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Happiness Index

I read an article on what our happiness depends on and sharing some random takeaways –

Reducing anxiety on all fronts, financial, physical, healthwise, politically, socially and internally and environmentally

+ Basic needs met, so money has a role too
+Have time for spiritual growth,
+Charitable work,
+Volunteering and
+Collective social engagement through +Activities like sports or hikes.
+Access to a clean and healthy environment
+A non-divisive political sphere

+Sometimes we can be wholly focused on the finances until the health goes.

+We can be involved in serving others but haven’t seen to our own financial security. +We may enjoy our work but maybe we don’t feel safe,

+or live in a deeply divisive and combative household.

The original article is here

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Game of life

In this poem, the universe/God/life tests the people who follow their heart/ passion/dream. Our faith on ourself and/or on God’s plan is depended on us. That is unconquered by the dark circumstances around us. Rise above our circumstances, be brave and courageous, conquer our deepest fears. Keep on holding on dears. Persist by your own will… the obstacles gives away.

Hence, I am the master of my fate

I am the captain of my soul

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Such a beautiful dream

It is early morning now as i am writing. I woke up with a big smile. Because i was in a wonderful dream.

It was a dream come true. I was among people who i have interacted with virtually on a bright picnic-y day, outdoors in a foreign land. An intimate meeting with the top people in the field.

My heart felt so peaceful…

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A wonderful message

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In 10 years…

Yesterday evening, it was rethinking time for me. Should I or should I not change my career?

All morning the thought was bugging me. So, i sat with writting affirmations that were not related to my career. I targetted 50 times then it turned to 100 times… It was a short line so not that hard to do.

Simultaneously, i was listening to a small audio clip on manifestation repeatedly. Then, moved to another one.. then the next…

Slowly, I felt happy, free and courageous to change my career. After few more moments, a question popped into my head, whether i am able to imagine myself in that other career 10 years later. And the answer was an immediate no.

Then, i changed to listening to a class on manifestation, seeking to find some guidance on what i need to do, how should I make a decision?

These are what I’ve learnt,

1) No body should tell me what decision i need to make, that is for me to do?

2) Goals can be achieved anyway. The three things you always make sure is irrespective of goal achievement pre se are-

I) Will it give you happiness

II) Do you have people to share them with?

III) Do you have people to help you?

With time develop bonds!

3) Limiting beliefs, i realised i doubt my ability in my academic field. The thought that made it clear was by letting me think that take it for granted i get my dream post graduate placement. Will i be accepting it or leaving it behind?

My instantaneous response was “I will definitely join”

Next doubt was, will i be happy doing my post graduate course? My response was i must try so that i won’t have any regrets later.

What about the other career that i was thinking of? I can focus on it full time any time in future but this current career opportunity is best utilised now itself.

In addition

After almost two years, i am answering this question with absolute clarity – “What do I really want?”

Ultimate goal – HAPPINESS + FREEDOM TO TRAVEL ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD AT ANYTIME WITH THE BEST SERVICE AVAILABLE + A LIVING WITH FINER THINGS IN LIFE

Some more specification –

+ enjoying every facet of my career

+ enjoying every moment in my career and life

+ free to pursue my passions like learning European languages, playing piano, learning horse riding…

+ sharing my life with my other half who share similar thinking.

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Crossroads

School, college, family, anytime, anywhere, i fail to understand human behaviour. I don’t grasp who a person really is? A well wisher or otherwise. Or a person with good deeds or bad. A person who likes me or hates me. I feel like i have a low IQ in this section.

Someone pointed this characteristic in me. And all the memories started to fall into place. I never felt i belonged anywhere. It becomes very hard for me.

Let me try to describe my situation –

Imagine being in a crowd meaning, surrounded by many people. Let each person represent a question in an examination paper. And I don’t know the answers to any question in the paper. Even the people who i am close with. Let’s say i start writing about them. At one point my heart feels as if this answer is not the right one. Something in this answer does not sit well and i do not know what it is. Lonely when surrounded by people where each person represents a puzzle that i never succeeded in solving. This unending unsolved examination is haunting me.

