Colleen Brown's Blog, page 195

"Everyone around me has been telling me to learn how to let things go. That I will only become more..."

“Everyone around me has been telling me to learn how to let things go. That I will only become more bitter, and more hostile the longer that I hold onto something that has shaped me into the person that I am today. But I want to see you try to let something go that made you feel inadequate, and made you feel as if you meant nothing to no one. I want to see you let go of something that made you understand that you really aren’t any different from anyone else.”

- Small conversations, #22

When I saw youfor the first time,my knees felt weak,and I could hardlymake senseof what...

When I saw you
for the first time,
my knees felt weak,
and I could hardly
make sense
of what was
surrounding me.
When the feeling passed,
after we parted,
I realized that what
had come over me
was not rare
but the purest form
of infatuated love.

"I can feel myself fallingevery time our eyes lock and I wonder if you know thatgalaxies exist in..."

“

I can feel myself falling

every time our eyes lock

and I wonder if you know that

galaxies exist in your pupils

and I’m trying to figure out if

this is what love feels like.

Like the whole world is

spinning

and spinning

and spinning

and we are just standing here

facing each other,

frozen in time.

Floating in between minutes.

The world is going by so fast

but it doesn’t bother us

because this time is ours.

The universe made this

moment just for us.

So out of appreciation

we will cease this memory

and put it beneath our skin

so that we don’t forget about it

in the morning.

And for the sake

of what we have been given

I will capture stars

and hang them in your mouth

so whenever you smile

you will be able to see

constellations

in place of your teeth.

When you press

your lips together

you can see radiating light.

Don’t be afraid

of what’s inside of you

when there are planets

within your reach.

”

- "Cosmic love," Written by Colleen & Anthea

I should have knownthat I wasn’t the only person that you hadyour mind set on.I’m tired...

I should have known
that I wasn’t the only 
person that you had
your mind set on.
I’m tired of waiting
on love. I’d rather have
the truth. So now I am
left here to wait
until you tell me
what you thought
might happen,
most likely
never will.

I’m in love with the thought of someday being in love.

I’m in love
with the thought
of someday
being in love.

Whenever I want tofind you, I travelto the placethat we firstfell in love.And even if you...

Whenever I want to
find you, I travel
to the place
that we first
fell in love.
And even if you aren’t
actually there,
I can still somehow
feel you with me.

And when our loveslowly started crumblingin-front of our own eyesall we could dowas sit there and...

And when our love
slowly started crumbling
in-front of our own eyes
all we could do
was sit there and stare
and wonder how
it go to this point,
and why neither of us
tried to fix it before
it was too late.

Ever since you leftI’ve been searchingfor a feelingthat comes closeto being able to compareto the...

Ever since you left
I’ve been searching
for a feeling
that comes close
to being able to compare
to the feeling
of your skin
against mine.

How many timesdo I have to write outthat I love youuntil you understandthat I really do.

How many times
do I have to write out
that I love you
until you understand
that I really do.

"To every mother and father out there,remember that when your child grows upthey will want to be..."

“

To every mother and father out there,

remember that when your child grows up

they will want to be just like you.

When a son sees his father

push his mother against the arch

of the dinning room table

because she over-cooked

the steak and he had a bad day,

he is going to tell his wife

when his hands are around her neck

that his father did the same

to his mother, and they are

still together.

Children act in the way

that their superhero acts,

so don’t be angry

when you find them

repeating your mistake.

When your daughter

is being pushed against the wall

by her husband and her daughter

asks her why did daddy do that,

she will tell her exactly what

you told her. That daddy was

stressed out and needed a way

to be happy again. When

your daughter shows her daughter

the map of her bruises on her body,

she will say to her daughter

what you said to her when she asked

why you were too sore to pick her up.

That bruises fade, and that daddy

didn’t mean to hurt mommy,

but to remind her of his hard work.

When a child finds their parents

being pushed to the ground,

or is the one doing the pushing,

they will think that’s the proper way

of loving someone.

So when you get a call

at 3 a.m. from a police officer

saying that your son has been

arrested for beating his wife

into a coma, or that your daughter

is the one who is in the hospital bed

hanging on to her life, don’t be

surprised. Because as their parent,

as their self-destructive superhero,

you should have seen this coming.

”

- "A villain in disguise," - Colleen Brown