Colleen Brown's Blog, page 175

I’m trying to rememberhow it felt to be completebefore I met you, and beforeyou tore my world...

I’m trying to remember
how it felt to be complete
before I met you, and before
you tore my world apart
by only being able to
see yourself.

Where there once was bitterness,there is now relief and pleasantness.I am no longer mourning over...

Where there once was bitterness,
there is now relief and pleasantness.
I am no longer mourning over the fact
that what we worked on for so long
did not work out in the end. I am
no longer holding on to everything
that you once promised me, but never
kept to prove the sincerity of your words.
This is how I know that I am getting
over you, and this is how I know
that someday I will be okay again.

I fell in love with my best friend about a year ago, and we had been together ever since the beginning of this month when she broke it off with me. She's over in another country for 7 months and said what she needed was a best friend. Not a boy friend anym

You move on. This woman that you are involved with, or were involved is obviously overly selfish. She doesn’t actually care about your relationship, maybe your friendship, but not the romantic side of what you had. I mean, she went to another country and told you she just wanted to remain friends and then goes and gets a boyfriend? She seems to not want to be lonely. She’s most likely expecting you to be waiting for her when she comes back. Don’t wait. You are just going to give her what she wants when really you need to focus on what you want. And do you want someone who wants you when it’s convenient for them? Or do you want someone who want you always, no matter where they go or what they do? That’s love right there. Love is not about going away for months and leaving someone behind who you once were with, just because you won’t be able to see them for 7 months. And honestly, 7 months is not a long time to wait. It’s actually incredibly short compared to the amount of time that people wait for their significant others to return home from wherever they are. So basically, you can do one of two things. You can remain in the mindset you are in now, and wait for her until she returns because I can assure you she will want you back when she comes back and will do to this new man what she did to you. Or you can move on, make yourself happy, and create new relationships that may lead to something serious. You can either keep breaking your own heart by letting her break it for you, or you can find ways of forgetting, letting go, and just moving on. Really, it’s all up to you. I’ve been, and I think a lot of people reading this have been in this situation before and they can support my overall point. I hope you do what is right for you, love. Just remember, you’re better than all of this.

Do you know any movies with nymphets?

These films at least have a nymphet character somewhere in the film. Also, some of these films main focus is the nymphet directly. There are probably so many more films, but these are some from the top of my head.

Lolita (1997)
Pretty Baby
Tart
An Education
The Crush
Poison Ivy
Nymphomaniac: Vol. I
Lolita (1962)
Hick
The Virgin Suicides
American Beauty
Léon: The Professional
Ginger & Rosa
Valerie and Her Week of Wonders
Taxi Driver
Seven Minutes in Heaven

I like the advice you give, so I thought I'd ask for some myself. If you have the time or patience to answer this, I would be incredibly grateful. I've gone on a few dates with a lovely girl and am seeing her again this week. The problem is that I slipped

I wish I were able to speak with you on this subject a little bit more thoroughly because you really should be trying to help yourself before helping others. The way you are speaking of self-harm seems so nonchalant and so normal, and that should not be the case. I’m sorry if I am coming off insensitive, but I am very sensitive of this subject, and that’s why I wish I were able to speak with you personally and privately. I’m not worried about this girl as much as I am worried about you, your skin, and your mental health. So love, I’m sorry but I am not going to go into detail or even properly answer this question unless I can personally speak with you. This is a very touchy subject to me, and I just cannot do any kind of justice without speaking to you behind an anonymous wall.

I've had 2 drunken hook ups with my coworker. And I've actually fallen head over heals for him. He won't return my texts, but acts totally normal at work and we get along just fine. I'm afraid to make the first move and ask him what's going on in fear of s

Well, you’re not desperate for asking him what’s going on. Mostly if you two are already obviously involved with one another. If he thinks that way, he is not even worth any of your time or energy. But if you two didn’t establish anything before you had sex, he may think that’s what your ‘relationship’ revolves around. I’m not saying he does, but he may think that. But there is no harm in asking. You at least will know how he feels so you can determine for yourself on what you want to do or not to do.

And when I fall into love I want to make sure that it’s the kind that I will never have to crawl out...

And when I fall into love
I want to make sure
that it’s the kind that I
will never have to
crawl out of.

So badly, I wanted tobelieve that you changed,and that you really did meaneverything you said to...

So badly, I wanted to

believe that you changed,

and that you really did mean

everything you said to me

when you thought that you

would never hear from me

again. But I should have

known that you were

the same person that you

were before I started to

pack my bags. You never

did change, but my God

you were so good at making

me believe that you could.

I fell in love with your abilityto find strength in resentment.I grew attached to the waythat you...

I fell in love with your ability

to find strength in resentment.

I grew attached to the way

that you were able to turn

pain into a way of growing.

You are the only person

that I have ever known

who is able to create love

out of hopeless situations.

You are what I look to

when I want to be better,

and when I want to remind

myself that not everything

is against you. You are

what I strive to become.

You are the light in a room

that has been consumed

by years of darkness.

I’m not afraid of being lonelyanymore. When you left mefor good, everything that I oncewas so...

I’m not afraid of being lonely
anymore. When you left me
for good, everything that I once
was so terrified of facing
seemed minuscule compared
to the ache that I felt
when you never came back.
In a way, I am relieved
that you left me without any 
sign of warning. It gave me
the courage to face my fears
with an already bruised heart,
and eyes that have seen too much
to have to close from the sight
of being scarred by despair.