Colleen Brown's Blog, page 254

I want you to knowthat I am happy for you.Even if that meansthat you are happybeing with someone who...

I want you to know
that I am happy for you.
Even if that means
that you are happy
being with someone 
who isn’t me.

"I loved you from the very first momentthat I saw you. But that didn’t mean that you and I..."

“

I loved you from the very first moment

that I saw you. But that didn’t mean

that you and I were meant

to be together.

Just because everyone around you

tells you that it’s not true love,

doesn’t mean that it isn’t.

Because when I saw you for first time,

I knew that I would go on questioning

whether or not you would love me too.

They should have told you

that being in love doesn’t always mean happy,

and that if you can find someone

who can tolerate you more than you

can tolerate yourself,

well that is someone worth holding.

But it’s been years since you last said

that you loved me and meant it.

And when you said that my love for you

was more than you could handle,

I should have known that what you meant

was that everything that I once thought was true,

was always the wrong answer.

”

- "Misguided intuition,  - Colleen Brown

I’ve been telling myselfthat it was not youwho I fell in love with,but the thought of you.And...

I’ve been telling myself
that it was not you
who I fell in love with,
but the thought of you.
And as that thought
circulates my mind,
I realize that it was not
you, who I fell in love with,
but the very idea
that what we had
could have lasted.

I saw you with someone elsethe other day, and instead ofpretending that you weresomeone else, I...

I saw you with someone else
the other day, and instead of
pretending that you were
someone else, I smiled,
looked at you in the eye,
and made you see
that I could go on to be
happy, without you.

Typewriter series: #25

Typewriter series: #25

There are so many peoplethat tell me you’re notworth my time.By loving you,I am wasting my...

There are so many people

that tell me you’re not

worth my time.

By loving you,

I am wasting my energy

on someone who couldn’t

care less. But I can’t

give up, and I won’t stop

because of the words

of others. If I always

did what others told me

to do, I wouldn’t have

found who I was when

I fell in love with you,

in the first place.

Typewriter series: #24

Typewriter series: #24

I have told youso many timesthat I love youmore than anything,and I don’t knowwhy it’s...

I have told you
so many times
that I love you
more than anything,
and I don’t know
why it’s so hard
for you to understand
that all I want
is you, and only you.

The love that I feel for youis starting to come offas being mediocre.I care for you too much,and...

The love that I feel for you
is starting to come off
as being mediocre.
I care for you too much,
and without you here,
I don’t know who I am.
Do you see what I mean
by being too mediocre?
No one should love someone
more than they love themselves,
and I heard if you do
than that is what a soulmate is.
But it’s been years
since you’ve told me
that you feel the same about me
as I feel for you, 
and as time has drug on,
I no longer see a point
in conveying my feelings for you,
when all you do
is let my love pass you by.

"1. On the day that you left,it didn’t hit me that you werereally going to be gone. And..."

“

1. On the day that you left,

it didn’t hit me that you were

really going to be gone.

And although your existence

was still intact on the map,

I felt like you are nowhere

to be found.

2. On the second day,

when you didn’t come back,

I no longer doubted you.

If I would have known

that this time would have really

been goodbye for good,

I would have held on

for a little bit longer.

3. On the third day,

I woke up facing

your side of the bed,

and wondered if you

would ever fill that gap again.

4. On the fourth day,

it didn’t hurt as much.

By then, I was already used to

making coffee for one,

and not having to

keep the door unlocked.

5. On the fifth day,

I was able to say your name

without feeling as if

my mouth was on fire.

And I think that was a small

realization to show myself

that I was going to be okay.

”

- "It only took me 5 days to get the taste of you out of my mouth," - Colleen Brown