Clementine Julep's Blog, page 9

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What strategy to use for my special case? 1 month of preparation and still want to clear the entrance exam.

I am lucky to say I found an interview video of an achiever in almost a similar situation yesterday. I got to know that I need to set my target to at least 160 out of 200. And that they always keep asking from previous years question papers. I am required to clearly absorb the repeatedly asked concepts. One question paper a day.

It gave me a lot of hope that my target is achievable.

Thank you love

Wherever u r, think from ur dream

Today, I shared with my parents that I am not sure if I’ll clear the entrance exam in the first go itself. Maybe the next one…

After listening to this my mom told me, if you prepare with that mindset, you can’t do well in the exam. Prepare as if you will clear it in this first attempt itself.

Now, tomorrow, that is how I am gonna do it. I am going to think from the future me . Like these thoughts, Whatever I read is gonna take me one step closer to my dream and gonna help me in the exam. I am happy and motivated instead of unconfident) and distracted or overthinking and in turn utilising my time to the fullest.

REMEMBER YOUR FUTURE…

Price Pritchard mentioned in school of greatness interview

Thanks so much love .

My mock test results saddening me

I have been sad and lost since yesterday. So, I needed a space to pour my heart into. I had been preparing for the most awaited exam for a month which usually is not enough time. Now, I am left with 20 days to go.

The test results that I had attempted without any preparation were almost 50% correct. The tests I am attempting after starting the preparation, remains the same. I was expecting  that at least I would cross the 50% margin but I didn’t.

I hope my plan works.

See , before writing this post, I felt lost but after sharing, I sense the support of all the people who root for me. I promise to give my best.

Thanks so much love

Understanding my venus sign

My sun sign is Leo, moon sign is Taurus and venus sign is  Virgo.

Sun sign means the seen side of me. What others can see.

Moon sign means the unseen. My emotional side. As a Taurus I like aesthetics, luxury, comfort, traditions and stability.

Venus sign is about my relationships. As a Virgo, I am looking for perfection. Also, I never fell romantically in love like a leo does. I can be romantic being a leo but my heart doesn’t get moved. Leo wants the dramatic love and Virgo looking to perfect the experience to reach that expectation.

Also, it is one of the many reasons I think my parents can decide a good husband than me. I will be looking for perfection, stability and drama. He can impress my parents faster than me. And I’ll like him because he could impress my parents.

This is my understanding of me.

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How I’ve spent my stipend?

It has been such a long time since I wrote a post. I missed how it made me feel…

I didn’t know what to share as I am writing this post. Anyways, I woke up in such a good mood today as I had a simple dream. I don’t remember the dream now though

As my internship has completed, I wrote down how I’ve spent my stipend and it was not bad.

15.4% – expenses +8% – unexpected college expenses like for the  graduation ceremony…10.4% – generosity 15.1% – invested (in stocks)50%- parents ( just like my sister had done)11.6% – savings + ( 17.8% raise in income for the last 8 months of the one  year internship which I excluded from the total percentage)

The expenses ratio is 23% and if the raise has not added, my savings were just 12% which didn’t look plenty to me. Now, it looks great after the addition.

I feel like I lost the touch of writing blogs

I am expecting a lot of life changing moments next year. Me completing college and moving to the next phase of life. And of course, marriage plans. My situation is like everything is ready. My uncle was even discussing the venue for the marriage. The only thing wanted is the groom. Let’s ebay him

Thanks so much! Love you

The Next dream lunch.

The entire blogging journey started with my dream to attain the postgraduate placement of my choice (it being cardiothoracic surgery).

The exam is scheduled to be held on the 10th of November 2024. 83 days to go…

My internship will be completed by the end of this month. So, my brain was all over the place and I couldn’t prepare anything seriously till now.

So, I was saying to myself if not this exam then the next exam in the next 6 months. But my mom says that I am capable of clearing it this time itself only if I put my mind to it.

I have been reading ‘you square’ again. It says faith is so important. Second, to ‘rely on unseen forces.’ I cannot do it all on my own.

There is another expensive resort at our place. My mom wanted to go there and I ended up saying we will go there to celebrate the clearing of pg exam and getting my ctvs placement in the college of my choice. Now, I need to visualise it and bring it to reality.

The thought is so pleasing

Thanks so much! Love you

What makes me fall in love ?

After the dating in dream part 3, I realised marriage is about partnership. A discussion can help with what roles we will play in our relationship.

A few days before, I sat and kept thinking about what I expect from a marriage. It was simple when I separated what he and I would contribute, it was very easy to imagine a wonderful marriage in that way. But I can’t fulfill all of those roles in reality.

