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March 14, 2016
When the Need to Serve Overcomes the Fear
Another slave writing assignment. When one's resistance to my power finally crumbles I enjoy making them reflect on their defeat in essay form. Enjoy...
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Harley
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Why my need to submit has overcome my fear
As far back as I can remember I have had a some thing for dominant women. Like way back to elementary school years. But I was always scared of that to a degree because it's not considered normal. And it wasn't just liking dominant women, that may still be looked weird upon but isn't strange to my mind at all, but something about serving a dominant woman. A woman with the power to put me on my knees.
Even in my high school years when I started to look up Femdom type material, I still had a fear of it all. Just dabble in it to satisfy the urges and thoughts and get away. Little did I know that this was planting them pretty securely into my head at the same time. Outwardly I tried to act normal and was scared of the vanilla world knowing of my urges. The thoughts only continued to grow though in scale. Even older more thoughts about actually serving a strong woman! I stayed scared.
I would buy videos, pictures, sometimes send tributes with messages but never really delved into serving at all. Always staying away and not getting too close because of fear. I continued to try to deny my nature at times, really wanting to be normal and not have these urges or feelings that I had to go back to and satisfy.
And then one day I stumbled across Mistress Harley's niteflirt studio. I had previously closed my NF account in an attempt to swear off of all of it once again. I was at a weak point and decided just to browse around a bit without an account. See updates and new videos, etc. I came across this studio and Her videos, and Her devious words describing what she does. Just the sight and reading of everything seems to have drilled into my brain. I actually made an entirely new account rather than wait for my old one to reopen in order to buy up a bunch of videos and send a tribute to this Mistress who had captivated my mind so quickly. I needed to see Her videos and see Her in full movement and hear Her voice speaking these descriptions into my ears. Needless to say I loved the videos, and my brief messages with Mistress seemed to talk to my soul. I got scared again. I ran away and tried to swear off Femdom completely but never made it past three weeks clean before falling right back in and buying more of Mistress Harley's videos. Video descriptions that would exactly speak to how I was feeling at the time of relapse. Knowing exactly what I was going through. Every time. And every time Mistress Harley would tell me she knew exactly who I was and how I worked. I couldn't believe it.
After running and away and crawling back multiple times, recently I had a chat with Mistress Harley upon my latest failings to stay away. Again she stated I should just give in, it was just who I was. I belonged to Her and had from the start of finding Her studio. It all seemed to make so much sense. And reading Her interviews and chatting with Her about how she influences Her slaves for the positive in order to link positive life experiences with serving Her made me want to serve Her even more! Not only can I have this need to serve met, not to mention to an absolutely perfect Mistress, but it will positively benefit my life as well. My need to serve just overwhelmed any fears I had at that point because clearly Mistress Harley is better for my life than constantly fighting my true nature, a servant to a dominant woman, Mistress Harley!
March 10, 2016
Bimbo Domme: My Version of Feminism is Sexy and Sex Positive
So, you guys know I'm kinda into Bimbofication right? For those of you who may not be familiar with the fetish it's about femming yourself out, making yourself as hot and attractive as you can (often through a combination of diet, obsessive gym going, and plastic surgery enhancements) to build your body into the perfect hot-body fucking machine.
I've worked hard to keep my body hot by going to the gym 3-5 times a week while I run many miles, squat 100s of pounds, and spend hours pouring sweat to keep my waist tiny, my muscles shapely and strong, and my body like the flame that losers just can't help but drool over. I also make sure that all the little feminine touches are always done. My hair and makeup take hours each day, manicures, pedicures, and waxing happen weekly, and I always make sure I'm looking my hottest. I spend hours at the salon making sure I get my expensive variety of hair colors, extensions, and of course making sure that I'm always looking good. I spend a ton of money and time shopping for makeup, jewelry, sexy little outfits, the perfect matching accessories and my massive high heel collection so that I turn heads where ever I go. Let's not forget the lip injections, XL silicone breast implants and more improvements to come, because I like being the hottest bitch in the room, every time.
I don't do ANY of this for LOSERS like you, I do this for ME. My fetishism is about being the ultimate sex object, being the expensive trophy girl you wish you could touch, and knowing just by looking at my expensive shoes, hair, and makeup that I'm WAY out of your league. It's expensive as fuck to look this cheap, and the sexier I look, the easier it is to get what I want from weak willed little subs. They look at me, their dick gets hard, and they get stupid. My beauty makes me powerful. I use your money to build my beauty and power, making myself more desirable and unattainable with each dollar you spend on me.
