Colleen Brown's Blog, page 235

What are your views on sex? I just found this awesome post and I was wondering what you thought. You don't have to answer if you feel uncomfortable. (:

I’m curious about this post now! And I don’t feel uncomfortable! Thank you for being so thoughtful towards my feelings!

I think it all depends on who you are having sex with. Or making love. Whatever you want to call it. Which is another kind of a difference for me. If it’s just something because you are in the mood, or wanting to do it, then it can be something just to free your mind and your body of. If you are having sex with someone that you care about, and if you are doing it on an emotional level, I think that’s something that should be cherished. All that matters is how you feel on the subject. Just make sure when you are going to go have sex, or wanting to that you stay protected, and that you are ready to do. Be comfortable inside of your own skin. Do it only because you want to, and not because someone is pushing you in the direction of. Sex is overly enjoyable. But it’s the most enjoyable when you are doing it with someone that you trust, and when you are ready.

For once, I just want youto be the one who ends upon their knees; hands claspedtogether searching...

For once, I just want you
to be the one who ends up
on their knees; hands clasped
together searching for
a single shred of hope
that maybe we can go back,
and make it work this time.

I want to tell her that I love her,but I don’t want herto think that I cannotlive without...

I want to
tell her that I
love her,

but I don’t want her
to think that I cannot
live without her.

Because I can,
I just don’t
want to have to.

I want to tell her that I love her,but I don’t want herto think that I cannotlive without...

I want to
tell her that I
love her,

but I don’t want her
to think that I cannot
live without her.

Because I can,
I just don’t
want to have to.

I know that you love me.I just don’t knowif you really want thisas much as I do.And I know...

I know that you love me.
I just don’t know
if you really want this
as much as I do.
And I know that this
isn’t a competition
on who is able to
show the most compassion.
But if it was,
I would already
have a head-start.

is it possible for people to have more than one soul mate?

I think it’s possible for people to fall into love with more than one person. But I think that there is only one soulmate for a person. I think there is only one true kind of love. That all the infatuation that comes before this one was just a practice run. A beginners course on what you may expect when it’s time to take on the real thing. I guess some people don’t find their soulmate though. Only sometimes, most of the time. I sometimes think that it’s because the person stops looking, and or settles for the next best thing. The next best thing that is more comfortable than loneliness. But I don’t see anything wrong with that. I would just rather end up being alone than to be with someone that I cannot feel connected with. And I mean really connected with. Everyone has a different perspective on love though. So what I feel about love, some may feel completely different.

behave urself

behave urself

"Whenever I try to write about you,everything that I try to explaincomes out sounding likea..."

“

Whenever I try to write about you,

everything that I try to explain

comes out sounding like

a cliché. I start with your skin,

and I try not to compare

how you feel to a texture;

because not everyone

has felt something as electrifying

as the outside of your body feels.

I usually end with a line

about how much I miss you,

and how you should reconsider

your decision on keeping

our relationship in a folder

that you shoved in a drawer

that is full of dust and colored pencils;

you never cared about

how messy we might be.

All you wanted to do

was prove to yourself

that you can love without

growing attached.

But I am not a consolation prize,

and my affections were not

something that you could just

show off; keeping my feelings

on the top shelf in your room.

My love was so much more

than just a story that ended

on a bad note, and it was

so much more than just

a chapter that you always

skipped to get to the good parts;

the silent sex in the daylight

with our bodies crashing

into one another

like a wooden plank

caught in tidal wives.

You don’t need to worry

about me tainting your name,

because I still love you

too much to have others

feel the way that I do about now.

I wouldn’t want anyone else

to feel this kind of resentment.

I wouldn’t want anyone else

to feel the kind of heartache

that I did when you looked me

in the eyes and told me

that your love for me

was never as ripe as mine for you.

And since all this time has passed

with you being gone, I’ve realized

a lot of things, and most

of those things end up

with you looking like the bad guy.

So I will keep your true colors

under-wraps, and I won’t reveal

to others about how you

considered mistreatment

to be a form of desire.

”

- "This is why I try not to write about you," - Colleen Brown

When I look aroundI see peoplefalling in lovewith new people,and I am herestill in lovewith the same...

When I look around
I see people
falling in love
with new people,
and I am here
still in love
with the same person
who will never
seem to give
a damn about me.

Whenever I thinkthat we are happy,and that everythingbetween us is as good as it’sgoing to...

Whenever I think
that we are happy,
and that everything
between us is 
as good as it’s
going to get,
you somehow find
a loophole in our love,
and you make me
feel as if I am the one
who pushed us
in the wrong direction.