Jasper ~ What a merry way to rot > Recent Status Updates

I found out that the first song on one of Penelope Scott's Spotify playlists is by Cake (Frank Sinatra to be specific, the song, not the person) and I think I love her even more now
I'm a new-ish fan, so if this is dumb, sorry

just trying to ignore my sisters screaming bloody murder so I'm slowly turning Poison up through my headphones

so far it's working

...so, we were joking around at lunch and someone went "Y'all makin' fun 'a gay people?" and went on a rant about how it's wrong
...we're all gay at this table. And very obviously so.

You know things are bad when you start relating to The Things I Deserve and parts of Aishite Aishite Aishite (Vocaloid community knows what I mean)

I was today years old when I learned that hippo milk is pink

So, I went swimming with my friends, and I couldn't find my bathing suit so I ended up in the emo dad shorts and my binder (sports binder, guys)

Now, normally I'm super self-conscious in anything form-fitting or at all revealing, but I just felt... me, I guess. Kinda masculine, too, with the towel around my shoulders-

So, I figured out I can belt out this hold from the end of Undo by Yohio-
I think it might be a bit shorter than the original, but here:

https://tps-8.wistia.com/medias/ydk67...

GOT NEW VINYLLLLLLL
It's Mother Mother btw, Grief Chapter

I'm so surprised that I haven't found more art of Jax from TADC with the bazooka-

WHY ARE YOU PEOPLE NOT DRAWING THE CHAOS RABBIT WITH THE MOTHERFUCKING CANDY BAZOOKA WHEN THE OPPORTUNITY PRESENTS ITSELF!?

I love when horror actually scares me, but then once it gets dark I'm jumping at every shadow or afraid to look out the window for fear of a stalker or some shit

me to my parents:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eugjO...

...I have another obsession and it's the Lacey Games series

Sorry that I haven’t been on today, I was either busy, bawling my eyes out, or trying to calm down afterwards

It's to the point where I'm old enough to play the part of 'older-yet-still-a-minor friend on the internet' that I always looked up to when I was- like- 12-13, problem is that I'm a menace to society and not at all cool in the slightest

I completely forgot how hard digital art is, but it paid off. My pfp took 2 days to draw, but it's done, and my own. Here's a better shot of it:

I really shouldn't be left to my own thoughts-
we had to free write without backspace, jotting down whatever came to mind, with the word 'gossip' to start us off
it went from 'people suck' to a Mean Girls quote to self-hatred back to 'people suck' to queer apes to axolotls to existential crisis-

...why get professional help when you can trauma dump on an AI and watch it slowly go insane?

totally didn't steal a comment from under a Vocaloid song and put it in my user...

totally...

I've been itching to do this, so anyone wanna humor a geeky teenager while he explains the concept and a bit of the history of Vocaloid?

I’d just like to point out something

There’s a show in my area with CAVETOWN, MOTHER MOTHER AND DESTROY BOYS, and last time I checked, tickets are only 36 BUCKS FOR THE NOSEBLEEDS

I go to listen to music on YouTube and it just bullies me TwT

Thank you Spotify for not bouncing between “You need to get off opioids” to “get a fucking boyfriend” every time I throw on my playlist…

UNLIKE YOUTUBE

it has come to my attention that my little sister has gotten extremely violent over the past week or so, ever since she started playing Fortnite

she's five, and every time she sees a creature in minecraft she goes 'I WANNA KILL IT' and hits it, to the point where it cost her a game of skyblock

as a 15 y/o boy well-versed in the world of video games, I legitimately blame Fortnite, something I never thought I'd do

I'm so worried that my headphones are gonna leak enough that everyone can hear my music like what happened in 7th grade-


my music taste got dirtier, too, it'd be catastrophic if someone heard Rabbit Hole-

it is currently 4 in the morning and I'm out of tic tacs

that was supposed to be enough

IT HAS BEEN DONE

I HAVE MURDERED A MAN, STABBED MYSELF IN THE CHEST, AND MANAGED TO NOT BURST OUT LAUGHING WHILE DOING IT

(this was a play)

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I just wanna go to sleep and forget I exist but I have shit to do

I wasn't anticipating that I'd already feel like hell warmed over today, but I'm wearing a dress for a play which is making things the slightest bit worse

...I have come to the conclusion that there is no way in hell I'm memorizing my script tonight

I'm gonna mess up the play tomorrow istg-

I'm gonna let a reference slip and shout 'OH HAPPY DAGGER, BRING ME DEATH!' as I'm supposed to be crying and stabbing myself and dying

I might take a hiatus or something, I'm not 100% sure yet...

there's a lot of stress in my irl life, and it's getting to be a lot here on Goodreads, too. I'll probably still check in from time to time during the period, maybe keep replying to roleplays, but things are just way too stressful for me right now.

Again, it's not set in stone, but it's a big possibility

Oh my!
are you really staying for the night?
hop
step
and
*SHARP-ASS INHALE*
ONE MORE CHANCE-