Now guess what? I'm also a SEX POSITIVE bitch. That means I like sucking, fucking, and cumming. And I'm not at all ashamed of that. What's the point of building your body into the ultimate fuck machine and not getting all the pleasure out of that from all the hot big dick men that the world can provide? Well, not much to be honest. The whole point of being a Fem Domme is that I GET WHAT I WANT. And if I want to fuck and suck, be hypersexual, and use my leisure time to get laid, that doesn't make me any less dominant. In my mind I'm winning on all fronts of life.
I hear from both Subs and Dommes who have very strong feelings about Dommes who get naked, Dommes who actually enjoy fucking, and Dommes that are "sluts." And quite frankly y'all need to shut the fuck up. First of all, subs have NO place to judge any woman based on her sexual practices. YOU are still not ever going to get fucked by a hot girl like me, so it doesn't matter if I like to fuck. In fact, my poor little cuckolds would be QUITE disappointed if they didn't know I was getting pleasured by huge cocks whenever I wanted. Dommes who judge other Dommes sex lives...well...they don't have enough subs to play with I guess. Anyone slut shaming in a sex work community really doesn't deserve to get paid or be paying.
But what the fuck is with the slut shaming? What the fuck is with people who patronize sex workers judging what kind of sex they should be having? What the fuck is up with people who ARE sex workers villainizing and demonizing the women who are doing exactly what they want? Also, women who are having sexual relations that aren't exactly what they want are called "sex slaves", and really shouldn't be demonized either.
Feminism and female superiority are not about SELECTIVELY empowering women. You don't get to blow the horn of female superiority and then tell the group of women who likes to fuck that they're not in the club. I'm pretty sure that's the opposite of feminism.
I've worked hard to keep my body hot by going to the gym 3-5 times a week while I run many miles, squat 100s of pounds, and spend hours pouring sweat to keep my waist tiny, my muscles shapely and strong, and my body like the flame that losers just can't help but drool over. I also make sure that all the little feminine touches are always done. My hair and makeup take hours each day, manicures, pedicures, and waxing happen weekly, and I always make sure I'm looking my hottest. I spend hours at the salon making sure I get my expensive variety of hair colors, extensions, and of course making sure that I'm always looking good. I spend a ton of money and time shopping for makeup, jewelry, sexy little outfits, the perfect matching accessories and my massive high heel collection so that I turn heads where ever I go. Let's not forget the lip injections, XL silicone breast implants and more improvements to come, because I like being the hottest bitch in the room, every time.
I don't do ANY of this for LOSERS like you, I do this for ME. My fetishism is about being the ultimate sex object, being the expensive trophy girl you wish you could touch, and knowing just by looking at my expensive shoes, hair, and makeup that I'm WAY out of your league. It's expensive as fuck to look this cheap, and the sexier I look, the easier it is to get what I want from weak willed little subs. They look at me, their dick gets hard, and they get stupid. My beauty makes me powerful. I use your money to build my beauty and power, making myself more desirable and unattainable with each dollar you spend on me.
Now guess what? I'm also a SEX POSITIVE bitch. That means I like sucking, fucking, and cumming. And I'm not at all ashamed of that. What's the point of building your body into the ultimate fuck machine and not getting all the pleasure out of that from all the hot big dick men that the world can provide? Well, not much to be honest. The whole point of being a Fem Domme is that I GET WHAT I WANT. And if I want to fuck and suck, be hypersexual, and use my leisure time to get laid, that doesn't make me any less dominant. In my mind I'm winning on all fronts of life.
I hear from both Subs and Dommes who have very strong feelings about Dommes who get naked, Dommes who actually enjoy fucking, and Dommes that are "sluts." And quite frankly y'all need to shut the fuck up. First of all, subs have NO place to judge any woman based on her sexual practices. YOU are still not ever going to get fucked by a hot girl like me, so it doesn't matter if I like to fuck. In fact, my poor little cuckolds would be QUITE disappointed if they didn't know I was getting pleasured by huge cocks whenever I wanted. Dommes who judge other Dommes sex lives...well...they don't have enough subs to play with I guess. Anyone slut shaming in a sex work community really doesn't deserve to get paid or be paying.