My biggest fear is not that i do not know the real them but that i don’t want to be taken advantage of, made to be a pawn in a play.

I want to be a respected individual. All these previously mentioned situations, a respected person smartly avoids. This respect reflects one’s self esteem.

My knowledge feels so inadequate to judge this is right and this is wrong. If wrong how to deal with it instead of burying my head in the sand.

So, i unconsciously prefer to be alone and deal with people as less as possible.

Apart from that…

This strange quality of mine can be improved with experiences. But as of now it is affecting my career, relationships and my happiness in turn. I need a short term solution yaar…

Also, sooner or later i will get married. It is my belief that if i don’t set this quality right, i won’t be able to choose the right one or to make it blossom into a beautiful relationship.

Lately,

A lot of times but recently with serious thought i have been thinking to change my career. 

But i don’t want to give up so easily. I am figuring out a way to get past this inadequacy of knowledge.

Some fantasy like hiring a secretary who is fiercely loyal to me and deal with people section on my behalf and give me a list of people whom i can safely deal with.

Also, a mentor who teaches me to be a bitch instead of a doormat like the crux of the book why men marry bitches ?

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Sense of urgency

Sense of urgency means doing the tasks right now. Like you are given a task and told to do it. You finish it right then.

I’ve heard that our limiting beliefs are minimum when we perform a task immediately and get it done.

Also, today i heard that sense of urgency habit can take you to top 2%. This line really bought me in and I have in my mind an area that i am starting to apply this into.

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Accidental meditation

Recently, my phone had a software update. Today, while scrolling through phone i saw a new app. It was zen mode.

I didn’t know what it meant and I clicked start.

For 20 minutes i was staring at the phone (like someone caught) listening to a soothing music. And thoughts that i think about sometimes kept flashing in my mind. It was a clearer awareness of my thoughts.

The app started with the phrase. Keep it up. Then at 10 minutes it changed to believe in yourself. Which i needed the most by that time. And last 2 minutes, it said don’t give up.

It was really nice experience.

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Feeling in my element

After i wrote the previous blog. I realised i am traditional. But it was confusing because my actions didn’t reflect this idea.

It is like the Taurus energy. ” The Conventional” My moon sign or the emotional side of mine is Taurus

Yeah, so one side of me didn’t understand if i like traditional ways when my actions where not so. Second, the world is changing so fast and people are embracing cultures across the world.

And i was trying my best, giving my all to become broad minded. But the moment i come across something traditional i feel at home. This is me. This is all i want. Let the acceptance, broad mindedness ideology get out of sight out of mind…

These thoughts kept towing me to and fro for so many years. But today i am so sure of myself. This is who i am and I will only be happy with a person like that only. Period.

Personally, this is my stand. As for others, i am equally happy with decisions they take, for their culture when it provides them the happiness and bliss it is meant to provide.

And coming to my actions, i will slowly change them to traditional as well as be open to other cultures too. It will take time though.

I am just following my heart’s desire

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My environment and me …

Just a few minutes before i became aware of something. The order of my realisation was in this order.

First, i was thinking of all the people who made me feel bad about myself. It was their look or their irritation of handling me. They were all from college.

Second, i realised that this is the reason i subconsciously, unknowingly didn’t want to do my internship in my college. Because i didn’t have anything to look up for. In short, who likes to be surrounded by people who either hate you or don’t bother much about you or who are friends but have many friends to take of or people who know you as a child but not know you fully and having no one at any seniority level who cares for you. It is lonely and shaky to be there.

Lastly, i thought that sometimes at home too i felt left out.

But on the other side

The times i was successful, i had 2-3 friends each time. We shared the same ideals (the previously mentioned people didn’t). I felt so comfortable and cared for. I looked up for the next day. I never felt like i worked. And we few friends cared for each other and were close with each other. And at that period i got exemplary results.

So, i need to magnetize “a few” people who “share my ideals”, for whom i am “a close friend” and the bliss of this move me forth in my career and life

Yeah, i am magnetizing them to me. Magnetizing, magnetizing magnetizing, magne…

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