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I want youto want me,but I don’twant you tolove mejust becauseI love you.

I want you
to want me,
but I don’t
want you to
love me
just because
I love you.

And what do you expect meto say to you? That even thoughyou left me for someone else’stouch, I...

And what do you expect me
to say to you? That even though
you left me for someone else’s
touch, I am just supposed to
greet you with open arms,
and pretend that you never
told me that you never loved me?
Even if your favorite quality 
about me is forgiveness, I can’t
see myself ever letting go
of the image of the look on your face
when you told me that all the time
we had spent together, was indeed
time that was wasted. I can’t shake
the feeling that I felt when you held me
for the last time, and told me
that I needed to make this moment last
because it would be the last memory
of us ever being able to feel
each others heartbeat beneath our skin.

I will alwayslove you, but Imay not alwayswant you.

I will always
love you, but I
may not always
want you.

"I cannot tell you exactly when my love started to disintegrate for you.There were so many..."

“

I cannot tell you exactly when

my love started to disintegrate for you.

There were so many times

that when you and I were together

that I thought that maybe chasing after you

was one of the first mistakes that I

have ever committed while being

in your company.

But these are mistakes that I cannot

take back, and these times

are no longer made for people like us.

People who ask for love so much

that all we receive in return

are mislead feelings and overused judgments.

Just because someone tells you

that they love you doesn’t mean

that you are going to be the one person

that they give it all up to.

They should have told you that from the start.

They should have told you

that when your heart starts to realize

that it no longer wants to spend its time

being by itself, that’s when you need to

prepare yourself for the loneliest times

that your heart will ever go through.

But sooner or later your heart will

tear down the walls of solitude,

and you will feel love once again

for people that you would have

never known that you could create

bliss with.

So just because my eyes

can no longer see what I once saw in you,

doesn’t mean that you are going to

end up trapped inside of your own

melancholy thoughts.

”

- “I’m just as lost as you are," - Colleen Brown

I should havejust let you leavewhen you tried to.Because now that youare still here with me,I wish...

I should have
just let you leave
when you tried to.
Because now that you
are still here with me,
I wish that you weren’t.

At least when I told you that I loved you, I actually meant it;instead of just sayingthose...

At least when I told you 
that I loved you, 
I actually meant it;
instead of just saying
those words because I was
afraid that if I didn’t, 
you would leave,
and you would decide
that this time you
weren’t coming back.

If she feels beautiful,let her soak all of thatconfidence in.Just because when youlook at...

If she feels beautiful,
let her soak all of that
confidence in.
Just because when you
look at yourself
and you don’t feel proud
of being inside
of your skin,
does not mean
that she should have to
cower in the thought
of being able to
love her body
more than you do.

thepaperheartsociety:August | 2013Words by Colleen.

thepaperheartsociety:

August | 2013

Words by Colleen. 

WHAT DID YOUR PROF SAY

I went into his office today before my second class with him started. I apologized about doing so, and he told me that it was alright. He said that he admires my personality, and that he think it’s wonderful how impulsive of a person I am. And then I quoted Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, and he knew what I was quoting, so I fell even more in love. Okay, not in love, more infatuated. But he didn’t say much about it. He just told me not to worry about it. That the thought it was sweet, genuine, funny, and something that he could see me doing. He smiled a lot, kept moving his hands a lot, and all I wanted him to do was kiss me.

I am running lowon love, and beingwith you is theonly way that Ican ever befull again.

I am running low
on love, and being
with you is the
only way that I
can ever be
full again.