Colleen Brown's Blog, page 246

I will always bethe only personthat you can sayactually loved youfor who you were,and who you...

I will always be
the only person
that you can say
actually loved you
for who you were,
and who you are
going to become.

I love writing more than reading.I love peaches more than apples.I love films more than television.I...

I love writing more than reading.
I love peaches more than apples.
I love films more than television.
I love rain more than snow.
I love cleaning more than destroying.
I love picking flowers more than gardening.
I love eating more than cooking.
I love sleeping more than moving.
I love kissing more than cuddling.
I love working more than studying.
I love speaking more than silence.
I love my bed more than my home.
I love laughing more than fighting.
I love smoking more than drinking.
I love dancing more than watching.
I love light more than darkness.

And best of all, I love you
more than myself.

Winters have passed without youhere, and I’m not sure whichis colder; the absence of...

Winters have passed without you
here, and I’m not sure which
is colder; the absence of your
presence, or the lack of regret
you have towards leaving me
with nothing to prove of what
we once had was the real thing.
There are places that I will never
see again. Spots that I will never
gather up the courage to revisit.
And you cannot blame me
for not wanting to find you.
Since the day that you had left me
I no longer see a point in
seeking out the shelter 
that we once felt so safe inside.

Even since I can remember,my father has always told methat my love will someday blossom.I’ve...

Even since I can remember,
my father has always told me
that my love will someday blossom.
I’ve spent years trying to figure out
how to speed up the process.
To this day, I still can’t seem
to make this feeling show.

You tell me that you want to be loved,but when I take my time handling youwith eager...

You tell me that you
want to be loved,
but when I take
my time handling you
with eager cautiousness,
all you give me
in-return are shoulders
that are too cold
to grasp, and a look
that is too distant
to be able to distinguish
whether it is a vision
of love, or an appearance
of dissatisfaction.
You are always wanting
what you cannot
give back.

I want to be remembered as the girlwho you were never quite able to figure out.I want the memory of...

I want to be remembered as the girl
who you were never quite able to figure out.
I want the memory of my skin to become
a permeant part of your brain; a thought
that you never could find the right words
to explain. I don’t want to have to fight
for your love. I want to be able to
claim your heart as one that has built
dedication around the outside of my body.
I know the difference between fate
and coincidence, and you don’t need
to tell me that you were always wrong.
Make it right, right now, and tell me
that my presence is the only thing that you
have ever really needed. I shouldn’t have to
tell you what to do now. That should be
an action that you have already practiced.
So before it’s too late, and I am too far
to be able to turn back, tell me that you
will wait for me to return; with my love
hanging off of my shoulder; ready to start
the life that we had always deserved.

"I want to tell you that since the day we fell in love, no feeling has everbeen able to compare to..."

“

I want to tell you that since the day

we fell in love, no feeling has ever

been able to compare to the feeling

that I feel when your body is pressed

against my bare skin.

Your love makes me feel

vulnerable when you are near me.

I want to become everything

that you have ever wanted,

and even if you do love me

for who I am, I still want to be

something that you will admire.

Your love has given me

the strength to be anything.

I want to wake up facing you

in the morning. Seeing you

next to me would give me a reason

to start off my day in a mindset

that only thinks of hope and truth.

Your love is the only thing

that allows me to survive.

”

- “I want to be your love," - Colleen Brown

When I finally thoughtthat I had it allfigured out, you cameinto my life and youturned my entire...

When I finally thought

that I had it all

figured out, you came

into my life and you

turned my entire logic

upside down, and made

me believe in something

that I never thought

was possible.

He said that when he wakes up in the morning,and I am not thereby his side, filling upthe empty area...

He said that when he 
wakes up in the morning,
and I am not there
by his side, filling up
the empty area in his bed,
that’s when he realizes
how much he needs me.
Regret is all he has
for breakfast anymore.
Thoughts of letting me go
when I was never
supposed to leave
is something that he
has to live with; something 
that he has never been able to
understand. At one point,
he thought that being
without me would make everything
feel a little more at ease.
But on the day that I left,
he told me that my fresh absence
was a feeling that he
never wants to have to
experience again.

I just bought five of my poetry professors award winning poetry books, and I didn’t even know...

I just bought five of my poetry professors award winning poetry books, and I didn’t even know that these existed until this morning.