Colleen Brown's Blog, page 193

I don’t want you.Mostly not like this.All twisted and cruelfrom the lack of lovethat you...

I don’t want you.

Mostly not like this.

All twisted and cruel

from the lack of love

that you claimed

is the reason that you

have turned so bitter.

"I did this to you. I set you up to break my heart, and I have no one to blame but myself."

“I did this to you. I set you up to break my heart, and I have no one to blame but myself.”

- Small conversations, #25

All of the promisesthat you made to mewhile you were with himwere just wordsthat you wanted meto...

All of the promises
that you made to me
while you were with him
were just words
that you wanted me
to believe in.
They were just words
full of false hope,
and images of what
could have been
if you were not
so afraid
of giving in
to this feeling.

"I go to bed alone, and I wake up alone. Knowing this no longer bothers me.I’ve made friends..."

“

I go to bed alone, and I wake up alone. Knowing this no longer bothers me.

I’ve made friends with my loneliness. It has showed me how to explore myself. I am still foreign to most of my limbs.

I want you to be happy. Whether it be with someone new, or someone who you told me you never thought of again since I took over the spaces in your head.

I still know the name of the constellation we titled in memory of our love. And even if our passion has burned out, I know that those stars never will.

I can look at a picture of you now without cringing at the thought that you are out there with someone else, learning how to spell their name with your tongue.

The print of your lips will always be a permanent part of my skin. But they were right when they said that a scar like that would be something you would grow so used to, you wouldn’t even remember that it was there.

”

- "Just so you know," - Colleen Brown

I never meant to break your heart,but I didn’t want tokeep convincing myselfthat what we...

I never meant 
to break your heart,
but I didn’t want to
keep convincing myself
that what we had
was something
worth fighting for.
I will always be
filled with remorse
for wasting
your love.

We’re afraid to let go because we’re afraid that once we do everything we wanted so badly was for...

We’re afraid to let go because we’re afraid that once we do everything we wanted so badly was for nothing and everything that could have been most likely never will.

I want to feel her so much closer. I want our words to turn to textures so we will always know how...

I want to feel her so much closer. I want our words to turn to textures so we will always know how to touch. Mostly when we are miles apart.

what you have under your skin are the constellations of light bright in the streams of your veins and someday i'll gather the remnants of my courage to reach out for your pristine soul in the hopes some of the stardust might rub off on to me

I want to live on the inside of your mind. It must be so dreamy.

"Inside of me there are words that have yet to gather up the courage to show you what it really..."

“Inside of me there are words 
that have yet to gather up the courage 
to show you what it really means 
to be loved by someone
 who always has something to say.”

- Small conversations, #24

I lost my patience with youwhen you lost your ability to love me for more than what you were able...

I lost my patience with you

when you lost your ability

to love me for more than

what you were able to see.

I am more than just skin

and meaningful words.

And if that’s something

that you cannot realize,

then I will finally realize

that you were never worth

my time, and my affections.