Clementine Julep's Blog, page 17

Being silly

It is 11:30 pm at my place when I am writing this blog. I am listening to ‘Capital Letters’ of fifty Shades.

I am thinking about my future husband, the obvious for a romantic like me. He will be my first (and the last) in many ways. I don’t even know how he looks because i don’t know him yet.

All this mystery makes me feel anxious, scared, excited, looking forward to and all.

After using Demartini’s method, I can imagine a realistic person and I realised that I like both his positive and negative polarities equally. At different moments, i need one or the other side.

At the start of 2025, I will be a married woman. Because when my dad decides a date it happens by then. I am totally on board with this idea if not the sooner the better.

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You bet i did it!

I have communicated one on one with a few millionaires and multimillionaires. But today is the first time, I got clearly guided on what to do by a multimillionaire.

It was from an unexpected source.

All I have to say is you are a magnet baby and just keep up with the practice with the greatest secret everything will happen in its own time.

Thanks so much! Love youn

Dreams sleeps and subconscious mind

I read a short informal book on how to manifest my dreams written by a person who is living her dream. In that I had been doing all the steps but she mentions that when you understand the difference that ‘desire’ is when you do action of thought instead of the ‘want’ where you do thoughts of action, with desire one can manifest quite faster. Plus, has to feel it and believe it. She also mentions that we have to think from the dream and not of the dream.

There was one other Facebook post from a person who achieved his dream. He talks about how to not keep your dream on a pedestal and to normalise the dream as something natural to you.

At some moment of me dissecting this information, something shifted in me. I was feeling comfortable being wealthy.

The dream last night

I had died in my dream and I was wandering around in a soul form to people dear to me.

They were all speaking to me with the belief like I was there with them doing the usual thing though they knew that I was no more. There was some scientific fact that made them believe and my soul inturn that I was alive but my vitals were all gone. I too knew I was alive because my soul was wandering around them assuring them that i would return. There was a melancholic and longing vibe. It was hard to see them speak to me with small hope and almost lost belief that I would return. I didn’t actually see my body in the course of this dream.

I felt peaceful and light in that form, seeing them I realised how much they loved me, how it would feel like to never get back the person once they are gone, i also didn’t want them to move on and to keep thinking about me and to keep speaking to me, I was trying to ease their pain as much as i could. Also, i was married in my dream and my husband was one of the dear ones who missed me so much. Though I started waking up by then.

After I woke up

I felt anger and sadness because I didn’t want to die that early. I felt scared. The lightness and peace all of it left me. This day that I am alive felt like a day to say goodbyes for the last time. The dream was a message and I knew it.

I was scared to check the meaning of this dream on my phone. And I did it anyway.

Interpretation

Dying in one’s own dream means It’s a symbolic death of the old you, and the birth of a radically transformed you.

Even in tarot cards (which I used to watch but now stopped watching) there is a death card implying rebirth.

I was so scared until then.

The subconscious mind communicates to us in images, emotions and symbols. And this dream was its way of saying that I have transformed even if I am not aware of it on the conscious level.

Thanks so much! Love you

Self worth rising

Self worth. It has been almost three years into dream building and all. I have been religiously writing my dream in the present tense. I think there is some shift taking place. I wanted to share a few easily missed simple things that happened in my life.

I had a dream, the one we get when we are sleeping. In the dream, I was in an unfamiliar classroom, as usual like always the way I am, I am sitting in a corner silently doing something. Those were three seater benches of our school that I am familiar with on which there will be a lot of stuff marked and carved on it with compasses, dividers and whiteners.

But the class was a bit cramped like a room in a spacious flat. And these benches were occupying the whole width of it. I felt there were narrow balconies seen out of the window where old benches were stacked one on each other. It looked like we are second floor. In my heart I felt like I liked this place, the architecture, and the feeling described as the good old days.

In my mind, I was writing a beautiful philosophical but not exactly philosophy, in fact while dreaming I knew exactly what I was writing and the thoughts were a little challenging, enlightening and changes ones thinking on a topic completely.

We were waiting for our teacher to arrive, other students were discussing something. They pulled me into their discussion.

Then, one of my college professors enters the room. Everyone hurries up and gets ready for the class.

She proudly announces about a book I had written that has entered the final top 10 in the selection process.

AT THAT MOMENT

I felt a big load lift off my shoulders. It was the feeling that comes after working, working, working without even getting a glimpse of light ahead in the tunnel that I was walking. And it was a moment when I forgot that there is a time when we will get to see the light.

I had a lot of things going on in my academic side. It felt like yeah I am making something happen.

After some time

All that boost again waned down.

Another liberation

I got a plan to achieve a check post of my goal. For some unknown reason, the feeling of prosperity of receiving that income lasted for days. I was easy-grace confident that this is a definite thing that will happen. It looked very achievable. And i planned what I would do with this money. Like joining the coaching and all. I felt so happy like the feeling… Finally… I arrived at my destination.

