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Work to fruition private series

It is a private series, if interested you can check it here. It is my daily journal while preparing for my post graduation entrance.

Pasword: fruition

Day 1 link here

Thanks so much! Love

Work to fruition

Lately I’ve been not following manifestation study for sometime. And I started feeling like I am not myself that is, who used to take risks and now I am being totally risk averse. A person who had spontaneously gotten ideas and now is thinking harder for ideas.

And as many times I shared before, while I was travelling in a car, a random Earl Nightingale’s audio was playing bringing me back to myself. It reminded me that if I persistently think about my dreams, I’ll live it. For greater income, give more service.

So the difference being in a mastermind group (which I am not in any yet) , helps you build faith that things will come to fruition and keeps reminding you the same again and again.

And today, that small reminder opened a lot of ideas for me.

Other things…

I became aware today that the last great failure I had spoken about is still affecting me. That failure is making me doubt if I can Ace the post graduation entrance exam. This exam can be compared to riding a carriage where I am trying to hold the bridle hard but it is too heavy that my hands are hurting to hold it and it will slip from my hands soon.

Everyday I feel I could have spent more time studying. Everyday I regret wasting my time. I want to be easy on myself but the shadows of the failure warns me that I failed because I was previously easy on myself. I don’t like it that I am repeating the same cycle of mistakes again and feel helpless. Like the bridle NOW I am holding it hard, bearing way more than I can bear and yet I know it will slip away TOMORROW, I stare at it go away from me helplessly.

I want to make it happen. So, I will share everday with you guys of how much I have learnt and if I am satisfied with how much I have learnt… It will make things lighter for me if not easier.

Thanks so much! Love you a lot. You mean a lot to me

Life lesson on worth

Life lesson on worth

Relationship fundamental…

I was simply watching short videos on favourite movie couples on YouTube. They go through a lot of lows but ultimately they held together. And that made me feel a so good like I discovered a great secret of life.

I realised in a relationship what anyone wants is Not.. the same thinking, similar culture, loyalty, less arguments… None of it.

If both promise to be together and be open about their life with each other.

I think a huge load is off the shoulders. A lot of happiness comes in automatically. And it is like ‘Us against the world’

Thanks so much! Love you

Why I wanna get married ASAP?

There was a post where I had mentioned that we expect our other half to fulfil multiple roles like a mentor, a business partner, a friend, a counsellor…it is not an easy possibility

Quite sometime I am in need of a friend who is the go to for me whenever I lose my mind. Also, I want to be around a person who respects me, cherishes me and whose company I would like to seek and makes me feel comfortable, a person who I tend to be with for major part of the day.

“Our next meeting” novel was born out of this longing. Even today, it is a soothing story for me to go back and think about as I had to break many barriers in my mind to create it.

Whenever I don’t feel good about myself, I want the company of such a person or people around me. In the previous department of internship I was in, I was with such a wonderful company. It made me feel normal and I felt like a human.

I also like the song She will be loved by Maroon 5. It is soothing me. I am listening to it on loop currently [image error]

Yeah, so  I want such a company ASAP. I don’t want it to stop at friendship. I want it to be a man. I want to hug him and all…

Thereby, marriage is the option. As I don’t do relationships

Thanks so much! Love you

Happy new year!

Happy New year!

It has been two days since I resumed my exercise. My body and abdominal muscles are aching. Especially those plank[image error]

I have also been diligently studying for post graduation entrance since two days. As I am now in a relatively free department.

Meditation and gratitude are the two habits I wanna inculcate in my life.

I always think about my future husband. I wanna be married ASAP!!!

I also take little blocks of time for collecting ideas for my next novel. But I am doing it in a slower pace. The fixed plans are to club our next meeting and mediocrity love and riches characters. Both couples will be already married in the beginning of the story. It is three years later from the previous story line.

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The change is happening…

I don’t know what I am doing but I am just giving my best in my internship. And most of my professors and seniors tell me that I am one of the best interns they have ever met. Even though I am not doing anything special!

I thank so much for their praise.

Maybe it is because I have been listening to all these personality development material that the change has come.

Another thing is…

I realised that I am still carrying some wounds in my heart. Wounds of broken friendship, loneliness, being treated badly…

Unkiss me song by Maroon 5 is so healing to listen. So, I kept it on loop.

In fact I am only listening to Maroon 5 nowadays

Thanks so much! Love you

Life seems to be the same to all…

Today, I realised that all the people has or had great difficulties sometime or the other. One being my neighbour who had met with a major accident previously. My classmates. The patients I meet with.

The only difference is how they respond to it. And how they live the rest of their lives.

Fearing the incident or living as if it never happened or being persistently positive.

Meaning there is no escape from life imposed difficulties. Each one of us face it. The only control we have is how we respond to them. And positive response changes makes life so much better.

Merry Christmas

Thanks so much! Love you

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By chance, I finally understood what it feels like love after marriage.

Hmmm… There is no feeling of attraction present… The mind says he is handsome, financially sound, settled, well behaved, yet I didn’t feel the sparks flying. So, later when you get to know them better after marriage you fall for them.

It is risky. But a stable life and caring husband can stand strong winds.

Most surprising thing is I never got the complete understanding of love after marriage until now..

Thanks so much! Love you