Colleen Brown's Blog, page 172

I want you to remember meas the woman who never stoppedloving you just because you left.I want you...

I want you to remember me
as the woman who never stopped
loving you just because you left.
I want you to remember me
as the woman who stood 
by your side even when you
couldn’t find the courage
to stand by mine. I want you to
remember me as the woman 
who never stopped holding
onto hope, even when hope
let go of me long ago.
But most of all, I want you to
remember me as the woman
who loved you through everything,
even during the times
when you saw me as nothing.

it’s a beautiful day for having the day off

it’s a beautiful day for having the day off

my hands are all cut-up and cold and i’ve been painting for three hours straight

my hands are all cut-up and cold and i’ve been painting for three hours straight

I hate that you effect my life so easily. Thatwhen I do anything,I can still hear yourinput. I...

I hate that you effect

my life so easily. That

when I do anything,

I can still hear your

input. I hate that I

can’t sleep in my

own bed without

turning over to see

if you’re still there.

I hate that I still

think of you

whenever I think

at all. You are

inside of my mind,

and I’m starting

to think that there

is no way of

getting you out

for good.

I wanted to love herso much that shecould be able to forget about all of thepain that he caused...

I wanted to love her
so much that she
could be able to
forget about all of the
pain that he caused her
when all she needed
was someone who
could understand

exactly how it felt

to want to be desired.

I’m alone again, and I don’t knowif it’s the silence that’s making thisworse, or if it’s the thought...

I’m alone again, and I don’t know
if it’s the silence that’s making this
worse, or if it’s the thought of you
making love to someone who will
never even try to remember where
you like to be touched the most.
I cannot help but to think of 
all the times where we spent
making memories with our words,
and making love with our bodies,
and how could you just forget me
like that? How could you just push
aside everything that we built 
in a matter of moments? I still think
of how we would have turned out
if you would have stayed. And I know
that type of thinking will only
lead to more heartbreak, but I don’t
care. Because I would rather be
torn up from your absence then to
forget about you completely.

So this is my apology, and this is for all of the time that we wasted writing a storythat was never...

So this is my apology,
and this is for all of the time
that we wasted writing a story
that was never going to end
in the way that everyone
wanted it to.

New playlist -our own silver lining"in case you started to forget"listen hereIntro, Sigur...

New playlist -

our own silver lining

"in case you started to forget"

listen here

Intro, Sigur Rós
Mala, Devendra Banhart
Sleeping Alone, Lykke Li
So Sorry, Feist
re: Stacks, Bon Iver
Joy, Iron & Wine
Old Haunts, Memoryhouse
The Sequel, St. Vincent

tonight was filled with black ink

tonight was filled with black ink

There is no amountof poems that canget you to see, thatI am not who I amwithout you here with me.

There is no amount
of poems that can
get you to see, that
I am not who I am
without you here 
with me.