I was not needy and i experienced high self esteem. On the other hand, I could imagine myself negotiating for a partnership and the price I was demanding was lesser than what I am gonna deliver. It was because I was clear of what that position demanded, what that company needed, it aligned with something I am passionate about and I will intrinsically prioritise it by giving it time without thinking. I know what I would do, how I will approach the clients, I also am sure that I can do this job better than anyone else. No one needs to push me to do my work. Also, I am confident enough to negotiate any demands from that company that i may need. That position only demands what I want to do. The other parts are covered by others.

What doing now?

I talked about the plan. I am working on the plan now. i will mention it soon.

I reckon it’s again my turn
To win some or learn some

I’m Yours song lyrics

Thanks so much! Love you

… Not for the weak hearted

My current favourite lock screen

My first book is about how regular visualization and living those emotions leads to manifestation.

There is another definition for manifestation. That is, know what you want, pay the price whatever it demands.

At first, it may seem like it is all about your hardwork. But no, I personally don’t believe in hard work. I believe in working on things effortlessly and enjoying the process. The hard work that you love to do. It automatically comes when you walk along/align with the passion that you believe in that it is serving or helping others improve their lives. That is the only thing you love to do and do it really well. You improve on it as you naturally would spend more time into it. Allow yourself to follow your heart/passion.

The price is about everything that comes with you reaching your dream. It includes your work, it includes your circumstances, it includes your failures that will unexpectedly hit you, it includes the dark heavy clouds hanging over your head, it includes your happy moments, it includes the completely changing person you are becoming, for some it includes leaving behind some part of your either childishness or seriousness. For some there will be memories that happened but are never to be relived.

It is like a war, similar to the basic theme in Gone with the wind novel. Time will keep moving on, change will be imposed on you anyway. It is up to us to make it like the way we want it or let life keep happening to us. To move on and adapt to the changing scenarios in our lives or stop living in the present and reminiscence in the past that will never return.

Thank you so much! Love you!

New lessons

I thought now that I know the secret and the rituals, there is nothing new that I will come across in the future. But I did though.

It was lessons by Dr. John Demartini. The valuable lessons that I’ve learnt are –

1) What is the most valuable and highest priority you are already, unconsciously giving to in your life? What are your values? Here is the link where Dr. Demartini asks certain questions that determine it. Example is like what are top three things you always need? What are the activities you spend most of the time in? …

I personally feel that this exercise will in some ways help you figure out your purpose and the service that you would love to give.

2) Neutralizing / law of balance / law of polarity and the unity of the two poles

Yin Yang philosophy. I never understood properly until this explanation.

We all know that in nature, there is a positive and it’s opposite the negative. There are positive and negative charges in electricity, together they create the current. There are opposite emotions happy/sad, selfless/selfish, leader/follower. There are opposites in physical attributes, tall/short, fair/dark..

Now, the question here is ? Do you accept the negative side of life and when it comes which you know it will come as it is a part of life, will you work with it or avoid it?

How I understood this concept is, it goes like this, Dr. Demartini was teaching how to attract your soulmate. Here is the link

First, as usual writing the attributes of what you want your soulmate to be like.

Second, to write the opposite of what we want. Also, to write the disadvantages that will tag along the positive attribute. For example, if he is a handsome person, many women will be attracted to him. If he is an intellectual person he may always want to be right.

When I did that exercise, I stepped down from fantasy to realistic, clear, simple idea. This person was so easy to imagine. He was more real, humane. He was not a perfect person and his imperfections were making him more attractive and getting along with him became effortless. And most importantly, my dream became instantaneously a certainty and very attainable dream.

3) Dr. Demartini also explains that whatever we want already exists. I am not talking about attracting to you what you want but that it already exists right where you are but not in a form that we want it in. Like in the previous example, Dr. makes that lady to think in whom she sees one of the many qualities. One by one, she states one quality in one person… But all of them were not eligible because one was already married, the other was way younger, the other was not handsome. It turns out that she wanted these qualities but she had been wounded in the previous relationships. Like the handsome person flirts with ladies and also she always felt conscious and insecure of her fitness and beauty. So, deep in her she was not ready for this ideal person and all she is manifesting are people who have the quality but she cannot live with or marry.

The acceptance that this person is a package of both positive and negative is in itself balances our polar emotions and makes us love our other halves unconditionally.

Similarly, in any situation if you write the positives and negatives, your emotions get balanced. If you feel someone is perfect and above you, write down what you are better at and balance it. Likewise, if someone is lower to you, write down what you are not good at and neutralize the situation.

Thanks so much! Love you

Bread and manifestation

As I’v mentioned in the last post, I am detailing my dream life. In the process, I had mentioned of eating roasted whole grain bread with cheese.

This was written three days ago and yesterday I was eating one. But I was just eating whole grain bread wih milk instead. The thing here is it is unusual for us to buy wholegrain bread. But it happened.

How did it come about ?

So, the first step in the creation process is knowing what you want in detail or with clarity. In this case, I just happened to type it down.

The second step is to imagine in your mind doing the thing. In my case, it was eating the bread.

