Christopher Louis's Blog, page 13
October 7, 2014
In many ways, I wish that I could lock myself away in a dark room and pretend that the memories that...
In many ways, I wish that I could lock myself away in a dark room and pretend that the memories that swim through my head are not tightening my chest or causing my eyes to burn with tears. I want to wrap myself up in a blanket and ignore the world for a month. Alas, I know that I cannot do that. I can’t run and hide away. It would be unfair to my family and unfair to their memory. They would not want me to be become engulfed by grief and unhappiness. I know that of course, but knowing something logically and doing it emotionally isn’t always easy. In fact it is incredibly difficult. I need to allow these feelings to come. It is okay to be sad.
October 1, 2014
Working on promoting my website beyond my family and friends...
Working on promoting my website beyond my family and friends with the use of these business cards.
September 28, 2014
The past couple of months I’ve been in this really dark and uncomfortable place mentally. I...
The past couple of months I’ve been in this really dark and uncomfortable place mentally. I wish I could say I knew why I felt this way, but sadly I can’t. I’ve changed my meds and think that it is helping, but unfortunately, not enough. Taking the advice of my doctor, I am going to start seeing a therapist. My first appointment is this coming Thursday. I am a little nervous, simply because you never know what the connection will be like. I hope that the person I chose will be a good fit and that he can help me move out of the blah state and back into one of peace and joy. I need to do something and this feels like the right path. I don’t like being in this place and want to get back to being me and being able to enjoy the things I like to do - like my writing. As with all things, it is a journey and I know that it will not be instantaneous - but I am ready for it.
September 26, 2014
Our magic bands arrived today! Only 26 more days.
Our magic bands arrived today! Only 26 more days.
September 22, 2014
September 14, 2014
The hubby and I went walking through one of our state parks...
The hubby and I went walking through one of our state parks today and the trail we were on had this beautiful covered bridge. It would have been even better if the leaves were changing more.
September 1, 2014
August 26, 2014
The hubby and I took our niece Gwen to the Anime Convention -...
The hubby and I took our niece Gwen to the Anime Convention - MatsuriCon this past weekend. It was a lot of fun - even though I don’t follow many Anime (except Sailor Moon). Gwen got to meet her favorite voice actor and he signed her book as well. I would definitely do it again - though maybe only 1 day. :-)
August 24, 2014
Pressure
I was nominated by someone to complete the Ice Bucket challenge. I have to admit that I have been secretly dreading it. Every time I logged into FB and saw that someone I knew was doing it, I could feel my heart start to beat faster and my chest tightening. I think it is great that it is raising so awareness about this disease. That is amazing. Logically I know it is simply a bucket of water being dumped on your head and what is the harm in that? What I am struggling with is the pressure of having to get it done within a certain time span or that idea that if you don’t do it you are not a good sport or you don’t support finding a cure for ALS. I am more than happy to donate some money to the cause and I will, but why the pressure? Just ask me to donate - and don’t be mad if I don’t have a bucket of water dumped on my head.