But what the fuck is with the slut shaming? What the fuck is with people who patronize sex workers judging what kind of sex they should be having? What the fuck is up with people who ARE sex workers villainizing and demonizing the women who are doing exactly what they want? Also, women who are having sexual relations that aren't exactly what they want are called "sex slaves", and really shouldn't be demonized either.
Feminism and female superiority are not about SELECTIVELY empowering women. You don't get to blow the horn of female superiority and then tell the group of women who likes to fuck that they're not in the club. I'm pretty sure that's the opposite of feminism.
March 8, 2016
Timewaster Dommes (Yup, that's a thing)
So I hear dommes talking constantly about timewasting subs, but I want to address the reverse issue for a hot second: that's the time wasting domme. There are two types of timewasting dommes- the "instadomme" kind who spend all their time trying to get you to give them your cash (and then don't really do anything else, like exert control, monitor your behavior, or bother to make sure you feel their power), and the kind who waste the time of OTHER dommes...I will explain in further detail:
1. Instadommes and how to spot them: Instadommes are the girls who really waste YOUR time as a sub. They tell you about how great they are, about how powerful they are, but when they get your money they often disappear. Sometimes they just stop answering your emails, sometimes they start to tell you a sob story about their job, or their bills, or their school costs or whatever, and get as much cash as they can from you before their accounts are deactivated and you never see them online or hear from them again. When you check their website it's gone, their twitter profile is deleted, and you can no longer contact them in any way.
Helpful hints to spotting instadommes:
1. They are always "new"
2. They always tell you that YOU'RE a timewaster, even after you have sent a courtesy tribute
3. They often have VERY few real photos of themselves. Or they have 10 photos and just post the SAME PICS over and over again.
4. They post random pictures of money with NO identifying features. The domme isn't in the pic, you can't even see a hand you know is hers. IE: They stole a pic of money off the internet to make it look like they are successful. Check out the helpful pic below as a guide.
I HIGHLY recommend avoiding these dommes, EVEN if they cam verify with you. Unless you're looking for a straight cash transfer you're not going to get much else from girls.
2. Dommes Who Waste the Time of Other Dommes
Yeah, I know I'm successful, I know I'm inspiring, I know you've read some of the press that has covered my fucking genius. Yes, I make boatloads of cash from losers, but if I spent all my time giving girls new to the scene my advice, I'd never have time for my slaves or the boys who pay!
Worse, these bitches always feel entitled to advice or help, like in this "girl power" world I should be giving out free skype calls and free money making advice to help you compete with me and try to poach my loyal slaves. Hahahahahah.
I DO offer business advice to Dommes! Like ANY consultant I charge $50/30 minute skype/ phone call. When I tell other dommes that there is a consult fee they often complain, citing that THEY are not slaves, THEY should get my advice for free! Well guess what? My TIME is never free. And it's insulting to think that instead of spending my time wallet raping and making an army of loyal slaves (which is what I'm REALLY here to do) I should be helping you pay your rent. NOPE. Success breeds success, and you have to spend money to make money. This is where the profession of "consultant" came from- you can't be asking experts for business advice without compensating them for their time too, bitches.
Domme or sub alike, just say NO to time wasting Dommes!
March 7, 2016
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March 4, 2016
Computer Control is Real and Brutal with Mistress Harley
Hey losers ready for me to lock up your PC? During a computer control session I use computer remote control software like Logmein, or other programs to come into your computer. Using remote control software I can change your settings, take admin control, give you a child's account, install web filters and so much more. Tell me your fantasy, and we'll play. Computer Control
is a REAL LIFE way to play with me from afar!Read the FAQS for more information on what a computer control session entails, what we can do, and how I do it.
PARENTAL CONTROLS
I can lock you out of your porn, your user account, your social media accounts, and control your life. Just for a session or for months, or even forever.
GAMES
We can play a wheel of misfortune game on my site or I can make a custom game just for you. Let me use fate to decide how to use your fetishes and weaknesses to torment and tease you into lustful submission.
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CONSENSUAL BLACKMAIL
I can snoop through your files, look at all your dirty photos, steal all your personal information, and use it to exploit you.
