Colleen Brown's Blog, page 147
July 17, 2014
When she pulled me
closer to her body,
I swear that our skin
was beginning to fuse
together. How...
When she pulled me
closer to her body,
I swear that our skin
was beginning to fuse
together. How close is
close enough? How are
we going to rip ourselves
apart from one another
when our bodies want
to do is live like this
forever? When she pulled
me closer to her body,
I swear that our skin
started to fuse together.
And I swear that this
is where my body
is supposed to be.
You twisted the meaning
of love inside of my heart.
You beat it to death with
your own hands, and...
You twisted the meaning
of love inside of my heart.
You beat it to death with
your own hands, and you
left the evidence on my
skin, and framed me as
the one who tainted the
word for you forever.
Before you find yourself
lost within my words and
confused from all of their
indirect meanings,...
Before you find yourself
lost within my words and
confused from all of their
indirect meanings, know
that I will never stop loving
you. Not even when I claim
that I would have been better
off not knowing you.
July 16, 2014
We need to stop
holding on to this.
All that we are doing
is kindling the fire
that has no...
We need to stop
holding on to this.
All that we are doing
is kindling the fire
that has no purpose,
no one to keep warm.
We do this to ourselves,
you know. Throwing
words that are soaked
in cruelty at each other
in order to cope
with the feeling of loss.
But I am ready to accept
that what we had was
never meant to be.
And I think it’s time
that you accept that too.
You can continue trying
to convince yourself
that it’s you that I am
writing about, or that it’s
the...
You can continue trying
to convince yourself
that it’s you that I am
writing about, or that it’s
the thought of you that
keeps me up at night.
But I have not dreamed
about you in months,
or have woken up every
morning with your face
in my mind. I let the fire
of your memory subside
when I finally realized
that this thing we had,
this forced kind of love
that we had created, only
felt real when we both had
nothing else to look forward to.
My skin is thicker now,able to withstand even the hardestforce of neglect. I’ve been...
My skin is thicker now,
able to withstand even the hardest
force of neglect. I’ve been toughening
myself up ever since I first felt
the overwhelming strength
of insensitivity against my body.
The cruelty that was inside of his words
knocked the wind right out of me.
And it has taken me years to be able to
breathe on my own again.
July 15, 2014
I want someone who canlove the parts of me that I cannot ever seem to fix,to make more tolerable.
I...
I want someone who can
love the parts of me that I
cannot ever seem to fix,
to make more tolerable.
I want someone who can
love me for the things
that I do that I don’t
even notice I’m doing.
I want someone who can
love me in the most revealing
light, and who can still see why
they stayed in the first place.
I want someone who can
love me like this, because
I’ve been waiting for someone
who I can love like this too.
it’s one of those days when all you want to do is sleep
it’s one of those days when all you want to do is sleep
I always thoughtthat they were wrongwhen they saidthat it...
I always thought
that they were wrong
when they said
that it wasn’t always
going to be easy.
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