Akosua Dardaine Edwards's Blog, page 240

We the Truth Tellers

I know that we “truth tellers” need a place to come together and tell the truth. I know that those of us who can see through deception dressed in smiles would like to stop wasting energy even commenting on the falsity in the world – Jennifer Boykin

I am in Chicago! And guess what? it's their coldest winter in 30 years! I has absolutely no plan on being here but I have learnt by now that plans are sometimes my own effort to control what I have no control over! I am here until Tuesday night. The snow is sooo pretty (looking at it from inside!!) Got outside yesterday and the snow is up to my knees and walking is a bit of an exercise in patience and faith!!

So they have advised on the news to stay inside as the temperatures and wind chill are minus 42 degrees F, schools and work places are shut and all that good stuff!!


I am here and I have realized that many things that used to interest me do not interest me anymore! Case in point, people keep asking me here what do I do, where do I work. And that's what the entire conversation was about, work, tv shows and where they shop! Not interested in it but I did my best to be polite about it!  I told them I focus on being happy these days however that looks like, they were not impressed and I had no intentions of impressing them, we reached a great middle ground and had a good time!

So I guess it will be a quiet day for me today, I welcome it, time to rest as I have been going and going and going and going!!
Wrapping up warm!!

Peace!!!

True Vulnerability is an Art

Let me pose a question.  Do any of us have perfect lives?  Or do we carefully curate our public personas, keeping our true selves safe, hidden from view?  Of course, we show only what we want the world to see. But true vulnerability is an art.  It is the art of allowing oneself to be seen.  Without putting up our guard.  Without pretense.  Without all the masks we don in order to get through our days.  Vulnerability also requires vigilance.  Some days it’s easier than others to simply be our true selves. when I get up there and speak my truth, it isn’t a version of the truth, or just what is smooth, easy, and palatable, but rather, that it begins to touch what it means to be human in all of our complexity, in all our fallibility.  That ultimately, it has to be enough to say : this is me. Dani Shapiro
So this is the first time that my family is reading the book, boy oh boy they got a load of questions! but the main was " why did you ever feel that you had to go through all of that alone?" Hmm I know back then that I believed that vulnerability was a sign of weakness, that I thought that being independent was what was admired and a sign of strength, that I never wanted to be wrong and always always wanted to win! Now I feel differently! Now I just show up as me every single time and whatever happens I know its a lesson and its ok!!

Big blessings today people!

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Lost on the creek

Determination- do it for as long as it takes to get done Iyanla

Yesterday I had a bit of an adventure. I decided to take an early morning run by the creek close to where I am staying. The weather was perfect for running, the temperature was just right, it was the first day of the year, just right to commune with nature. Started running and enjoying the river running, seeing the birds and the squirrels then I realized I had no idea where I was! When did I pass this golf course? I can't remember this bridge! Ok so I guess I'm lost!

I stop running to see if I could have gotten my bearings! I didn't recognize a thing! Ok stay calm I am telling myself. Been in the villages of Africa so this should be easy! Ha! Two hours passed! I decide to come off the trails and get on the road. I look for a petrol station and ask for Rainbow Lake Road the man looked at me like I was from Mars! He said he never heard of that place do I have a phone number? I never run with my phone or with money (note to self did lesson learnt) he told me he couldn't help. So I walked some more and found another petrol station, this time the guy went online to find the place he asked me the zip code, huh? I just got here I have no  idea! No luck! I am now out 3 hours! I walk to a mall go into a supermarket and wished I had money to buy a drink. I ask two people in the supermarket, no they never heard of the place but can give me a phone to call someone, I call about 5 numbers (who remembers numbers these days?) I finally got the right number and the questions start to fly! Where are you? We just got into the car driving to find you? You've been to Africa and you can't find your way back home right here?
So I have been the butt of jokes since then! Family eh? Gotta love them

Anyways, just m sharing a random story on the journey!!


Peace

Happy New You!

Try new things, take big risks and let your passion and energy guide you!   Define success on your own terms!What does joy look like to you?What does abundance feel like to you?What does freedom feel like to you?2013 is done! How do you feel about the last twelve months? When you think of 2013 what feeling wells up in your stomach? For me, there is a swell of gratitude hat rises to the surface, it brings not just an easy smile to my face but also some tears of joy! I have learnt that all things are lessons that the Universe will have us learn! Now on to 2014! How do I want to feel?, What do I want to feel?More GratitudeCourageJoyAbundanceFreedomSo I start from there! How do I want to feel this year?Every choice, every action, every move I make will be with the aim to feel them! Those are my desires for 2014!What’s yours?Here’s to an awesome 2014 to each and every one of you!Massive thanks, massive blessings and more love!Peace!! 

You there - who are worthy!

There are no prerequisites  for worthiness Brene Brown


Confession time on the journey! Do you know your triggers? I am beginning to know and recognize what mine are and most times in a family setting they come up, well for most people. Families are containers for growth! Anyways, I was having a conversation with my cousin (who is really like my sister, we grew up together in the same house for most of our lives and spent most of our holidays together) so we were talking about when we were growing up and that in the time that my father was not living with us that he would send a message that he was coming to take me out for the day. My mum would dress me and I would be excited and sit there waiting for him and he would not show up for a week! So the conversation was how did this manifest in your adult life? I looked at her and said what an absolutely brilliant question! There and then the whole question of worthiness came up!

I feel that I always have to prove my worth, especially to men in my life! Some people believe that they will be super worthy if they just get that promotion, that they just write the book, that they lose ten extra pounds, that they land a particular job or liv n a particular neighbourhood or drive a certain car. They tell themselves let me just get that and I will be worthy! and they go to high heavens to achieve those things to feel worthy! But Brene Brown broke it down!!! you do not have to do ANYTHING to be worthy! How bloody awesome is that?

So the whole push for worthiness, why? Start from the point that you are worthy and move from there! I AM worthy of love, I AM worthy of a happy and harmonious relationship, I AM worthy of a life of abundance and prosperity and see how different your actions and motivations become!\

Feeling worthy yet?
Peace!!

Committed to Trust!

Do you not see that all your misery comes from the strange belief that you are powerless? ACIM



Someone asked me why did I leave Africa and what do I plan to do when I am at home. I said It was time to leave and I have no plans yet apart from finding a place to live! Well at first there was a moment of silence and then the questions began. You have no plans? You just left? In these times you just left a job and come to nothing? Hmm yea! I think you are mad!

For a few seconds I thought hmm, am I mad?
but then, I thought I may be mad but I want to feel free, I want to serve, I want to do things that I want to do, not what the world and society thinks that I should do! Don't let people should on you!
This is not going to be easy but I am  committed to this, I am committed to following my purpose, my bliss and sticking with it! I am ready because life is always in session!
And just like that I got a call to go and see a place that was available for rent from a friend of mine, I went and within ten minutes I found a place to live, like right on cue, a reminder from the Universe to trust!! So on to the next! Stay tuned!!

What are you committed to trusting?
Peace