought wouldn't it be nice to live here or be here more often? That memory came back yesterday!
The reading was different to all that I have done before - the crowd was smaller ( A lady came all the way from New Jersey - so grateful for her effort) and the audience was also different- totally out of my comfort zone and and and to top it off it was streamed live - I did not know at first that it was streaming - when I found out midway I was so nervous! - another one out of my comfort zone!I'm so stretched now and it feels good!
So on to the next oneWord Up BookStorePeace
Bluestockings Book Store in the Lower East Side of New York City invited me to share a space, to share a space to tell my story. So grateful for the opportunity to be in the Village at one of the most progressive bookstores in the country!When I was growing up, as a pre teen and early teen I would come to NYC to visit my granma and aunt, we would go to the Village to a joint to eat called BBQ's I was fascinated by the Village, the clothes, the vibe, the styles, the apparent freedom. Back then I thought wouldn't it be nice to live here or be here more often? That memory came back yesterday!
The reading was different to all that I have done before - the crowd was smaller ( A lady came all the way from New Jersey - so grateful for her effort) and the audience was also different- totally out of my comfort zone and and and to top it off it was streamed live - I did not know at first that it was streaming - when I found out midway I was so nervous! - another one out of my comfort zone!I'm so stretched now and it feels good!
So on to the next oneWord Up BookStorePeace
