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Journaling…

I have been preparing for the exam very slowly. Everyday at least for sometime. So, sometimes I feel down . I have to start all over again. Most importantly, I have to cheer myself up that I can do it. Yeah, so come on come on baby you can do it!!!

All my support system has changed since the last exam.  Of course, I have my family and I have this blog just the same as before

I just wanted to write down and clear my head. I have to reignite my desire. Listen to a really good video advice from a good, kind person on how to handle being a first year post graduate resident because it gives the emotion of the future and helps in my visualisation. Waking up early. And keep getting better at covering topics more and more.

A lot to do.

Thanks. Love you

Secret behind wealth

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Dating in dreams … 5

If you’re new here, this series is about the dreams that I have while sleeping in which I meet a guy and it almost feels like a date.

I was about to wake up. I realised I was sleeping with my face partially on something other than a pillow which is a first for me. I kissed it. Then, I remembered I was never in  a relationship all my life. I woke up surprised of what happened to my real life. Oh! It was just a soft mini whale toy which usually falls of the bed by the time I wake up.

But later I thought it felt good to wake up like that, a blushy smily (I prefer a pink emoji for blush smily)

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Result

The results have come. I did a good job for first attempt. I got 117/200 correct.

I have to take the exam again [image error] that is going to be in the next 6 months. I will give my all.

I was crying for sometime that I couldn’t make it in the first attempt and I got all the negative thoughts related to miscellaneous subjects. I tried mixing college and personal hobbies but I couldn’t manage it well. So, I can’t manage my future marital life also…. Like that thoughts. I don’t have any idea how I am gonna manage all areas my career, family and business together. But I’m stubborn and I’ll do it. Uncertainties are uncomfortable but necessary for progress.

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Free time hobbies

I was doing a lot of trial and error during my college on what activities make me happy during my free time.

I tried cooking, painting, writing novels, blogs , house keeping, reading novels, playing piano, watching movies… I never felt good by the end of the holidays. I realised I liked to be productive.

So, this week I am cleaning the house. Learning Beethoven Moonlight sonata. Hmm.. that’s all including playing that game a little . Anyways I do feel productive and happy. And I don’t have to wonder what makes me happy now. I am keeping away from romance as much as possible like movies, videos and novels becuz it makes me feel unsettled and gloomy about love.

Three more days for the results!

Thank you love .

Day of the exam

I have done far better than I had expected for the first attempt with 1 month preparation. But I am not sure if I can make it to the top ranks. Like I don’t know how to predict the rank with my performance. Results are awaited within 6 days. Let’s expect the best.

Now, I can relax a bit after such a focussed one month prep till results come

Thanks so much love

One Day before the exam

Almost completed the revision that I had planned. Hoping for the best. Remember ur future. It is done. Very cryptic…

Wish me best of luck!

Thank you love

Hope and Relaxation

Yesterday, I had a thought of why think of the probabilities and attributable factors of  a favorable outcome. I can always hope for a great outcome. Hope doesn’t require an impeccable historical (our past) resume for the success to occur. It is light, it is pure, it is available for all at all times. I will lean on to mon chéri Hope

Today, I did relatively better in the sample tests. I am more peaceful and calm. Hoping for the best.

Thank you love

Conquering Stress…

Now, I am getting stressed with less than five days left. My shoulders are stiff, I keep moving my legs, I am getting negative thoughts about the result.

Even my game is reflecting my stress as when an event began, in the beginning I was stress free and I was declared 1st. But once I knew I was first, the pressure came on me and I couldn’t perform well later.

As the manifestation states, even in these moments, I have to “remember my future”.

I am already what I dream of. Since I am. why worry about the result whose outcome we already know. In this relaxed state I perform excellently.

Every time my muscle stiffens, I am saying to myself, it is done

Thank you love

Dating in dreams ..

I did complete a small step in the studies side.

So, yesterday, I had this dream where I was a junior doctor with another female colleague. After sometime the senior doctor came and we were checking each patient. I was scared of  my senior sir like what question he may ask, what mistake I may have made… Everything was professional till the end. Then all of us were having dinner. Then, I don’t remember line to line but we were getting comfortable. Sometimes I was scared also. The funny part is this senior keeps taking extra serves of rice just to stay with us longer. In between he also asks me to feed him. I took it lightly as a joke. We speak of some other topics. In the end, it becomes too obvious that he is taking too much rice. He again requests me to feed him. In the dream. it was a mushy moment, him being someone entirely different from the senior persona, doing stupid tricks, stuffing himself with rice , requesting like a child. In that magic, I give in to feed him. There the dream ends.

When I woke up, I was like I want to marry him. I want him near me to feel that mushiness.

Thanks u love