Colleen Brown's Blog, page 133
August 22, 2014
are you a lonely person? i sometimes feel like part of the collective surrogate envisioned for your intimacy
Is there supposed to be more? I mean like with your examination. I’m interested. But for your question, no, I am not a lonely person. Well, I guess you could say I am often alone, very often actually, but I am not.. lonely. Well, I’m not lonely all the time. Lately it’s been getting harder but when it comes down to it I actually really enjoy being alone. Being able to examine not only myself and others but things as they are is a big reason I enjoy being alone. I can reflect a lot more faster, a lot more easily and a lot more thoroughly when I am alone. So for your question, yes and no. I am often alone but I am not often lonely.
why do you like sherlock so much?
It’s just one of the most amazing shows that I have seen so far. Everything is just so on point. I understand why it has won so many awards and has such a large fandom. Mostly after two seasons! Two seasons with three episodes per season. That’s really remarkable to me. I love every single character, even the villains. I’ve watched every episode three times each now and still I find something new and admirable about each episode. It’s just so.. imaginative and brilliant. For me, it’s haunting. It’s left a permanent mark inside of my mind and I am completely fine with it. It’s so intelligent, hilarious, beautiful, mysterious, witty, and just literally everything that I have ever wanted in a series. Plus, I love all the actors. They all have this chemistry and it’s just really amazing to me. I could talk about why I love Sherlock for hours and still I wouldn’t be able to give it the proper justice. It’s one of those things that you have to just see for yourself.
August 21, 2014
I am addicted to the feeling
of your body on mine.
And ever since you left
I’ve been trying to...
I am addicted to the feeling
of your body on mine.
And ever since you left
I’ve been trying to find
something just as stimulating
and as pleasurable as your
electric touch. I took up
smoking for awhile but not
even the substance of nicotine
could ever come close
to the high that I felt
for the first time when your
skin was against mine.
"When you were here, I took your
presence for granted, and I don’t
have to write a poem full..."
presence for granted, and I don’t
have to write a poem full of
apologies for you to know that.
I’m tired of hinting around
the truth, and I don’t want
my feelings of then and now
to be a mystery to you anymore.
So here it is, the missing clue,
the last piece of my dedication
and the remaining detail
of my heart. I am finally giving
this to you because I know
that my love for you has been
a case that you never could
solve on your own.”
- "Case closed," - Colleen Brown
When I look at the sky
you are still the only thing
that seems...
When I look at the sky
you are still the only thing
that seems to fill my eyes.
When I look at the sky you are still the only thing that seems...
When I look at the sky
you are still the only thing
that seems to fill my eyes.
What do you do when the person you love the most is not made for having you in his life, and you know eventually she will fly away with his beautiful wings and you won't be able to keep his track?
If you know that he’s going to leave, let him go. There is no use in keeping someone who only wants to be on their own. But if you only think that he will leave someday because you think he is above you, which he isn’t, keep him. Take care of him as he does for you and don’t ever take his love for granted. But it has to be at least equal. If he is treating you like you are below him, get rid of him so you don’t always feel insignificant because you’re not.
August 20, 2014
"He loved me like I was the
only one that he ever knew
how to love. But I was never
enough to keep..."
only one that he ever knew
how to love. But I was never
enough to keep him guessing,
to keep him full. He had me
fooled from the very beginning.
He had me right where he
wanted me and that was
exactly what he planned.
I was simply a prop in his
act for others to stand there
in amazement, an expression
of shock because how could
that be possible. How could
he fool so many at once
and not even flinch. But he
did it, and he had everyone
wondering. He had everyone
on their heels in hopes
that there would be some
sort of loophole. But my God
was he good. He was always
a professional, and I was
the most naive one there.
I was the most mindless one
because how could I let
his trick go on for so long
without even the slightest
realization that this was always
a part of his mind blowing act.”
- "For his next trick," - Colleen Brown
You will fall in love
with someone who is
not me and no matter
how much it hurts
I will be happy...
You will fall in love
with someone who is
not me and no matter
how much it hurts
I will be happy for you.
I will have hope that
this time things will
work out for you and
that this time your love
will not be taken for
granted. So when you
fall in love with someone
who is not me, I will
be happy for you. Even
though my heart knows
that I would be much
happier with you.
"I’ve been told that I love
too hard, too much, too soon
and too often for it to really
be the kind..."
too hard, too much, too soon
and too often for it to really
be the kind of love that is
everlasting. But in my heart
it is not that way. In my
heart there is a vacant room
that is waiting for someone to
fill the space with their presence,
with their forever, with their
love. So when someone tries
to tell me that I love too much,
too often, I will say that at least
my love is on full. That I will
not give up or give in just because
there is no room inside
of my reserved heart for them.”
- "I’m sorry, but we’re booked," - Colleen Brown
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