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“i’d ask you how it feels, but i guess you’ve always known what it’s like to be second, you worthless piece of shit” NOW THATS WHAT THE FUCK IM TALKING ABOUT OKAY NEIL JOSTEN YOU CUNT

this is by far the most well done exy game in the series, i just wish any of the other ones had been half as interesting and full of symbolism!!!!! love andrew finally caring about it enough to make his own calls and neil being on defense, literally chasing riko down and keeping him away from andrew and the rest of the foxes

wymack i was a little unsure about you at first but i love you so
his pep talk really sums up the metaphor of this entire series. it’s not about the stupid murder lacrosse, it’s always been about second chances and healing from trauma. is it still ridiculous and half baked a lot of the time? yes! but i can officially say that i Get it

GOOD FOR KEVIN FUCKING FINALLY
and andrew actually smiling for once????? a real smile????????? that of course neil can’t look away from
the growth these three have experienced in this book especially is really something

LETS GO LESBIANS

oh i adore jeremy already i wonder how the next series will break his lovely spirit

is this kevin’s fake gf that i forgot about
does she know about all the homoeroticism that goes on here or

“i won’t be like them. i won’t let you let me be.”
the callback oh god i fear there is no coming back from this!!!!! if i wasn’t already onboard with this surprisingly tender relationship then i surely am now

i’ve decided to think of andrew and aaron’s fucked up “deal” as a metaphor for their traumas/trust issues, so finally letting it go and letting each other be intimate with people despite the risk of getting hurt is nice to see. their relationship still feels unfinished and weird but whatever

ah yes i got so distracted by the torture porn that i forgot trauma porn was also on the menu
it DOES hit for the most part, especially with andrew, but it’s just a little harder to take seriously when we just had a scene of a 19 year old selling his life to a mafia boss (lord) so he can play murder lacrosse in the olympics

as sloppy and confusing as some of the character writing is in this series, i’ve enjoyed andrew and kevin’s dynamic from start to finish. they’re such interesting foils: both cowardly but in completely opposing ways. kevin cares too much about exy but his self-doubt cripples him, while andrew cares too little and his stubbornness keeps him distant

i would like an entire book about renee and andrew pls i’m so in love with their dynamic

oh and aaron just ruined it, how shocking

i did not expect a trip to the mountains to jumpstart neil’s incredibly long road to healing but i’m not mad at it one bit. the foxes feel like a proper found family for the first time in this whole series

andrew choking kevin out for neil's sake being the evidence matt needed to get onboard with their relationship is fucking sending me

not a fox sleepover my heart can't take this

THE A IN ALLISON IS FOR ALLY IKTR i will now be waiting patiently for the specifics on those bets please and thank you

if this plot is ridiculous and poorly executed then why am i close to tears rn what kind of bullshit is this

neil i know you didn't just ask a federal agent to use exy idioms instead of baseball ones at a time like THIS

this is fucking vile oh my god??? the trauma this poor kid continues to rack up is unmatched

neil i hope you get to kill lola as a treat

"he'd come to the foxhole court every inch a lie, but his friends made him into someone real" hey can neil maybe let me breathe for two seconds
NOT THE KEY OUTLINE TOO NEIL JOSTEN YOU DESERVE SO MUCH BETTER

i appreciate the massive drop-off in pages dedicated to exy games as the series has progressed. nora knows we don't give a shit about her ridiculously confusing game just give us the gays and the gratuitous violence thx

oh fuck them and their cute banter about murder i hate them

neil i am also tired of all the deals and promises and games of give and take like as much fun as i’m having with these two freaks it is EXHAUSTING having to pick apart every conversation for double meanings and implicit words under the surface CAN WE JUST TALK NORMALLY FOR ONCE

so! uh! i fear i am unable to comment on That fucking scene without telling on myself majorly so we are just gonna move on

and what if i’m grinning and kicking my feet WHAT THEN??? IS THAT SO WRONG????? andrew recognizing that neil is fucked up rn and wanting him to actually WANT him when he’s in a better headspace mmhmmm yup yes please!!! neil SMILING???? at andrew’s obnoxiousness?????? he sees right through him it’s so !!!!!!!!! for two people with literal body counts their first kiss was shockingly tender and i’m living

“you gave me a key and called it home”
“i’m tired of being nothing”
okay cool rip my heart out stupid murder lacrosse book that’s totally fine

oh my god?????? as ridiculous as this shit is, the slow buildup of neil’s pain and grief and panic about his nonexistent future is really getting me rn
AND HE CALLED ANDREW???? WITHOUT EVEN REALIZING IT?????? i mean how am i supposed to be normal about that

okay photographer dan being a sneaky ally i see you