Christopher Louis's Blog, page 11
April 1, 2015
As I stated a couple of posts ago, during a recent visit with my therapist I shared that I will do...
As I stated a couple of posts ago, during a recent visit with my therapist I shared that I will do everything I can to avoid thinking about the day my mom passed away. During our conversation he challenged me to approach it from a writing stand point and asked me to start writing about that day. He didn’t care what format I used, but encouraged me to start putting thoughts down on to paper. I have started, but alas, I am no where near finished. I quickly discovered it to be one of the hardest things I’ve ever written. So many little details are being remembered that I had forgotten, while at the same time, so many strong emotions that I’ve been avoiding are suddenly flooding back into me. As I said, it is not easy.
I think it will be a work in progress for a while yet, but in a way, it is already helping me to focus my energy back into writing. I’ve finished a short story and have already started a second. This project is forcing me to deal with thoughts and feelings I didn’t want to feel, while also helping me rediscover my passion for writing.
March 11, 2015
Enjoying our honeymoon at Animal Kingdom’s Kidani Village...
Enjoying our honeymoon at Animal Kingdom’s Kidani Village Resort!
March 9, 2015
My hubby and I got legally married on our 19th anniversary!
My hubby and I got legally married on our 19th anniversary!
February 22, 2015
The day
This past week I had a very intense session with my therapist. It was one that I knew would be coming eventually, but one that I did not expect to happen then. I told him that I will do everything I can stop myself from thinking about the day my mom died. The reason? I am scared to go through it again. I truly respect my therapist and appreciated the care and support he gave me as said many things that I never admitted before or had even truly understood before.
Before I left, he gave me an assignment. He would like me to write about that day. I can use whatever format I want, but I need to write as much as I can. He also told me that it is okay if I don’t have anything written by our next session. I like the idea, but at the same time I am avoiding it. The fear of reliving it is like a brick wall right now.
I want to do it though. For me and my mom. I don’t want to keep ignoring it.
February 12, 2015
February 11, 2015
Really wishing I could play hooky from work today.
Really wishing I could play hooky from work today.
January 27, 2015
eretzyisrael:
Today, on International Day of Commemoration in...
Today, on International Day of Commemoration in memory of the victims of the Holocaust, the world bows its head in memory of 11 million lives lost; 11 million people who lived, learned, thrived, struggled, laughed, worked and loved.
Today, we remember 11 million people who were stripped of their individuality and humanity, and we say: Never again.
January 26, 2015
Cuddling with our pup Oreo.
Cuddling with our pup Oreo.
January 25, 2015
To Know A Beginning turned 3 today!
It has been an amazing...
To Know A Beginning turned 3 today!
It has been an amazing journey so far. I am looking forward to where it will take me next.
January 19, 2015
Thinking . . .
Struggling with a couple of thoughts in regards to my Notes To A Loved One project. I am extremely proud of the work I put into it and the support I received from friends and family, but sadly the traction I was hoping for has not surfaced. I’ve been questioning whether it is worth even continuing. I recognize that I see value in expressing messages of love and loss in a very public way, but perhaps I am not being realistic in my expectations from others. It is not fair to presume that others share my openness I also have to ask myself whether the project has it served its purpose. Maybe it isn’t meant to go further? At the moment, all I know is that I am not ready to answer that.
