Colleen Brown's Blog, page 201

What motivates meis the thought that somedayyou will be here with me,taking on the same...

What motivates me

is the thought that someday

you will be here with me,

taking on the same battles.

That someday you will

understand the reasons

behind my actions,

and why I make myself

hidden in crowds that know

not only my face

but my train of thought.

One day, when you are

by my side, you will

finally know why it is

that I struggle to find

the very purpose

of my rooted emotions.

Your kiss is the warmingembrace that my skinhas longed for. That my skinhas been searching...

Your kiss is the warming

embrace that my skin

has longed for. That my skin

has been searching for.

My hands inside of your hands

is the only time I feel safe.

When I am with you, I know

that by your side is where

I am truly meant to be.

"They say that sooner or laterI’m going to have to accept itand let you go. But no matterhow hard..."

“They say that sooner or later

I’m going to have to accept it

and let you go. But no matter

how hard I try, I cannot let go

of your hand, and I cannot

give up on the thought

that one day you will wake up

and it will feel like no time

has passed at all. But these

months haven’t been on our side,

and I know you wouldn’t blame me

for cursing at this clock,

this calendar, this fucking

waiting room. And you know me

better than anyone, and

you know that I’m not going to

let go of you just because

your mind has. That’s what

drew you to me in the first place.

Do you remember? How I would

never give-up. How I would

keep coming back even when

you would tell me that you

were shutting all the lights off.

But this, this is different,

and I will keep coming back

for as long as your name is on

that clipboard, and visiting hours

are in session. So please, my love,

don’t hold this dedication

against me. Because I know

if I were the one in that hospital

gown, inside that sterile bed,

and bathing underneath

those uncomfortable white lights,

you would be doing

exactly what I am doing.”

- "I’ll keep holding on," - Colleen Brown

You belong with me.Not tied around the waistof a man who won’t remember your namein the...

You belong with me.

Not tied around the waist

of a man who won’t

remember your name

in the morning. You belong

by my side, and I belong

to you as much as you

belong to me.

"We are afraid to love someone, but we aren’t afraid of someone loving us. Strange, isn’t it? How we..."

“We are afraid to love someone, but we aren’t afraid of someone loving us. Strange, isn’t it? How we spend so much of our time searching for someone who will take care of us, who will remember us. But then we are so afraid of remembering someone because we don’t want the pain to linger. But if the pain of our absence lingers on someone else’s mind, that’s okay. Because at least we aren’t the one who has to suffer.”

- Small conversations, #12

You don’t see yourselfin the same lightthat I see you in. The samelight that showsevery...

You don’t see yourself

in the same light

that I see you in. The same

light that shows

every part of you that I

have grown so fondly of.

mostlyfiction:I look at your skinand I can see how muchpain you’ve been though.I look in your...

mostlyfiction:

I look at your skin
and I can see how much
pain you’ve been though.
I look in your eyes
and I can see that
all you’ve ever wanted 
was truth. That all you have
ever craved was passion.
I wonder if you have ever
taken the time to appreciate
yourself in the way that I
have always admired you.
There are cities burning
beneath your skin,
and I just wish that you
would understand
that you don’t need to
open yourself up to get them
out. That you don’t need to
destroy the outside
just to stop the flames
from igniting on the inside.
Give it time.
The fumes will subside
once your mind
just lets this disaster
run it’s course.

new playlist - i see you everywhere

new playlist - i see you everywhere

I look at your skinand I can see how muchpain you’ve been though.I look in your eyesand I can see...

I look at your skin
and I can see how much
pain you’ve been though.
I look in your eyes
and I can see that
all you’ve ever wanted 
was truth. That all you have
ever craved was passion.
I wonder if you have ever
taken the time to appreciate
yourself in the way that I
have always admired you.
There are cities burning
beneath your skin,
and I just wish that you
would understand
that you don’t need to
open yourself up to get them
out. That you don’t need to
destroy the outside
just to stop the flames
from igniting on the inside.
Give it time.
The fumes will subside
once your mind
just lets this disaster
run it’s course.

I look at your skinand I can see how muchpain you’ve been though.I look in your eyesand I can...

I look at your skin
and I can see how much
pain you’ve been though.
I look in your eyes
and I can see that
all you’ve ever wanted 
was truth. That all you have
ever craved was passion.
I wonder if you have ever
taken the time to appreciate
yourself in the way that I
have always admired you.
There are cities burning
beneath your skin,
and I just wish that you
would understand
that you don’t need to
open yourself up to get them
out. That you don’t need to
destroy the outside
just to stop the flames
from igniting on the inside.
Give it time.
The fumes will subside
once your mind
just lets this disaster
run it’s course.