Colleen Brown's Blog, page 137

How do you move on from a past lover that vigorously broke you into pieces, That now you're hardly able to move on because you are stuck on them. You still love them despite all they have done to hurt you, lie to you and such?

Well, you can either remain in the memory of what you had or you can, you know, move on. If someone can easily lie to you and just as easily hurt you, why would you want to stick around? Why would you want to support that person when they obviously don’t care about supporting you and only are looking out for themselves? That’s not love. Or at least that doesn’t sound like it to me. And you’re better than that. You deserve more than that. You seem to have a lot of love and trust to give to someone and you have hope, so why not give that to someone who will give it to you in return? Why keep holding on to someone who wants to be let go, or is asking for you to remove them from your life? If they really cared, really wanted to keep what you have going, they would fight for it. They wouldn’t give up because the weight felt like too much or because it was just too tiring. When you love someone, you don’t give up. You stay strong because you know it’s what’s best for the both of you, not just one of you.

You make my heart so giddy. I wish you so much happiness and love in your life <3

You’re such a freaking peach. I hope the same for you!

Hey could you write one about unrequited love? If you do, thanks and I love your works! :)

Here are a few poems that I have written already about that subject! If it doesn’t do any justice, let me know and I can try to write something for you!

I am not your 24-hour convenient store,
I was too hopeful to see that your love was just a trick,
The “I don’t deserve you” speech,

Can we be friends with benefits? I don't mind developing feelings towards you. I kind of like you and your writing too much already.

Oh my gosh. You’re ridiculous in the best way.

thank you for making me feel less alone and for giving me perspective.

thank you for making me feel less alone and making me feel loved and appreciated.

"I find myself waitingfor a call from you, a textmessage, an email, a letterin my mailbox with a..."

“I find myself waiting

for a call from you, a text

message, an email, a letter

in my mailbox with a Vincent

van Gogh stamp in the corner.

I’m still waiting, still anticipating

for the moment when you

will bring me back into your

life, or come back into mine.

It’s been nine months since I have

last heard from you. We went

from being inseparable for three

years to being complete strangers

in a matter of minutes. What were

we thinking when we thought

that this distance between us

could only make us stronger,

only bring us closer together?

We were fools in love from the

very start, and now that we

have reached our end I can

still only see us as those hopeless

romantics who are yearning

for love like it was the only

feeling that we ever needed

to keep us from falling apart.”

- "We may have been fools, but at least we were fools in love," - Colleen Brown

I’ve been finding myself waitingfor your words lately. Waiting fora sign that this might not beover...

I’ve been finding myself waiting
for your words lately. Waiting for
a sign that this might not be
over yet, and that maybe we 
could go back to the beginning
and start off from where
we have never been before.

We went from strangers

to lovers in a matter of moments.

There was never an in-between,

never a, let’s just be friends.

We have always wanted more,

always yearned for more.

This is admittedly random but have you seen the Virgin suicies? Why do you think trip abandoned lux in the football field? I can't understand it and you seem to have good ideas about stuff like that.

It’s not random! I actually just reblogged a gif of Lux in the field after he left on my side blog! I’ve come up with so many reasons to why he left her but the only one I can really put together and think of is that he was afraid. Afraid that she would be attached to him and that he would fall even more in love with her and that he wouldn’t be the same cool jock in high school and would have to dedicate himself to someone younger than him. Ridiculous, I know. But I’ve tried jumping into the mind of a 17/18 year old boy who is a senior in high school who just became popular / good looking and that’s what I came up with. Mostly seeing those type of boys in my high school, that’s what I connected Trip’s personality with. But all in all, I do not think in anyway that he meant to hurt her in that extreme sense. I mean you can even see that when he is talking to one of the boys during the years after interview he was in a rehabilitation center and obviously her death had to have some traumatic impact on his life/future. He knew and even said that he loved her and would never love someone like that ever again, but to think like someone of that age, I highly doubt he knew she was going to be sheltered and not long after that she was going to take her life. I think that’s what messed him up the most because after that night that he spent with her, persuading her to leave the dance and go out to the field, he never saw Lux or her sisters ever again.

woah wait you live in Ohio?

Yes!

What part of Ohio? I just moved here three days ago!

If you message me off anonymous I would be glad to tell you!