PAYPIG RINSING AND DRAINS
I can use our session to drain your accounts using a variety of payment methods. I also love online shopping on my wishlist or other websites. YES, you still have to pay for the session first.
CAM HUMILIATION, SISSIFICATION, TRAINING, AND MORE...
I can turn the cam on your computer and watch you obey me, while I snoop through your files and humiliate you, or maybe I'll turn you into my cam whore and force you to pimp yourself out on cam until I'm satisfied enough to unlock you. Computer Control & Lockdown
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Computer Control is a REAL LIFE way to play with me from afar!
Read the FAQS for more information on what a computer control session entails, what we can do, and how I do it.
PARENTAL CONTROLS
I can lock you out of your porn, your user account, your social media accounts, and control your life. Just for a session or for months, or even forever.
GAMES
We can play a wheel of misfortue game on my site or I can make a custom game just for you. Let me use fate to decide how to use your fetishes and weaknesses to torment and tease you into lustful submission.
CONSENTUAL BLACKMAIL
I can snoop through your files, look at all your dirty photos, steal all your personal information, and use it to exploit you.
PAYPIG RINSING AND DRAINS
I can use our teamviewer session to drain your accounts using a variety of payment methods. I also love online shopping on my wishlist or other websites. YES, you still have to pay for the session first.
CAM HUMILIATION, SISSIFICATION, TRAINING, AND MORE...
I can turn the cam on your computer and watch you obey me, while I snolop through your files and humiliate you, or maybe I'll turn you into my cam whore and force you to pimp yourself out on cam until I'm satisfied enough to unlock you.
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1. What is a Computer Control session?
A computer control session is where I use a remote control program such as Teamviewer, Chrome Remote Desktop, TightVNC, Remote Desktop Connection, or any other remote control program to take control of your computer. The degree of control I take over your computer, how deep I snoop into your files, or how many of your personal items I steal or delete will depend on our PRE-NEGOTIATION for the session and your specific desires and limits that we discuss.
2. What is computer lockdown?
Computer lockdown is where I take control of your computer. After you download the software you would like to use for our session, you give me the login information and I join you on your computer. Then I go about taking admin permissions and creating my own profile on your machine. I install all kinds of software on your machine including keyloggers, screenshot captures, and a variety of other spyware that will allow me to keep tabs on you and what you are doing at all times. For many slaves I set parental controls so they can not use certain applications or visit certain websites without my express personal permission. No more porn unless I say so, no more privacy, no more anything. If you are a sissy I may use my lockdown to force you to dress in girly clothing or suck cocks. If you love blackmail I may gather all your personal information and put it in a file. If you are into being exposed I will put you on cam and tell my followers on twitter to come watch me humiliate you. No matter what your fetish is I will have you at my mercy, with no choice but to obey my demands until I release your computer.
**NOTE** I always respect pre-negotiated limits. It is 100% fine to tell me that you do not wish to involve blackmail, being on cam,bank account information, or any other aspect of play. I make a point of maintaining professionalism and not violating your boundaries or limits.
3. What does the session entail?
Before we begin we discuss your fetishes, interests, and limits. I will use this intial talk to tailor the session to of course entertain myself while I use your weaknesses to control you. You MUST let me know in advance what your limits are.
When I take control your computer becomes mine. I can log into your accounts, collect personal information like photographs, logins, social media information, and any other information I may want to use for CONSENSUAL fantasy blackmail play. I will lock down your computer and filter your websites so you can only access what I desire you to access. Each teamviewer session is a MINIMUM $65 tribute for my time and attention. After lockdown you may be extorted more and more for whatever permissions you may want including things like answering your emails, watching porn, or visiting your favorite social media sites.
Sometimes sessions can include humiliation, degradation, chastity, consensual fantasy blackmail, cam-to-cam, ignore cam, or a variety of other arrangements depending on your deep dark fantasies. If you ask for LOCKDOWN you will get exactly what I describe above. If you specifically want to include an aspect like humiliation, blackmail, DURING teamviewer sessions you need to communicate that to me when we begin.
4. How do you block my programs?
I use standard parental control software, web-filtering software, built in software that is part of your OS (Micosoft, etc.). I reserve the right to NOT tell you all the of the tools I use so that you can't disobey me.
