Colleen Brown's Blog, page 88
March 2, 2015
"They tell me I live in a fantasy. That this world I’ve built for myself is as fictitious as..."
- "It’s a hard world, so let me live in my own creation," - CB
would anyone be interested in buying these if i made them into...
would anyone be interested in buying these if i made them into prints?
March 1, 2015
"They think because I don’t
scream into the darkness
that I do not suffer.
They think because I..."
scream into the darkness
that I do not suffer.
They think because I don’t
tear myself apart
that I am not wounded.
They think because I don’t
stop moving, stop going on,
stop living this life,
that I am not helpless.
They think because I don’t
show my uncertainty
that I am always okay.”
- "They think but they don’t know," - CB
February 28, 2015
"Our bodies,
dangling flesh
from bones.
If I take off
my skin and hang
it up to dry, will
you still..."
dangling flesh
from bones.
If I take off
my skin and hang
it up to dry, will
you still want me
once the morning
light shows the truth
of my fragile anatomy?
We are made-up
of so much, and still
I have nothing
to give to you.
Nothing left to offer.
I am an empty shell
of affections
that never seem to be
strong enough to prove
to you that this is it,
this is all I have.”
- "Flesh," - CB
"I love to dance, he doesn’t. He said when he moves on the floor that it looks more like..."
I love to dance, he doesn’t. He said when he moves on the floor that it looks more like flopping than swaying, but I don’t care about how sloppy his limbs move along side with mine, I will still dance with him until my legs no longer want to move.
I love watching films, he doesn’t. He tells me that he would rather hear about how much each character in a film has impacted or inspirited my life, that’s all he needs to know that it’s a good piece of cinema. I don’t care if he doesn’t pay attention to every detail or can recite each line like I can, just being near him when my favorite film is on screen is enough to know that he is interested.
I love to paint, he doesn’t. He tells me that there is not one creative bone in his body, but without needing to see his attempts on a blank sheet of paper, I know that he’s wrong. His whole essence gives off creativity and for as long as I can remember, he’s always been my muse.
I love to talk, he doesn’t. It’s not that he doesn’t like filling up space with words, he tells me, it’s just he would rather give it all to me. He says he could listen to me for hours, hear the excitement in my voice when I’m telling him about something that I saw in my day that may be simple to him, but meant the world to me. He said he just wants to listen, and when it’s his time, he will respond. He tells me never to think he isn’t paying attention or isn’t interested, it’s just he’s always waiting for my next story and when to kiss me when my lips stop moving.
”- "He’s the only opposite that I’ve ever attracted," - Colleen Brown
"You created parts of me
in your head that never existed,
and sometimes I think
with the help of your..."
in your head that never existed,
and sometimes I think
with the help of your hopeful
heart, you only stuck around
to see if maybe those imaginative
fragments of me would someday
appear and everything you
have ever wanted but I never
possessed would finally be real.”
- CB
February 27, 2015
I’m trying to reach you,
but something is stopping
my hands from...
I’m trying to reach you,
but something is stopping
my hands from grabbing on.
At some pointyou’re going to
have to let me go.
Even if I...
At some point
you’re going to
have to let me go.
Even if I don’t
want you to do so.
What is the tagged "deux" mean
It’s the number 2 in French and is the tag to my second month on my blog.
February 26, 2015
"I’m not going to say
that I told you so,
but I will remind you
of when I said that you
deserve more,..."
that I told you so,
but I will remind you
of when I said that you
deserve more, would be
so much more if you
just let him go and left him
behind. That you would
do so much great in your life
when you finally realized
that sometimes he is holding on
because he doesn’t want to
be left in the shadows
of your almost triumphs.
So I’ll tell you once more,
let him go. Because one day
you’re going to look back
and see how much you missed
while you were trying to
figure out why you ever thought
you’d be better off with him.”
- CB
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