I had written that I would take care of cooking, house cleaning and raise our children in a safe and cheerful environment. But planning to pursue cardiothoracic surgery, I won’t be able to perform these tasks.

This point muddles my mind. I need someone’s help to raise our children and keep the house spotless and cheerful. If so, all I need to take care of is to spend some quality time with our kids and husband.

I had just written a list of what I expect my husband to be and I felt the most important thing missing! I don’t like him romantically.

I thought about the novel ‘to all the boys I’d loved before’,  I really liked that he admired her in childhood. You just know it when u set eyes on this person that he or she is the one. I have come across so many real life stories where one of them knew that the other was the one. My dad knew where his wife is gonna be from. David Beckham could tell that he would marry Victoria when he just saw her on tv. Grant Cardone also knew that when he saw his wife.

Another thing I liked in the novel is when he comes to pick her up at dawn which she casually asks for before.

Other things I would like to add to the list of what I expect from my future husband is spending quality time together where the conversation flows.

Thanks so much! Love

Dream dating contd *3

As for this dream, it definitely is influenced by the novel I was reading before falling asleep. I also don’t remember the entire dream.

There was a guy, as always, we were working on something, maybe a function. He had long hair. We were of the same age.

We were totally normal with each other and both of us didn’t think of the other in a romantic sense.

So, when the elders decided to arrange our marriage, we both were equally surprised. I immediately wanted to refuse but I did not. I took my time to think about it. There were moments when I used to flip his photo and the photo became magically handsome for a few seconds. I mean he transforms into someone else totally in the photo.

Anyways, we end up getting married. We both were awkward with each other considering the circumstances of our marriage and the unfamiliarity between us. But it was him or me I don’t remember exactly but one of us first initiated the cuddle while sleeping. As in, afterall we are married, so I have the right to cuddle you despite the circumstances of the marriage like thought… And the other agreed

The cuddle was very calming, soothing and comfortable. I remember glimpses of works scenes where he was good at something and I was a mess in that that he couldn’t believe why I did it this messy. But in some other areas, I could steer a situation easily better than him. It was like a ying yang combination.

The last thoughts were that our parents predicted well that our match was a good one.

Thanks so much! Love you

Being exceptionally good

A few moments ago, I got an exceptional invitation to participate in a global cross server competition in a game despite being a free player (no special paid privileges)

The game is about royalty and the ways of managing a kingdom with great graphics.

You may think I may have worked so hard for it but I only did the bare minimum in the game. But I did visit it regularly and played for a few minutes each time though.

It turned out I was in the top 10 at the beginning of the event. Like come on it was like, unbelievable. I didn’t do anything special at all. I didn’t even give a thought about these competitive events.

Yeah, anyways it was exactly how I had got most of the best things in my life except for the medical seat for which I felt like I was going against the flow, felt a lot of resistance and then got it.

But this one moment was where it was 100% perfection. Like the global top 10. No compromise, universal top. In a seamless, consistent, effortless way.

I want my life to be like this. It was like this before but not with such perfection. Let it fine tune to perfection.

Yeah, I have to say dream life can be effortlessly earned.

Thanks a lot! Love love love

Dating in dreams cont…

The first post is here – click here. 

So, I had another dream of ‘dating’ the day before yesterday.

It was almost youngish. I mean the people around me were kids. And this guy was I think a teen. I remember a part clearly where I was removing someone’s heart where the ribs were already cut over. So here is the dream…

A few families were in a foreign land on a vacation including ours. We were waiting to start our trip after refreshing. I was asked to look for this guy. I simply called him and I get to know that he has already reached the place we were about to visit which was some massive building made of huge grey stones that we had seen on the way to the place we were staying. I was shocked! He is a kid how can he just run off to some place in a foreign land . I just couldn’t take it in. The hilarity of this boy and his co conspirers. I had to cover up his absence. We reach that place and he appears as if he was with us all along.

At this age, I can’t say I am a 100% prim and proper. May be 90% . But in this dream I was definitely that. Complete honesty, calm, gentle, kind. He did something stupid as always and all of these good qualities in me were exposed. I felt good.

When I woke up I was like why will I ever date a guy so naughty. He was unbelievable. I personally like someone who is mature and responsible. He is none of that. I tried to convince myself maybe love comes unexpectedly . Or it maybe his younger version and my older version ( me being a ctvs surgeon) in the same timeline.

Maybe I liked him a little bit even then.

Oh by the way, I can’t help but make some sense of my dreams. I am just too logical person who wants something to hold on to.

Thanks so much. Love you