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“Personally, I’m a mess of conflicting impulses—I’m independent and greedy and I also want to belong and share and be a part of the whole. I doubt that I’m the only one who feels this way. It’s the core of monster making, actually. Wanna make a monster? Take the parts of yourself that make you uncomfortable—your weaknesses, bad thoughts, vanities, and hungers—and pretend they’re across the room. It’s too ugly to be human. It’s too ugly to be you. Children are afraid of the dark because they have nothing real to work with. Adults are afraid of themselves.
Oh we’re a mess, poor humans, poor flesh—hybrids of angels and animals, dolls with diamonds stuffed inside them. We’ve been to the moon and we’re still fighting over Jerusalem. Let me tell you what I do know: I am more than one thing, and not all of those things are good. The truth is complicated. It’s two-toned, multi-vocal, bittersweet. I used to think that if I dug deep enough to discover something sad and ugly, I’d know it was something true. Now I’m trying to dig deeper.”
― Richard Siken

“Ella era mi polo y yo la aguja imantada de la brújula: todo mi cuerpo se estiraba hacia ella, se empequeñecía de ganas concentradas. Fue bajo el imperio de esa fuerza que empecé a sentir y hoy creo que es posible que siempre sea así, que se sienta al mundo en relación con otros, con el lazo con otros. Me sentía viva y feroz como una manada de depredadores y amorosa como Estreya, que festeja cada mañana y cada reencuentro como si lo sorprendieran, como si supiera que podrían no haber sucedido, sabe, mi perrito, que el azar y la muerte son más feroces que la pólvora y que podían irrumpir como irrumpen las tormentas.”
― Gabriela Cabezón Cámara, Las aventuras de la China Iron

“It’s painful, loving someone from afar.
Watching them – from the outside.
The once familiar elements of their life reduced to nothing more than occasional mentions in conversations and faces changing in photographs…..
They exist to you now as nothing more than living proof that something can still hurt you … with no contact at all.”
― Ranata Suzuki

“with this bullet lodged in my chest, covered with your name, I will turn myself into a gun, because
it’s all I have,
because I’m hungry and hollow and just want something to call my own. I’ll be your slaughterhouse, your killing floor, your morgue and final resting, walking around with this
bullet inside me
‘cause I couldn’t make you love me and I’m tired of pulling your teeth.”
― Richard Siken, Crush