Colleen Brown's Blog, page 183

"I am all mouth, with teeth like kindling.Do not kiss me before...

"I am all mouth, with teeth like kindling.
Do not kiss me before you know this.”

"I am not a place for cowards."

- Caitlyn Siehl | Buy her book: What We Buried

Caitlyn is one of my favorite writers on Tumblr, and I am happy to say that I can finally show her book to others. If you haven’t read any of Caitlyn’s work before, I can assure you that you are missing out. Caitlyn is able to touch base on every subject with her writing, and sometimes you can even read yourself into her meaning. Caitlyn is truly an inspiration, and if you haven’t read her beautiful and thought-provoking poetry, you are denying yourself of passion through words.

You can find her Tumblr, Alonesomes, here!

As the days go onI can feel your fistsloosening, and I canfeel myself slipping awayfrom your...

As the days go on
I can feel your fists
loosening, and I can
feel myself slipping away
from your paralyzing
grip. I’ve been trapped
in your hands for so long
that sometimes I wonder
how you haven’t
gotten weak from this.
As the days go on
I am inching away
from your hold,
and sooner or later
I will finally be free.

mostlyfiction:My body no longer belongs to you. My heart, the most important part of me that...

mostlyfiction:

My body no longer
belongs to you.

My heart, the most
important part of me

that you once claimed
as yours 
is no longer
in your name,
or in your hands.

I belong to her now,
and I know
 that I
shouldn’t put myself into

someone else who
hardly knows
 who they are,
but I know with me

in her hands, in her head,

and in her heart,
we will find who we are
supposed to be together.

My body no longer belongs to you. My heart, the most important part of me that you once claimed...

My body no longer

belongs to you.


My heart, the most

important part of me


that you once claimed

as yours 
is no longer

in your name,

or in your hands.


I belong to her now,

and I know
 that I

shouldn’t put myself into


someone else who

hardly knows
 who they are,

but I know with me


in her hands, in her head,


and in her heart,

we will find who we are

supposed to be together.

I want to spoil her. Give her everything that she wants but doesn’t need. I want to mend the...

I want to spoil her. Give her everything that she wants but doesn’t need. I want to mend the pieces in her heart that have been broken by those who never cared what happened to it. I want to show her life through my eyes. Give her enough light so that she will never be swallowed by darkness. I can feel myself coming out of my shell when I am around her. I’m opening myself up to trust, honesty, and a passion that my skin has never experienced.

This is how I lost you.How our hands becametoo tired of having topry out the truthfrom each...

This is how I lost you.

How our hands became

too tired of having to

pry out the truth

from each others hearts.

It wasn’t supposed to

be like this. We were not

supposed to compete

with one another on who’s

point of view made

more sense. We were

supposed to be a team.

You were meant to play

on my side. But your

competitiveness got ahead

of your compassion

and that is how I lost you.

Because I was too tired

and too worn out

from this game that I

could never seem to win.

You promised me that youwould never leave, but for meto believe in those wordswas just as foolish as...

You promised me that you
would never leave, but for me
to believe in those words
was just as foolish as for me
to believe for a moment
that what we had
could actually become 
something worth 
fighting for.

"I want you to fall in love in the right way. I don’t want you to be looking for love on the..."

“

I want you to fall in love in the right way. I don’t want you to be looking for love on the lips of intoxicated strangers, and in the mouth of someone who has been lonely for too long. I want to lose you to someone who is going to be worth your patience, and not just someone who is looking for a way to pass the time by.

Your body is an hourglass that I never want to see run-out of moments. Your body is proof that some things are never meant to make sense. I look at your skin and I can see your autobiography written in scars and in burns on the most sensitive limbs of your body.

When I lose you, I hope I lose you to someone who is able to understand the difference between sympathy and sincerity. I hope that they learn that just because you say sorry doesn’t mean that things will go back to normal, or that things will somehow fix themselves. I hope that when I lose you to someone else they will never have to make you question whether or not their love for you is true.

You are better than the waiting game. You are better than clocks. Better than 3 a.m. drunk text messages with no reply, and even better than the taste of regret on your tongue at 1 p.m. in the afternoon. You shouldn’t have gotten drunk last night in a bar surrounded by strangers who only want pieces of you that you will never miss. You need to know that you are better than that. You need to know that one-night stands only last for a few hours, and that by the morning you will feel lonely all-over again. You are better than that, than this.

I hope that when I lose you, it’s to someone who can look at your scars and see progress. I want to lose you to someone that is able to make a map by using the creases in your skin, and who only wants to travel to the foreign parts of your body. I want to lose you to someone like this because I want to know that when you leave my arms, you will retreat into someone else’s who is able patch up the pain without even using their hands.

”

- "I’m only preparing," - Colleen Brown

If loving you is a sinthen I will never askfor forgiveness.

If loving you is a sin
then I will never ask
for forgiveness.

talk about the best dream you ever had

My entire house became flooded with ocean water and when I went downstairs to check the damage, there were sharks swimming in my living room waiting for someone to open the door.