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Dating in dreams

I don’t do relationships. Maybe because I always envisioned myself being married in an arranged marriage since childhood.

You know,  I am not looking for a boyfriend. I am looking for a husband !

Surprisingly, I was dating in dreams for two nights straight. In dreams that come when we sleep.

In my first dream, I was dating a guy. Initially, I liked him and all. Later, I started noticing another guy. Then, I woke up and my emotions with the first guy sublimated as I couldn’t remember how it felt to be with him and I thought maybe I’ll end up marrying the second guy. I also could see these guys faces somewhat clearly and i don’t know them though

In my second dream, I was working in casualty which is stressful. I met a guy somewhere in between. Then, it became a fantasy tale where I had some untrained powers. I was doing strange things in casualty with those powers. It was detailed. Later, the  guy I had met  started attacking me and I kept on running around a shopping mall. Like I could remember entering multiple shops then a few escalators, lots of people Funnily, I remember this dialogue saying to this same guy who was disguised as another that a guy was chasing me for my power which is a powerful one but it was unchanneled. Later, by some reason, his disguise drops mistakenly. And I realise it’s him and start running again. I could actually hear it from his pov  whether I could recognise him at the short moment of slip. Of course she would do.

Later, I woke up and thought I’ll end up marrying him because I don’t know the reason for his violent chase where he even separates walls by his powers, throws of huge things by a flick of his hand. But if I can sit and talk with him may be I can figure it out. I could see him clearly and I don’t know him too.

Also I would like to say that I didn’t watch or read any fantasy movie or book  for a very long time almost in years.

Thanks so much! Love

What a day!

I want to share the details of today’s occurrence in order.

My day started with the dream (sleeping) of me being in the under graduate college of my second crush bringing back  the sad longing in my heart to life. I woke up, rather opened my eyes and scrolled through fb notifications and saw his profile as a new friend suggestion. I was thinking about the workings of the algorithm of facebook in the hope that maybe he may have finally visited my profile.

Anyways, it was too much to hope for. Then, I started day dreaming of what ifs it were true… For one and a half hour.

From that point on I felt miserable . I had no idea what caused it. Even if it was related to me thinking of him, I didn’t know how to release that feeling. All day I was gloomy.

Now, it is 8’o clock in the night. I was imagining myself sharing this with a friend. Then, suddenly I thought of the new friend I made just after graduation. When we go out to eat something I do not have any thought in my mind and I am completely present with him. Maybe because I am usually starving then ! I was completely myself and I never hesitate to call him or share anything with him. Though now we are not close.

Anyways, that thought lifted me from this gloominessness.

Thank you! Love you

One more subscriber! And learnings

In YouTube, there was a new subscriber. I am so happy for that. I felt like everything is finally falling into place.

As of now, my ongoing learning is about leaning into the present moment instead of thinking when this internship will end.

It requires patience.

It requires interest in participation in existing events.

It requires taking small insignificant steps that eventually amount to a great preparation. As I am preparing for the post graduate entrance exam, I feel frustrated, I feel like I am not doing enough but persistently putting small effort will lead me somewhere ahead than nowhere.

It requires us to curb anger and reason with ourself to see the pros and cons with a  calm mind.

I am learning to complete tasks a day prior instead of the last minute. I am reaching my workplace on time. Doing most of the tasks as per rules. These simple actions brought a lot of serenity into my life.

Thanks so much! Love 

A small victory

My YouTube channel is getting a little better viewership since 2 days.

And among other things I have been feeling good. Like I have figured out more about me than before. And feel peaceful from within. The same way people surrounding me can sense it and speak with me even though I am a stranger. I feel it like a completely normal thing to speak comfortably with them.

As for the classy concept I have it mostly figured it out. I think I have to write it in the form of a book.

Thanks so much! I owe a lot to this blog. It has made me reflect on my life from time to time. This reflection and course correction made me a far more refined person I have always dreamed to be. Thanks so much again. Love you

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A movie …

I just watched a Bollywood movie… And it was exactly the way I wanted stories to be. There was nothing I would change in it.

After watching the  movie I was like a child. Jumping whenever I could. It reawakened my belief that impossible dreams (romance area) can be very realistically and smoothly possible.

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Core lesson

I was seriously wondering why I haven’t manifested millions.

And today being my day off , I was going through materials to seek my answer… I realised I am not getting into the millionaire vibration.

So when I think I am a millionaire now, I get into that vibration and attract everything to become one.

I also realised I need to walk and talk by keeping in mind that I have millions in my bank account. Not talk about money or purchases but to talk with the confidence that comes with it.

I realised if I had millions I would love to check my bank balance.

I did manage my current income well. But I have to expand so much to earn my dream income.

While doing this research, my less popular YouTube channel got a comment saying ‘keep going!’ Vibrations are so powerful!

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Realising things…

Today I came across Zach Highley’s YouTube videos. He believes that we can achieve anything we want and he puts in a little extra effort than required to achieve it. He works so many hours and I was stunned for sometime. If you have been following this blog before, you would know that I am a bit too lazy.

The concept of hard work is something I don’t believe in. But ultimately what I noticed is we need to choose something we could do for hours and hours together.

And I am trying to inculcate the habit of putting in the work and the work to be of high quality. I feel I am so far away from the end destination of this goal. And I would like to look at it as one day at a time way.

Well… I got a few day offs this entire coming week and will be meeting my family finally after staying all these days alone and sometimes seeing my dad phase. I am planning to utilise this time for pg entrance exam prep. And want to wake up my passionate fantasizing side of me that has been dormant since the long ago shared adversity.

Also, I was diagnosed with Vitamin d deficiency recently with 13ng/ml. Started taking the vitamin supplementation. I had severe migratory joint pains and that is how I came to know about it.

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Challenge achieved!

I have been staying alone for sometime and it meant I had to cook balanced food.

I did know basic cooking but what happened was I had to cook in a steel utensil. I didn’t know the difference between steel and non stick pan. So, I had burnt my first few dishes. I felt frustrated but I took it as a challenge.

And today I flawless sambar. I am so proud of myself.

Push yourself to learn something new or choose to be uncomfortable zone. It makes you feel like anything is possible.

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Chapter 1 Thought and Character by James Allen

check out the first chapter of as a man thinketh by James Allen read by me!

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