Colleen Brown's Blog, page 112
November 9, 2014
"I may not be able to be your backbone
but I can be the crutch in which you lean on
that will never..."
I may not be able to be your backbone
but I can be the crutch in which you lean on
that will never tilt or break. Just promise me
that when I need you, you can do for me
what I will do for you.
I know that people always say
that you shouldn’t have to heal someone
on your own but I don’t care about
their failed attempts at trying to save
someone whose fate only led to destruction
because I love you enough to let you use me
as your safety net. But I can’t promise you
that I may not loosen up from the pressure too
but I can promise that I will never let you
hit the ground without my dedication there
to help break the fall.
You say that I shouldn’t love you,
shouldn’t invest my time in someone
who will only drag me down along with them,
but baby, if being swallowed by the darkness
means that you won’t have to do it alone
then I will break every light, cut every electric wire
and shut out the sun if it means you not having
to endure this eternal struggle alone.
I know when you look at your past
and you see all the ones who came
before me leaving without a warning
because you were too much for them
to handle or loving you just wasn’t
worth the risk, know that if I could
I would use all of my chances if it meant
that you would stay, meant that you
would always find comfort in knowing
that I will never put my fists down
even when your own hands can’t seem
to find the strength to keep fighting.
- "Wait for me, I’ll protect you," - Colleen Brown
I wanted to tell youthat I love you
but instead
I left you wonderingif I ever really did.
I wanted to tell you
that I love you
but instead
I left you wondering
if I ever really did.
November 8, 2014
When I saw him for the first time
I couldn’t make sense of what
I had just seen. I was...
When I saw him for the first time
I couldn’t make sense of what
I had just seen. I was caught
between a dream too beautiful
to be true and a fixated reality
that looked too unimaginable
for it to really be happening.
In my eyes he was a vision
too perfect to be mimicked,
a person too beautiful and free
to belong to anyone else
but himself. In one look, in one
moment of our eyes crashing
into each other’s future I knew
as well as he did that he was
everything that I’ve been
unconsciously searching for.
When you’re stuck inside all day at work and there are no...
When you’re stuck inside all day at work and there are no windows and then you come outside after a 9 hour shift and see this, it makes it all seem so temporary.
I’m torn between keeping you
and creating new memories
with someone whose skin
I’ve always wanted to...
I’m torn between keeping you
and creating new memories
with someone whose skin
I’ve always wanted to explore.
I hope you always remember
that I love you, loved you more
than those intoxicated women
who came before me.
But there is something about
your past that I can’t let go,
something I know you would
take back if you could.
And I hate myself for holding
this against you, but I also
hate you for being able to
throw the word love around
like it was something that is
so cheap and so disposable.
November 7, 2014
"Think passion. Think too many miles and not enough time. Think soon we will be together in each..."
- "Think," - Colleen Brown
November 6, 2014
"She used to bathe in the sunlight while smoking
menthol cigarettes and dreaming about the men
that..."
She used to bathe in the sunlight while smoking
menthol cigarettes and dreaming about the men
that would soon fall under her memorizing
and soft gaze. When I think of her I remember
her haunting voice the most, and sometimes
I can still hear the innocence in the air
that once hid behind her laughter.
She was my light, my life, my memory
of a better love where there was no such thing
as growing up or growing old.
She was a vision of an almost immortality,
and I knew that I loved her from the moment
my eyes met her hypnotizing structure.
When she first appeared in my sight
her skin was glistening beneath the summer sky
and it left an everlasting ethereal impression
that I can still remember like it was yesterday.
And even though she is no longer mine,
no longer here and no longer infatuated,
I will always remember her as the girl
who once saw me as her one true love.
- "Forever in my arms," - Colleen Brown
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"When I see the scars on my body
I think of their lingering presence
as a map of my tormented..."
When I see the scars on my body
I think of their lingering presence
as a map of my tormented past.
I do not dwell on what once held me back.
I look at the marks on my skin
to remind myself that nothing can stop me
from traveling ahead.
I will not let myself be led astray.
I know that I can continue on
this journey that I was meant
to endure and to complete.
I can defeat anything after seeing what I’ve seen.
”- Your scars are your history and we’ve always been taught to never repeat what kept us from growing,
November 5, 2014
Metaphors are uselesswhen it comes to writing about youbecause there isn’t enough beautyin this...
Metaphors are useless
when it comes to writing about you
because there isn’t enough beauty
in this world that comes close
to your ethereal being.
You are incomparable, unforgettable,
too good to be true that sometimes
I have touch you to make sure
that it wasn’t all just a dream
or that my imagination
hasn’t gotten the best of me.
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