Colleen Brown's Blog, page 244

I want you to knowthat I will always love you,even if you don’t want me to.

I want you to know
that I will always love you,
even if you don’t 
want me to.

I tell myself that I am over you.That if there is anything that I can doto make you see that what I...

I tell myself that I am over you.
That if there is anything that I can do
to make you see that what I want
has nothing to do with you, I will.
I want to show you that I’ve moved on,
that I can make it through these times
without you by my side.
That even without your love,
I am still strong, and that I can survive.
And even though I know that I no longer
love you in the way that I used to,
I still somehow see you in everyone
that I try to create something new with.

"It’s going to take you 9 hoursto reach me. Your afraid of flying,and I know that, but you..."

“

It’s going to take you 9 hours

to reach me. Your afraid of flying,

and I know that, but you said

that the fear that has made a home

on the inside of your bones,

can take a rest for one day.

Because if you are able to

finally meet my touch, you would

go through all of your weaknesses,

even for a moment of shared passion.

Between you and I, all the others

that I created memories with

were just ways of wasting time

before I could be with the real thing.

And the only thing that I feel like

is realistic, is the way that you have

loved me for so long, and held on

to this thing that we have invested

so much of our energy into.

I know that when you are here,

and our skin is losing itself inside

of more skin, that we will no longer

remember all of the times that we spent

trying to rid of each others affections.

Or how badly we wanted to forget

about the love that we had created

together. What took us three years

to finish is finally being put to the test.

And I know that this is one evaluation

that we will both pass with flying colors.

”

- “Three years to make up for," - Colleen Brown

I am holding onto memories of moments that have yetto happen between you and I.I see you standing...

I am holding onto memories 
of moments that have yet
to happen between you and I.
I see you standing behind
the glass door, with your arms 
that have been waiting
to wrap around my body;
ready to hold the weight
of the entire world.

hello, my sweet peaches. i have the day off, and while i am writing/painting/smoking, ask me...

hello, my sweet peaches. i have the day off, and while i am writing/painting/smoking, ask me something, or let’s start a conversation.

some of my outfits over the years that i found on my computer

some of my outfits over the years that i found on my computer

You are the only personthat I have ever wanted tocreate constellations with;using only our skin as...

You are the only person
that I have ever wanted to
create constellations with;
using only our skin as the map.
The freckles on your back
help me find my way home,
and I am not sure if the clusters
of scars and birthmarks on my body
allow you to feel the kind of safety
that I feel when my fingers
are searching for fallen stars
in the creases of your worn out limbs.
But I hope they at least show you
the way back to me; always guiding
you to the place that we call home.
The place that only you and I
are able to discover; the place where we
realized that there were galaxies
just underneath the surface of our skin.

I can no longertell the difference between making loveand fucking.Both take up time,and both...

I can no longer

tell the difference

between making love

and fucking.

Both take up time,

and both make me

feel so small;

lost inside of moans,

and pleasure, and

the feeling of absolute

vulnerability.

i write your namemore than my own

i write your name
more than my own

Just in case you change your mind,I will be waiting here with my armsopen, and with a heart that...

Just in case you change your mind,
I will be waiting here with my arms
open, and with a heart that forgives
mistakes that will never be forgotten.