5. Is this permanent and ongoing slavery?
The point of lockdown is that you no longer have control over your machine. If you want a SINGLE session (where you are unlocked at the end of the session) of abuse that is fine, however I much prefer to drain slaves on an ongoing basis. I have had some computer control slaves enjoy my attention for over a year while I kept them in lockdown.
6. How do I get unlocked?
If you no longer want my ongoing attentions or you want me to remove you from lockdown entirely the buy-out is $200.00 payable via ANY session method on the PAY page HERE. This buy out is to secure your freedom as well as for me to remove any software I've installed and restore admin permissions.
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7. What if I decide not to pay you at all?
Then your computer is most likely fucked. I've had slaves who did not obey tell me that it cost them anywhere from $100- $300 to get their computers unlocked by professionals, and even then there were things they couldn't access or use :) Additionally I will use whatever personal information I've gathered against you if you have engaged in consentual blackmail with me.
8. Why won't you take your tribute from my computer? A real domme knows how to lock me down and MAKE me pay!
No matter how good I am I can't stop you from pushing the physical power button on your machine. Too many submissives request this and then disconnect the software or shut down their computer at the last minute, which is disrespectful, and a waste of my time. Additionally just because I have control of your computer doesn't mean that you HAVE ANY MONEY! You're probably broke and don't even have any cash for me to take. YOU PAY TO PLAY. No exceptions. Arguing is just a waste of my time.
If you agree to consentual blackmail with me I may gather your banking or credit card information so that in FUTURE sessions I CAN take my own tributes if I so desire. However I MUCH PREFER you just send me my money. The Queen doesn't go visit every slave's hovel to collect what she is due. A good slave just obeys and sends the queen his tributes.
9. Do you accept Amazon Gift Cards for computer control sessions?
Usually no, as I typically have a HUGE amazon giftcard balance that I can't spend down! If you can ONLY pay via Amazon you can ask me if I'm taking gift cards, sometimes I'll make you pay more for a gift card as a penalty for being a broke fuck who can't pay me with real money.
10. How long does a computer control session last?
Usually between 30 minutes - 1 hour depending on your system, the type of session we are doing, and how fast your internet connection is. If I spend an hour just locking down your computer because it's slow as FUCK then that's your session. If lockdown takes 5 minutes then I'll stay and play a while. It all depends on what we are doing, your computer, and how well you obey and please me.
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1. Read the FAQ BEFORE you contact me! I have already answered many of your questions.
2. Contact me directly to arrange a time for our session. I'm a rich bitch who doesn't work, so I'm usually available within an hour or so, but sometimes I'm out partying and will get to you the next day. When you contact me for the session make sure you list your FETISHES, INTERESTS, AND LIMITS.
3. TRIBUTE the session fee appropriate for the session you desire. The price should be listed under PRICING AND OPTIONS or you can ask me before you tribute how much the session should cost.
4. Install a remote control desktop sharing software such as Teamviewer, Chrome Remote Desktop, TightVNC, Remote Desktop Connection, or any other remote control software you wish to use. If you are using software not listed here tell me before we begin.
5. Set your system language or profile to English. If you are unsure how to do this go to Google and type in "How to change [your operating system] to English" and follow instructions.
5. I will be in touch with you shortly before we begin (usually 5-10 minutes). I will ask for the login information I need to access your computer and the session will begin.
March 3, 2016
How Slavery Improved Your Life
I often like giving my slaves writing assignments so I can force them to ruminate on the lessons I've been teaching them. Here's an essay I made one of my slaves write. The topic is "How slavery improved your life."
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Life since that fateful day January 15 when Mistress Harley decided to take ownership of this lost slave has improved in so many ways. Many of those are immeasurable but others can be quantified and measured. What follows is mostly about that quantifiable improvements but perhaps some of the immeasurables can be conveyed as well.
Life before this time was full of those missed opportunities because I simply chose to indulge base male desires whenever they happened to occur. I had a thoroughly fulfilling sex life with just myself and porn. My only response to emotional stress was always to either eat of jerk off and make a mess both left me feeling depressed and ashamed. I always tried to pretend to be a gentleman but deep down I knew it was just an opportunity to get a quick look. I even used to flat out tell women that was the only reason any guy held the door. I could never concentrate on a proper work out at the gym as I was simply too busy staring at all the Ladies in the gym. I spent the last year (well every year) desperately trying to lose some weight only to sabotage myself by eating junk food. Financially was an even bigger mess no budget no nothing I just spent until my account was low and waited for the payday.
