Clementine Julep's Blog, page 8

Slowbie

I got a bit slow in studying after the reeling episode. Its okay

Today, while folding 5-7 clothes , I was listening to the continuation of Dr. Joe Dispenza audio. He was speaking about the consciousness state where we let go of our present identity, our past, our physical appearance,  time, place, everything. And at that state we feel happy, creative, healthy, confident…and everything feels achievable.

I am not stressed but whenever I think about what all I planned to complete before the exam, I just want it to be done.

Let’s get it done [image error]

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Three days three paras

The first day, I was feeling sleepy in the afternoon and took a break by drying some clothes and folding some clothes. I was listening to Dr. Joe Dispenza during this clothes management. He was talking about how past experiences repeat and how new experiences should be created. He explains that we need to start from the wish already fulfilled, feel gratitude for it and stay in that elevated emotion. I am giving my best in that aspect.

On the second day, everything was usual until the evening. Because later I had a sudden onset of severe reeling sensation. I ate my dinner and went to sleep. Today, after waking up I feel almost normal.

Today, I did a previous year paper and got the same result,that is, almost 50%. My job is not to be disheartened and keep working.

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The usual and unusual

The studies are going as usual.

Today, I tried something new in a game. And oh mine, I was blushing. What happened is, when I entered the game, it was the last few minutes of a challenge and I had to swap somethings with other players in the last five minutes. It was the first time I was doing it. I had to ask them how to do it in those very last five minutes. By the end of those five minutes, I ended up blushing.This is the second time the game made me blush. Maybe due to the jitteriness or maybe due to the interaction

Life is full of different experiences. I am lucky to have an experience like this.

And My screen time hit a record of just 2 hours out of 24 hours!

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One step at a time

I have a lot of plans to complete various topics. Sometimes I wonder how I am gonna do it all.

So, I am keeping one step at a time. And completing the things as it comes my way.

Happy halloween

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Nothing much

Just keep swimming…. From finding Nemo

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My close bubble

A handful of genuine, loving people is what makes the day. I am so grateful to have a few people like that in my life.

I was in a phase where I never experienced the perfect friendship (Venus in Virgo vibes ) but lucky to have seen the clear contrast after meeting the perfect ones .

No matter how many flaws u think u have when your with the mismatched company vanishes away with the right ones. I personally felt like ‘they make me feel like a normal human being. Not a misfit’

They never think low of you even if you fail , they know u will be successful somehow. They are never jealous, they gel with your up bringing even it has differences, mutually feel totally free to share anything, call anytime and have a lot of stuff to share all the time .

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Persistence

I am persisting in completing these solutions. I am getting the grip of it.

see in your mind’s eye, feel it, let it go and get it.

Me cheering myself: come on baby I can do it! I can do it. Yeahhh.

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Give it my all

I had just missed passing two subjects each by one mark and had to wait 6 months for the next exam to clear it. That close and yet so far. Do I regret it? No. It taught me a lot and gave me the space I needed then.

But now, I just wanna clear and be done with this entrance exam. I can’t force it to manifest.

And the only choice I have is to let go of the outcome and give my all.

Recently, I realised I didn’t pass those subjects not because I didn’t read them properly but because those were my weak subjects. Weak in the sense, I just don’t get the concept in one go or maybe never and I have to manage it with some tricks. While solving sample papers, I realised this.

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The hard steps…

Yesterday, I touched a low point where I was scolding myself. But I did recover from it faster.

Solving 200 questions is easier compared to reading it’s explanations which takes time. I had felt many times to skip the step of reading the explanation and keep solving papers. But this step is what matters.

And I am proud I am doing the hard steps anyways.

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Letting it go…

Yesterday, I shared about an interview. She also states that at that point, she just let go of the outcome and enjoyed the process of answering and knowing the right answer or how did it go wrong.

As it is well known, it is easier to share the experience after achievement than before. As we don’t know if it will work out. Similarly, I am experimenting but things are not going as planned.

What I am trying to do is relax myself and increase my concentration while studying. Let’s see where it takes me.

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