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I should have told youthat I am sensitive,and even the simplestof words can determinehow I...

I should have told you

that I am sensitive,

and even the simplest

of words can determine

how I perceive myself.

If you call me a baby,

I will cry like one.

If you tell me that you

think I should give up,

I’ll start packing my bags.

And if you say to me

that my words are next

to nothing of importance,

my tongue will retreat

into the back of my throat,

never to be heard from again.

I thought that maybe if Itold you that I loved you,you would come backand make up for everythingthat...

I thought that maybe if I
told you that I loved you,
you would come back
and make up for everything
that we missed when we
were both too bitter to admit
to our undeniable faults.

i have a boyfriend who is okay most of the time but is moody like a girl and doesn't tell me where he is and me and his best friend are enemies and he chooses her over me so i'm just waiting until after prom to free myself of him :(

Just because you’re moody doesn’t mean that you are a girl. Or that you should be compared to a girl. Being moody is being moody and being moody is what humans do, not just women. Him being moody should show you that he is at least able to feel, which is a good thing in his case. You need to understand that first before you try to understand everything.
If you trust him, he shouldn’t have to tell you where he is all of the time. You should know that he is not doing anything wrong, or to deceive you, and if you think that he is, you should rethink about your relationship with him because what’s the point of being with someone if you cannot even trust them going to the supermarket.
It’s hard to pick sides between your partner and your best friend. Mostly if your partner is paranoid over things that aren’t there, or who questions them at all times. A best friend trusts their best friend, and that’s why they call them a best friend, so it’s probably easier for him to speak with her when she is not angry with him / upset with him / making him feel as if he is doing something wrong. If you love him, you would try to make mends with his best friend, or explain to him why you don’t want her in his life.
If you are breaking up with him after prom, why does any of this sort of stuff even matter to you, and why are you even thinking it over?
Do people still go to prom? Because I thought that stopped being a thing after Sixteen Candles was released.

It’s Monday, and today was not a very good day. My eyes hurt from crying so much, but...

It’s Monday, and today was not a very good day. My eyes hurt from crying so much, but that’s okay because I feel at ease for getting it all out. My hands are stained in red, blue and yellow paint. I left work early because I was being harassed by someone in upper management. I am slowly losing my faith in misjudged men. I am meeting her tomorrow. And I mean I am going to be in her home, in her presence, and in her arms. Today was not a very good day. It was gloomy, and the rain matched my tears perfectly. But there is always tomorrow, and I am not going to give up on this week just yet.

When I was weakand everything around mefelt as if it was crashingdown beneath my feet,I still loved...

When I was weak
and everything around me
felt as if it was crashing
down beneath my feet,
I still loved you.

When I was strong
and felt as if I could
take on the entire world
with my eyes closed,
I still loved you.

And now that I’m okay
and feeling as if things
are not as bad as they
seem, I somehow
still love you.

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Every time I read your wordsabout your new lover,and the promises that youmake to one another,it...

Every time I read your words
about your new lover,
and the promises that you
make to one another,
it hurts almost as worse
as the day that you left me.
When you said that I
could never be enough
to satisfy your need
for a love that is mutual,
I lost a part of myself, 
and I am just waiting
for you to give it back
along with the hope
that I had for our
potential attachment.

Before you try totell me that you love me,or that I am the only one who cancreate happiness for...

Before you try to

tell me that you love me,

or that I am the

only one who can

create happiness for you,

remember the coldness

in your heart when we

were finally together.

Remember the way

you looked at me

when all I wanted to do

was be by your side.

All of the words

that you promised me

were true, became

as false as the feelings

that you set in-front of me

when you left to go

back home. You were

never in love with me,

but you were in love

with the thought that I

could make your life

a little bit brighter.

I decided that I deserved something beautiful and sweet.

I decided that I deserved something beautiful and sweet.

mostlyfiction:She wants to watch Blue is the Warmest Color while drinking wine and becoming...

mostlyfiction:

She wants to watch Blue is the Warmest Color while drinking wine and becoming familiar with each other. She wants to plant a garden with me, pick flowers and make memories out of simplicity. This is new to me. This is something I’ve always longed for. Spring is here to wash away all of the pasts burns, and I am letting my skin heal itself from former lovers harsh treatments. I am accepting love, accepting moving on, and accepting the new.