Mistress Harley is my sex life now, only with her permission do I jerk off or cum. No need to feel guilty my entire focus is always Mistress Harley. No more hours searching for so new porn clip to excite me. The only purpose of my sex life is to serve and become more deeply obsessed with Mistress Harley. For stress I simply close my eyes and imagine kneeling at Mistress Harley’s feet. Not only does this work better than my former methods there is no need for regret or shame.
Mistress Harley insisted I make a budget this forced me to see all the true junk spending going on every month. In attempting to set it up I stared at numbers from January and felt a great deal of shock and shame at the absolutely disgusting amount I spent on fast food and junk food. After reviewing my budget Mistress Harley asked about the Gym membership on it. This forced me to face yet another failure.
I had made a lot of excuses but had not gone to the gym on anything resembling a regular basis for the last year at least. For the month of February With Mistress Harley to motivate I have put in quite of bit of sweat equity into improving my health. My blood pressure is down my Blood glucose is under control. Never in a million years would I have believed being owned by Mistress Harley was going to be the best weight loss plan ever but it is twelve pounds so far many to go.
Since becoming a slave to Mistress Harley my health has improved, my life no longer feels helplessly out of control. My finances are now under control for truly the first time in my adult life my money is not telling me what to do. My motivations and actions have changed when dealing with women as Mistress Harley has made me realize how much I have abused women with my gaze my entire life. I wake up feeling better both physically and emotionally every morning. It no longer feels like I am just plodding through life waiting to see what happens next. As Mistress Harley told me “Being owned agrees with you” I could simply not agree more.
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Life since that fateful day January 15 when Mistress Harley decided to take ownership of this lost slave has improved in so many ways. Many of those are immeasurable but others can be quantified and measured. What follows is mostly about that quantifiable improvements but perhaps some of the immeasurables can be conveyed as well.
Life before this time was full of those missed opportunities because I simply chose to indulge base male desires whenever they happened to occur. I had a thoroughly fulfilling sex life with just myself and porn. My only response to emotional stress was always to either eat of jerk off and make a mess both left me feeling depressed and ashamed. I always tried to pretend to be a gentleman but deep down I knew it was just an opportunity to get a quick look. I even used to flat out tell women that was the only reason any guy held the door. I could never concentrate on a proper work out at the gym as I was simply too busy staring at all the Ladies in the gym. I spent the last year (well every year) desperately trying to lose some weight only to sabotage myself by eating junk food. Financially was an even bigger mess no budget no nothing I just spent until my account was low and waited for the payday.
Mistress Harley is my sex life now, only with her permission do I jerk off or cum. No need to feel guilty my entire focus is always Mistress Harley. No more hours searching for so new porn clip to excite me. The only purpose of my sex life is to serve and become more deeply obsessed with Mistress Harley. For stress I simply close my eyes and imagine kneeling at Mistress Harley’s feet. Not only does this work better than my former methods there is no need for regret or shame.
Mistress Harley insisted I make a budget this forced me to see all the true junk spending going on every month. In attempting to set it up I stared at numbers from January and felt a great deal of shock and shame at the absolutely disgusting amount I spent on fast food and junk food. After reviewing my budget Mistress Harley asked about the Gym membership on it. This forced me to face yet another failure.
I had made a lot of excuses but had not gone to the gym on anything resembling a regular basis for the last year at least. For the month of February With Mistress Harley to motivate I have put in quite of bit of sweat equity into improving my health. My blood pressure is down my Blood glucose is under control. Never in a million years would I have believed being owned by Mistress Harley was going to be the best weight loss plan ever but it is twelve pounds so far many to go.
Since becoming a slave to Mistress Harley my health has improved, my life no longer feels helplessly out of control. My finances are now under control for truly the first time in my adult life my money is not telling me what to do. My motivations and actions have changed when dealing with women as Mistress Harley has made me realize how much I have abused women with my gaze my entire life. I wake up feeling better both physically and emotionally every morning. It no longer feels like I am just plodding through life waiting to see what happens next. As Mistress Harley told me “Being owned agrees with you” I could simply not agree more.
March 1, 2016
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