The third step is to feel the sensations of the moment in our mind. In my case, it was the taste of the bread and cheese.

Fourth step is to let go of it. It is like you ordered the thing and you know it is coming. This step is the opposite of what I do usually that is to revisit the image in my mind again and again. But somehow there may be crumbs of disbelief during the process that it still remains to manifest in the physical. But for the bread manifestation, unconsciously done, I didn’t think about it again. I left the thought in the digital page itself. And it did manifest but without the cheese.

Similar to it…

I had mentioned previously of a lavish lunch party for my friends that I had manifested. I was serious about manifesting it but not serious enough to do everything possible to manifest it. So, I thought about it once with experiencing the emotions. Then, forgot about it altogether.

It did manifest after one year time exactly the way I wanted it to be.

Slight difference…

These two dreams that I manifested before were smaller, believable and I knew it would manifest somehow.

But the dreams I am working on are huge and beyond my logical mind’s reach. So, repetition of the image of doing those things feeling the smell, textures, taste… Living it now in my mind again and again may help me to bridge the gap between logic and illogic.

Thanks so much! Love you

Two learnings Detachment and joy of money

Detachment

From my recent adversity that I met, I feel right now detached with it. Meaning I am neither sad and frustrated or happy and excited instead I don’t have any feelings left within me now. I became neutral to it.

Detachment is the term used for it that I came to know yesterday in a class. It helps to keep your emotions in line and focus on what you want.

What made me achieve this state, I presume it to be is because I let the negative emotions flow through me. I thought I needed to resist it and cut the line of thoughts. But I couldn’t do it in weak moments and all of the frustration mounted in me. Everytime something reminded me of the adversity, I used to turn into a storm.

But as time passed, I felt these emotions again and again that now I don’t feel it anymore. Everything that reminded me of it, doesn’t trigger me anymore. I became neutral to the situation at hand.

Rhonda Byrne did share about this in many of her interviews. Although, it is while writing that i realise that i too had experienced it unknowingly.

Joy of Money

I do play a trade game which is not a secret. And I experienced through it that money is joy by not how much I had or hoarded but what all I can buy with it. Via it I experienced what it feels to be abundant.

I also realised I hoard products instead of selling them! Somewhere somehow I had this scarcity mindset in my mind. I forced myself to sell all of the hoarded products and this brought circulation into role and I produced more, I sold more and I earned more even though I spent the same amount of time!

I am also writing a detailed description of the standard of life that I want to live. Since it is gonna be lengthy, i sit everyday for sometime and write a part of it.

During this process, I realised the ‘ULTIMATE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN SUCCESS AND FAILURE’. It is this that we have to experience and live the emotions instead of writing the facts of the dream.

When I started writing it in detail and since I am spending a lot of time in small slots everyday, I am detailing the smell and to smell it, the dressing and the feel of it, the watch and the feel of it. So on.

I am working on experiencing my dream in life.

Thanks so much! Love you

A snippet of being rich experienced…

It was weird of how I potentially took in what I was seeing with my eyes. I have gone through rich people consisting novels and post and on and on.

But like experiencing and emotionally being one with it was sumptuous.

I came across food rich in calcium more than milk. They mentioned tofu, almond milk and oat milk… Almond milk? Whai is that!

I am personally a fan of vegan diet and would love to try some vegan alternative months regime from time to time. So, i looked into it of how to make it.

I got to know that almond milk is used in French cuisine before vegan diet was ever present. Like in blanc mange.

While doing this search, i was experiencing curiosity, childish excitement, exploring a different world of cuisines.

I also felt the same way trying mushroom cream pasta. Also, the blueberry cheesecake.

Snippet of being rich…

That is when it hit me. Rich people know a lot about different cuisines. Different delicacies served in luxurious restaurants. Now, that part of being rich is something dear to me because i love to try varities of food.

Thanks so much! Love you

I’m enough

It so happens that everyone around you keep telling you to pursue a profession, to plan things better, to not whine, to not to be lazy, oh so many talks…

At the end of it all, i started feeling unconsciously whatever i am now is not enough. And with that thought in mind, i stopped living in the present. I don’t like my present self. I don’t like my future if i persist to be the today’s me.

Above everything, i stopped being happy.

There were moments in between this life when i snap back to present, where its okay to be present or alive with my inconsistencies. It is okay to let go of the responsibilities and be free, it is okay to be going nowhere yet someone somewhere will be rooting for you. I feel fleetingly happy and lighter. Like i am back to myself and can deal with life better in that state.

Somewhat recently, i had written some attributes of an hero. Let’s say someone i would like to see as my future husband

In that one of the liberating points were – he doesn’t care of i am an intellectual or an idiot, if i am a doormat or a bitch, if i am needy or independent,….he is always beside me. The bond is deeper, illogical and inexplicable.

More like, a fixed unalterable condition of a game that he sticks with me no matter what and when i reach that state of becoming aware of that condition, i feel invincible.

Thanks so much! Love you