Colleen Brown's Blog, page 255

I want to be someone that youcan fall in love with easily.I don’t want the complications,or...

I want to be someone that you
can fall in love with easily.
I don’t want the complications,
or the second guessing of
whether or not you still want me.
Because I want you
to want me, and I want you
to want this as much as I do.
I don’t want to be the only one
who is invested in our love,
and I don’t want you to stay
because you don’t want to hurt me.
I just want all of you,
and I don’t think that any amount
of miles should get in the way of that.

Typewriter series: #23

Typewriter series: #23

I want you toalways remembermy skin.I want the feeling of my bodypressed against yoursto burn in...

I want you to
always remember
my skin.

I want the feeling of my body
pressed against yours
to burn in your brain.

I want to be brand
on the inside
of your mind.

I don’t want the thought
of me touching you
to ever leave your head.

"It doesn’t matter where I go,or how many miles are put between us,I will always be with..."

“

It doesn’t matter where I go,

or how many miles are put between us,

I will always be with you.

I’ve been thinking a lot lately

of how exactly I can let you go,

but the only solution that I come to

is having you be closer than you already are.

My love for you is a contradiction at it’s finest,

and when we say goodbye to each other,

the first thing that enters my mind

is when we will be saying hello again.

It’s hard to push you away

when you are already so far from me.

And I guess if I want you to leave,

it won’t take you very long

to make your way to the door.

When you told me that you loved me

for the very first time,

I should have just said it back;

instead of grinding my teeth,

and thinking if those words

were ones that you actually meant.

I will never regret being with you,

but I will always regret

spending so much time away from you;

trying to run away from my love.

Those are moments in which I know

that I will never be able to get back.

”

- “I want you close, but then again, I don’t want you at all" - Colleen Brown

I should have stayed,and I should have fought for you.But my love for youstarted to suffocate me,and...

I should have stayed,
and I should have
fought for you.
But my love for you
started to suffocate me,
and I would rather
be able to breathe
than to be able to
wait for you
to want me back.

Typewriter series: #22

Typewriter series: #22

Loving you has becomemore of a strugglethan trying tolet you go.

Loving you 
has become
more of a struggle
than trying to
let you go.

I make lines of poetryout of the way you love me;so carefully, but then againso selfish and brutal.I...

I make lines of poetry
out of the way you love me;
so carefully, but then again
so selfish and brutal.
I am the only person
that you have ever loved
that doesn’t let you
get away with doing
whatever you want.
I will be the only person
who will ever make you
feel so small,
by using my words
against your heart.
I am not like your other lovers;
I can self-destruct
at any given moment,
as long as you say,
"I want you, and only you."
If you watch me carefully,
you can see the stretch marks
on my skin from loving people
who never really loved me back.

you are always so kind to people, i wish i could be your friend in real life but i live too far.

I just see no reason in treating others with disrespect for no reason at all. Mostly when people are being kind to me in the first place. I don’t find sarcasm humorous whenever someone is being genuine to me. I don’t see anything amusing about putting someone down when they have done nothing wrong, and are just curious people. The only time that you will read about me, or see me being hurtful, or disrespectful towards someone is if that person personally offended me first. Other than that, I try to apologize as much as I can. And most of all, I try to be as understanding as I possibly can. As long as someone doesn’t come at me, claiming that I am someone I am not, I will be your very best friend.

And just because I live far away from you doesn’t mean we can’t be friends. Don’t be afraid to speak to me. I love speaking to people, and I love making friends! You are beautiful. I hope you know that.

Typewriter series: #21

Typewriter series: #21