Colleen Brown's Blog, page 198

I am the happiest I have ever been. Last summer was the lowest part of my life and this spring break I found a great group of friends and had the best week ever and got drunk for the first time and I can just feel light illuminating from me. Just wanted to

I am proud of you, and happy for you. You are beautiful. Remember that, always.

I have this feeling that your lips would make everything else in the world seem bland in comparison.

Won’t you come over to see if this is true? I bet the same goes for your skin.

What are your goals for the future, career wise ?

Well ultimately, I want to be a writer. But I know how difficult that can be today. So other than that, I’m not sure. I want to help people. Mostly people who suffer with mental disorders. I’ve dealt with a lot of problems myself throughout my short life, and I know how hard it can be to be alone. Feeling as if no one cares or listens. I just want to make people know that it does get okay, and that they are not alone. Even if their mind says that they are.

You've got the loveliest way, fellow dreamer. I like you.

I really like you too.

what are some things you do to make yourself happy?

Some things I do to make myself happy are a bit self-destructive. I enjoy smoking and drinking occasionally. Other than that, I enjoy writing, reading, watching films/television shows, drawing, and listening to soothing playlists. I also enjoy going outside, taking photographs of things that I find beautiful, and seeking comfort within strange places. I do a lot of things to make myself happy. In my life, at this moment, the good outweighs the bad.

you're so lovely, please be mine

You are so gentle. Please, kiss me.

is it bad that i miss this one certain person, and i tend to think about them all the time? I find the little things that i do throughout the day reminds me of him, and i know for a fact i probably never cross his mind anymore):

You don’t know that you don’t cross his mind. If you made an impact on his life, or were even a friend, I can assure you that you do cross his mind. And that’s not a bad thing. As long as you don’t let the thought of him consume you, and bring negative feelings. Just tell this person that you miss them, or that you would like to chat every once and awhile. I see nothing wrong with doing that. Just be sure that you won’t get hurt from doing so. If this person hurt you more than healed you, you shouldn’t bring them back into your life. It’s like opening back up a wound. Do what you need to do to be happy, love.

I try to forgetabout youby pressingmyself against new lovers who will neverlove me in the...

I try to forget

about you

by pressing

myself against

new lovers

who will never

love me

in the way

that you did.

What are your favorite books that you think I should read?

Lit -

A Million Little Pieces, James Frey
My Friend Leonard, James Frey
White Oleander, Janet Fitch
The Edible Woman, Margaret Atwood
Tentative, Anna J. Leader
Lolita, Vladimir Nabokov
Girl, Interrupted, Susanna Kaysen
The Virgin Suicides, Jeffrey Eugenides

Poetry - 

Teaching My Mother How To Give Birth, Warsan Shire
The Flash of Lighting Behind the Mountain, Charles Bukowski
Love Poems, Pablo Neruda
It Look A Lot Like Love, Kristina Haynes
Survival Songs, Meggie Royer
Crush, Richard Siken
The Trees The Trees, Heather Christle
The House on Mango Street, Sandra Cisneros

If you have any recommendations, please reply to this message!

Kiss me like this will bethe last time you will everfeel my skin against yours.Kiss me like this...

Kiss me like this will be

the last time you will ever

feel my skin against yours.

Kiss me like this will be

the last time we will ever

see each other again.

Kiss me like this will be

the only moment where we

are able to feel complete bliss.