Colleen Brown's Blog, page 149

I needed youand you left me.I missed youand you forgot me.I loved youand you hurt me.I fixed...

I needed you
and you left me.

I missed you
and you forgot me.

I loved you
and you hurt me.

I fixed you
and you ruined me.

Thank you, anonymous! I wasn’t aware! Also, you don’t have to be such a D when it comes...

Thank you, anonymous! I wasn’t aware! Also, you don’t have to be such a D when it comes to correcting me!

new playlist - who i want to be - listen here

new playlist - who i want to be - listen here

"It was like a suddengust of wind, or an almostempty sky, filled with onecloud that for some..."

“It was like a sudden

gust of wind, or an almost

empty sky, filled with one

cloud that for some reason

cannot stop itself from crying.

This is how it felt when

you left, a sudden storm

that gave no warning before

destroying an entire city.

And just like the civilians,

I had no idea what to do

next but to sit and wait for it

to stop. But unlike rain clouds

and spiteful tides, the feeling

of you destruction never did

pass. It was always above me,

always following me like I was

the only one who needed

this disaster to appreciate

what I still had. But it never

felt like a lesson, and I still

have yet to learn from my mistakes,

still have yet to prepare myself

in case it happens again.

But I am still waiting for

the remnants of what you left

me with to fix itself, to show me

that there might still be some hope

of your demise. So I will wait

for this feeling of uncertainty

and anxiety to stop. But knowing

you, and knowing of your capability

to manipulate anything that tries

to stop you, I will be waiting

for the rest of my life.”

- "What came after you," - Colleen Brown

"It was like a suddengust of wind, or an almostempty sky, filled with onecloud that for some..."

“It was like a sudden

gust of wind, or an almost

empty sky, filled with one

cloud that for some reason

cannot stop itself from crying.

This is how it felt when

you left, a sudden storm

that gave no warning before

destroying an entire city.

And just like the civilians,

I had no idea what to do

next but to sit and wait for it

to stop. But unlike rain clouds

and spiteful tides, the feeling

of your destruction never did

pass. It was always above me,

always following me like I was

the only one who needed

this disaster to appreciate

what I still had. But it never

felt like a lesson, and I still

have yet to learn from my mistakes,

still have yet to prepare myself

in case it happens again.

But I am still waiting for

the remnants of what you left

me with to fix itself, to show me

that there might still be some hope

of your demise. So I will wait

for this feeling of uncertainty

and anxiety to stop. But knowing

you, and knowing of your capability

to manipulate anything that tries

to stop you, I will be waiting

for the rest of my life.”

- "What came after you," - Colleen Brown

I loved you through thick and thin. I lovedyou even when I thoughtthere was no more loveinside...

I loved you through

thick and thin. I loved

you even when I thought

there was no more love

inside of my heart to give.

I loved you until my hands

grew tired and sore from

holding onto something

that was going to eventually

leave in the end. I loved

you through everything.

Even when I was left

with absolutely nothing.

We both created promisesthat we couldn’t keep.So there is no usein blaming someone otherthan...

We both created promises
that we couldn’t keep.
So there is no use
in blaming someone other
than ourselves. It was 
both of our fault that we
couldn’t stick to what
we had swore to when we
both thought love
was on our side. So there
is no use in trying
to point a finger at anyone
other than the person
who is looking back at us
in the mirror.

I know you stillsee me in all ofyour favoritethings.

I know you still

see me in all of

your favorite

things.

I know you still see me in all of your favorite things.

I know you still
see me in all of
your favorite
things.

You are the reasonthat my tongue is drippinginspiration and hope, and if it wasn’t for your...

You are the reason
that my tongue is dripping
inspiration and hope, and if
it wasn’t for your touch,
I don’t think I would have ever 
been able to understand how
it really feels to be completely 
consumed by the taste
of someone else’s love.