Colleen Brown's Blog, page 200

"When it comes to your memory,I am not bitter, and I am noteager to taint your name in the truth..."

“When it comes to your memory,

I am not bitter, and I am not

eager to taint your name

in the truth of your injustices.

Don’t worry, I won’t tell her

of the haste in your touch.

Once you leave that door,

you will leave my mind,

and I am in no rush to get

you to return. Your love

was not really love,

and sometimes it even felt

like an excuse to substitute

loneliness. But this time,

if you return, I will not be

so considerate. Because

this time I will have vengeance

beneath my belt, and not even

my understanding heart

has the strength to stop my hands.”

- “Unable to connect," - Colleen Brown

I refuseto believethat youhave changedjust because time has.

I refuse

to believe

that you

have changed

just because

time has.

I do not need youto long for my presence.I do not need youto stay up waiting for me.I do not...

I do not need you

to long for my presence.

I do not need you

to stay up waiting for me.

I do not need you

to love me out of pity.

I do not need you

to want me

because I want you.

"I shouldn’t have to wait for you to learn how to love me. That’s a feeling that should come..."

“I shouldn’t have to wait for you to learn how to love me. That’s a feeling that should come naturally.”

- Small conversations, #14

I don’t want to be your baby.I want to be the firein your eyes that neverseems to burn...

I don’t want to be your baby.

I want to be the fire

in your eyes that never

seems to burn out.

I am not someone that

you need to take care of,

that you need to worry about.

If you promise to love me

I promise to always

come home. If you make

a home out of my body

I promise to never lock

the doors. All I want from you

is your dedication, and your

word that you will never

destroy what I have

grown used to.

Nowhere on my body does it say fragile.There is no safety warningwhen it comes to handling me.But...

Nowhere on my body does it say fragile.
There is no safety warning
when it comes to handling me.
But once I break, there will be no way
of glueing back together
all of the most important pieces.
I have no guarantee.
You cannot just take me back
to where you found me
and expect there to be a replacement.
There is nothing else
like me. I am one of a kind,
and if that seems like too much
of a responsibility to take care of,
then you should probably
just leave me for someone else
who can actually take-on
the task of keeping something
so rare safe.

"I will still love you even when you claim that you have fallen out of love with me. There are no..."

“I will still love you even when you claim that you have fallen out of love with me. There are no amount of cruel words that will ever convince me that there is something better out there.”

- Small conversations, #13

all together now

all together now

Kiss me like you mean it,or like it’s the last timethat you will ever feelmy lips against...

Kiss me like you mean it,
or like it’s the last time
that you will ever feel
my lips against yours.

I will alwayslove you.Even when Idon’t want to.

I will always
love you.
Even when I
don’t want to.